March 31st, 2005 - "so sad : ("

you guys. mitch hedberg died last night. weirdly enough ryan made a big deal about listening to him last night on the way home from framingham. so weird. so sad. he was my definete favorite comedian. and im literally bummed out. ho hum. r.i.p. mitch hedberg. : ( <3

yesterday i got the suprise of a lifetime. on the phone with keegan who calls to ask what im doing. i told him i was listing a fishing rod. he tells me he has to go cuz he was going in somewhere. and he walks through my fucking door at work. i had a literal heart attack. never did i expect it, cuz last i talked to him he was at work in franklin. apparently since he wasnt feeling good he told them he was leaving and he came down here, equipped with a sugar free red bull for me and everything. the craziest part about it was that he could only stay for a little over an hour since he worked again at 5:30. aw such an incredibly amazing guy <3

moved the last of my shit minus my posters, bongs, and dishes outta blueberry. today we ditch that tv and do that biggest cleaning job of our lives. ugh. dreading it. hard. its a nice day out thank god.

i stayed at the big house last night. it was nice to wake up to the sun coming through the skylights, i missed that.

i went to the trope last night. ryan, keegan, and i went to this other kid ryan's apartment that ryan c knows from work. he was a cool kid. we smoked with him since he hadn't smoked in so long cuz he had just had to pass a drug test. we watched some of the last samurai. never by choice would i ever do that. i hate violence. and tom cruise is nasty looking and does not look like keegan even the slightest bit.

i have to do some spring cleaning here at work today too. ew such a cleaning filled day. this is so shitty. im gonna clean like a little bitch. then sleep. then find something to do with my late night. tomorrow is friday, and thats really great. i think my plans are to go to franklin, stay at keegan's, wake up early and go hang out with my grandmother for the majority of the day, meet back up with keegan, and have jen pick us up on her way to fpc. talent show is saturday night. and we gutta party with our peoples. yeah, this is how we do. ryan should be joining us at about 11:30 that night. but he is gonna leave at like 9:30am. not even sure why he would wanna make that drive- but hey, the more the merrier.

i def almost passed out on the way home a few times again last night. im afraid that might be the way im gonna go. i think its a bad idea to have a blanket in the front seat. it was just enticing me to pull over and take a brief nap. hah no good. i had to stop at exit 8 and go to the atm to keep myself awake- and i was only like 2 min from home. AND it wasnt even 2:15am yet and im used to 3am and beyond. im getting old, whats happening to me? im so much more of a passout then ever before. but i <3 sleep an awful lot, especially cuz i dont get a whole lot of it. i really wanna go outside and smoke a cigarette but i dont know how much rob would appreciate it since i have only been here for 45 min so far. and its unlike me to take cig breaks.. but its soo nice out and im sitting inside a cold office. blech.

ryan callahan is officially sort of seeing some chic. im stoked for him. but i really wanna scope this girl out. he isnt ready for her to meet me he said. he wants to feel her out one more time before he decides if he is actually gonna date her. im just a little pissed he is already getting kisses. the jealousy overwhelms me. hah. and on that note. i gutta go.

love you all.