April 28th, 2005 - "oh folks"

this week went by so quick. love it. this day went by pretty quick too. love that more.

haven't been up to much. hanging out with the boy and the gals as usual. another wonderfully drunk 21 year old night for me at kendrick's last sunday. got a lil carried away and spent like 60-70 bucks on drinks. jamie goodwin was drinking, i almost had a heart attack, so i bought me, her, and rachel a round of sex on the beach. gutta love it. but no more mixed drinks for me on sundays. i need to stick to atkins. i need to lose weight by summer for real. i am down a pants size, and down 2 skirt sizes. wondering how i can be 2 different sizes? well its because unfortunately my fucking thighs are bigger than my god damn waist. sickening. bought a cute new bra. its lime green and bright pink. i thought i liked it in the store but it makes my tits look like they are sitting on a shelf. keegan says it reminds him of a lizard.. hmm lol

ryan is in st. louis this week training for his best buy job. how fun to go on a working vacation and get everything paid for. but i think he is gonna be hella pissed when he gets back and we tell him that... uhh.. we arent sure if we should all live together? ugh. im dreading this. but hey- talk of engagement is hardcore between us lately and i dont think an engaged couple should be living with one of their friends, its a little weird. its a little weird anyway i think. p.s. i found the cutest heart shaped platinum ring. keegan smiled when he saw it, but he says he doesnt like the heart ones. oh well. i dont need a heart one. AND he bought us a vaccuumm today, mucho necessary.

i realize many of you think its stupid and that we are too young.. its too soon.. but i guess you just wouldnt know how we feel unless you were in this situation. but, yeah, i see where you guys are coming from. def. but i feel the soulmate thing so hard, and most of you know that i have felt that way for a very long time. its just nice to know that its a likewise feeling. plus my wedding is gonna be so fuckign kick ass you people will die.

speaking of weddings i have to remember that keegan's sister's wedding is june 25. meaning i cant go to the last roots down below emergenza concert. its a bummer but the wedding is clearly more important.

fpc tomorrow night. gutta get outta work and hop, skip, jump to boston to pick ry up from the airport. then grab zoe. then head on to fpc to see my kelc and renee (since i havent seen that bitch in over a year and a half). we are celebrating the last day of the 9 days of 4/20... : (

tentative plans to stay at my moms house on saturday night. meaning, yes, small get together. that is IF they go away. keep your fingers crossed.

i havent taken bong hits in over a month. makes me wanna kill myself. i have to do it tonight. i just have to. im a team weed prez failure if i dont. i just havent been able to since i live in that lil apartment. i havent even felt comfortable enough to bring my bongs to the house, nevermind use them. i literally couldnt believe that when i was thinking about it last night.

i vaccummed my car the other day. it looks great. i didnt have enough money to armour all or wash windows tho. but when i got outta work yesterday keegan had taken my spare keys and was inside my car in my work parking lot, finishing up the armour all job. aww <3 then we went and got my car a lovely oil change. damn it feels good to be a gangsta.

picked up some lil d-yers today that needed a ride to school on their lunchbreak. they were hanging out by my work. they werent supposed to go out for lunch. they were smoking butts. so little. so funny. they thought i was awesome. i thought they were awesome for having the balls to ask a complete stranger to drive them to school, then to chat me up on the way.. funny shit.

well i gutta go. my little jen is arriving with my dinner. i must eat. do some laundry. and start some drinking with my jen, jeni, and briana. gutta love those bitches. i think we are gonna end up at greggy's house, or so i hope. who knows where the night shall take us....