June 4th, 2004 - "like a thousand miles of fire..."

gutta make this short and quick. boss said he would be in about 10, and its 9:50.
so anyway. matty put his amp in my car and now my bass finally works without any quirks thus far. p.s. matty is gonna be 21 on sunday, wicked intense man.
my mom started talking to me again. she acts like nothing ever happened. weird.
there is so much on my mind. damn.
i went with briana, erin o'connor, and erin condon to river rave on sunday. one of the best times of my life. we were 11 rows from the stage. offspring kicked fucking ass as they always do. god i love them. <3 i just bought more tickets off eBay to blink 182 and No doubt on tuesday. i do believe miss twetha wetha will be joining me for that endeavor. at river rave i saw story of the year. i knew i liked like 2 of their songs, so i watched them, and they were so fucking awesome i went and bought the cd. good stuff. i'm impressed. i might even go to warped tour this year to see them again, if its not 100+ degrees that is, fat kids dont do well with that.
so zoe moved to boston on tues. sad. we had the best trip of my life tho the night before she left. everything was so pretty. those mushrooms were pretty dank.
justin from FPC is coming to cape this weekend, or so he says. also, cape tech is graduating tomorrow... oh god i think i might get emotional. my little ryan and little mike.. all my little sophomores. its insane. how is everyoneg getting so old and i continue to stay the same age all the time? bam is gonna be 21 on tues too. what the fuck man.
i still havent got my debit card yet. altho, as soon as i do i am getting phentermine offline so fast it will make heads spin. yeah. i am bitching out and getting skinny the unhealthy, quick, expensive way. who knows, could be the way for me. atkins clearly wasnt. i have no willpower.
i have cut down on smoking a little bit. i realize that when i smoke at night i get wicked tired and cracked out, and my eyes dont like me to drive under those conditions. however i am and will always be team motherfucking weed. which in turn means that when it is light out i will fucking smoke circles around u bitches. <3 you know.
jen andrews is on cape from nebraska with her foster son Jaden. he is 6 months old. wicked fucking cute. he is a literal crack baby.. he's got baby asthma and however you spell x-ema.. lol the rough skin thing. yah, his mom was a meth addict. he is an indian baby. well anyway, wicked fucking cute nonetheless.
my brother turned 11 the other day. wow.
i got my car insurance premium for this coming year. 2 points for 1 ticket. another 2 points for 1 ticket. then 4 new points for the accident with the mountaineer. now makes me a step 23. i have full coverage, so you know what that means? 400 bucks a month. and i need to get an apartment/house soon. hmm... how is one going to pull that off?
briana and i have to get our stuff out of the house soon. this sucks. too much to deal with. too much to think about. i owe my verizon fucking 242 bucks in 7 days or they shut off my phone. nan said she was paying it. guess not. better get to talking to her. i need her to pay the phone bill and first last and security like she said she was. she is getting forgetful tho. high and dry is not fun.
i wanted to actually get a camp site tonight or tomorrow or something but i heard its gonna fucking rain. always fucking raining.
i successfully have not gotten drunk in over a month i do believe. awesome. go me.
we hung out with mike sirignano last night. he got drunk and was planning to drive home. it freaked me out. we yelled at him. he sobered up some. i waited for him to get in his car, chew gum, and put on a seat belt.. and then i followed him out of the parking lot onto the road to make sure he didnt seem drunk. then i called him later to make sure the operation performed smoothly. all good. damn kids. my ryan better not drive drunk.
the woman that site behind me at work constantly fucking plays lifehouse, dmb (which i fucking hate), john mayor...it never ends. i told her i hated john mayer and dido, so that has kind of stopped. i couldnt bring myself to trash my most hated band (dmb) cuz its her favorite. fuck.
i think i personally am gonna sell some of my shit on ebay. i need some fast cash. well so much for making this short and quick. you know me, i like it long <3. ok so everyone i think i have just about covered most things i needed to cover. till next time folks. muah <3.
oh p.s. HANSON IS FUCKING COMING TO THE CAPE COD MELODY TENT JULY 19. YOU BETTER FUCKING BELIEVE I AM GETTING FRONT ROW TO THAT SHIT. ME AND ZOE ARE GONNA TARE IT UP. FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHHA. sorry. im nuts. laaaaaaaate.