March 16th, 2005 - "how do you want it"

i just got back from a lovely lunchbreak with miss jeni russell and her little sister jordan. that little girl is so fucking funny. she is all about matty adams. so undoubtedly that is where the majority of the lunchbreak was spent, watching a 5 year old flirt with matty. creepy, i know. lol.
went to ryan doyle's last night with briana to celebrate chris getting a job. everyone was EXTREMELY drunk when we got there at 10 o clock. lol. ryan took me and briana and paul upstairs to a dark room with only a black light, and introduced us to a little something called salvia. i have been aware of it for a longtime, but never experienced it. i was told it was like a trippy intense high that only lasts a couple minutes. i figured it wouldnt really fuck me up like they said, i have done a lot of drugs and smoked a lotta pot. yeah, im a tough guy. wrong. one hit. one hit was all it took and it literally made me feel like someone picked me up, and was hanging me upside down. like my face was getting wiped off or something. it only lasted for like 2 minutes.. but it literally felt like i was either peaking on a lot of mushrooms, or doing an overly intense whippit. my god. as soon as it hit me i knew briana was gonna hate it. boy was i right. she is traumatized now. lol. even tho it was a scary thing i decided to go for one more hit just to try it again. not so intense the second time. thank god, hah. i had to smoke real weed afterwards to get the nasty chemical-like taste outta my mouth. i cant believe that shit is legal. holy shit.
we left seekonk at about 11:45 en route to franklin to give the boys a little 1,2 hello, goodbye. ryan woke up and came to hang out for an hour. met keegan at the trope after he got outta regal. we didnt really do much except for take a brief drive in my car and hang out. but it never matters to me, im in it for the company as we all know. got home at about 3:15am. a little tired today, so im gonna hafta adderol and red bull it pretty hard tonight for my wednesday trip to the trope. love it.
im really happy lately. even tho everything still pretty much sucks as it did before, i have found myself in much better spirits. hopefully only good things are to come, cuz im not so sure i can handle the bad. : /
well i wont let this entry drag on like my others, so im gonna go. <3>