Ugh. I’m sick to my stomach.
I had my second job interview for a state job last week. They told me I’d hear "something" by either friday afternoon or monday morning. It is now 10:30 on monday morning, and I have a dozen people waiting to hear if I got this job. The worst part about it, is that they’re all convinced it was totally in the bag for me. What they don’t understand is that there were 48 people that applied for this job. 14 were interviewed the first time. I don’t know how many were interviewed the second time. My dad works in that office, so I have connections. But then I find out that someone’s wife that works in that office also wants to the job. I felt that the interviews went really well, but there’s no way of knowing. My dad talked to the dude that works in the department, and I guess he hasn’t heard anything yet either. So, that’s a good thing... It’s just that if I don’t get this job we’re totally fucked. I haven’t had a REAL job since September. My cell phone bill is over $600, and it’ll be shut off any day now. When they shut if off, they need a minimum of $326 to turn it back on. Not to mention our car insurances will both be cancelled by the end of the month if they aren’t paid. Oh, and did I mention rent was due, among other things? Yeah.... FUCKED. I have spent lots of time, including this morning, looking on capecodonline and craisglist for job postings. All of which don’t pay enough, or require some serious degree. I refuse to work in the retail, food, or cleaning business. It’s not my scene. I’m an office girl. This whole thing is just devestating, especially as I watch time pass....
The wedding plans are coming along quite well though. We’ve pretty much secured all the major aspects like the DJ, Florist, Photographer, Dresses, etc. I’ve picked out my bridesmaids gifts and the overall gifts, we’ve just got to buy them. I’ve lost 30lbs since I started dieting (weight watchers) and exercising in January. It’s a nice feeling. I can wear jeans again! My main concern is to look good in my wedding pictures, and I will not like the way I look if I have fat pouring out of my dress. heh.
To keep busy lately (since we rarely leave the house), I have taken my bunny obsession to the next level. Most of you know I got Emmjay a BunSpace (same thing as myspace, but for bunnies). I have also learned that my Flickr account allows me to join groups.... so I have joined 3. Bunny Lovers Unite, Pot Smokers Unite, and I (Heart) Amsterdam. I get to post questions, answers, and pictures in my Bunny Lovers Unite group, and it’s really fantastic. I’ve made new "contacts", and they all comment on my Emmjay pictures. She’s a big hit! Like I’m surprised...
I have been talking about how I’ve wanted to get back into blogging for so long, yet when I get here, I draw a blank. There are so many irrelevant things to talk about that are flooding my mind. However, I should be listing things and/or doing the dishes. I also have to go to Yarmouth and Hyannis at some point today. I guess I am just waiting here with my stomach in knots waiting to hear about this job before I can go on with my day. I feel like I can’t even start working until I have the news. It’s really fucking everything up.
I think I’m gonna go for now. My concentration sucks and I’m in a "mood" until I have reason not to be. Hopefully I’ll be back soon with some great news!
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