May 3rd, 2005 - "a day in the life...."

ohhh man im not psyched about being at work. i know i say that everyday. and i do love my job. but no one actually likes to work. right?

so. i can honestly say that right about now i may be the happiest i have ever been. that was until yesterday when i got a $600 phone bill. is it correct? i have no idea. i need to call verizon and figure this shit out. either way- im so fucked with bills i should probably kill myself. but then i realized- i must have money out there somewhere. so lets find it. and i did just that. i put in a call to my aunt brenda to ask her about money i have in the stock market. turns out i have 187 shares of mcdonalds stock that i am now of age to get my dirty little paws on. we are talking over $5500 here folks. now, after taxes, and the money i owe my grandmother.. we are looking at more like $4500. either way- holy shit, right? totally. lets break it down to what i need this money for, shall we?
$1000- to rob for taxes
$600- verizon phone bill (provided that is an accurate bill)
$400- to nan for money borrowed last year
$200- to fix that mirror on the drivers side door or my car
$1000- to put away for first, last security on a house
$230- excise tax
$41- license plate renewal fee
$300- still hafta pay off that credit card...
then of course the regular monthly expenses like rent, food, gas, phone, car payment, car insurance, credit card, utilities, and general stuff i need personally... cigarettes, weed, booze, stuff for my house
then i will take the remainder of the money (which will not be much) and put it away in a savings account, along with the other money i should be saving to pay taxes next year. woo hoo. financial stability and an awesome fucking summer here i come!

so nan needs the big house cleaned out and organized by the first week in june. brenda says i should just keep honest hours from now until then, and she will pay me accordingly. i am supposed to constuct a team of helpers who can clean and organize. good money. so anyone that wants a "when its convenient for you" job over the next few weeks, let me know.

so ryan isnt moving in with us. erin sorta told him at kendricks the other night that we didnt wanna live with him. he talked to keegan about it, and there isnt any hard feelings. keegan tells me he is saving for a ring starting in july once we move in together. that does not mean we are getting married anytime soon by any means. these things take anywhere from a year to a couple years. so no one stress. but i really do love him more than i have ever loved anyone ever. <3 aw i know. disgusting. he cleaned my house again yesterday when i was at work. it looks beautiful. hah. what a sap i am.

went to kendricks on sunday night as i have been doing lately. jeni wasnt going this time so i got wasted with zoe and briana before i went in. then smoked with them and ryan. needless to say i didnt expect a bracelet, so i was mucho suprised when matty adams offered me his. which i gladly took. then it was off to the bar for a total of 1 passion fruit something or other, 1 fuzzy navel, 2 tube shots, 1 toasted almond, and 1 sex on the beach. i only bought 2 drinks. renee bought me a drink and 2 shots. and some random guy bout me and renee the toasted almonds. so i was way more wasted than i should have been. and while renee was trying to shove drinks down my throat (i loooove her lol) ryan and briana cut me off, cuz i was driving. which i honestly forgot about until 12:15. then i drove me and briana to dennis. so stupid. shouldnt haven been driving since i couldnt even walk. but i did awesomely and i got us home safe and sound. so next time i need to remember to not drive. or maybe i should remember to not get so wasted when i have to work at 9am. yeah, yesterday i wanted to die.

i need to start excersizing more but i need it to get a little warmer. and when i say more i mean in general. since i dont excersize at all. we did go to the cheer connection late saturday night tho. broke a light. i freaked out. bam, cap, keegan, charley, jordan, jeni, and jen did everything in their power to help rectify the situation. which was greatly appreciated. we cleaned it up awesomely, hours later. thought i got away with it till mom called yesterday. suprisingly not so pissed. i was amazed.

me and jen and erin tried to watch the excorist prequel last night after smoking a bowl between the 3 of us, then another between the 3 of us and charley and jordan. but instead we all ended up group napping on the couch at my house. how sad. i brought them home at 11. and then i went right to bed. woke up a couple times when keegan called. but otherwise i got a good amount of valuable sleep last night. which is necessary cuz i will be sick any day now since he is.

had a lotta fun at fpc this weekend. got to chill hard with renee, kelc, meghan, timmy, katie & katie, and all those crazy bitches. i got real fucked up and had to go to bed without talking to anyone but kelc. i slept in her bed and she slept on the chais lounge thing. i felt bad. she is so hospitable. love her.

im babysitting robs kis on friday night from like 6-10ish.. anyone wanna hang out during or after let me know. i know its only tuesday but whatev. i think we are going to u-mass amherst saturday night for a roots down below concert. so if anyone is interested in that.... ; )

i bought a new book. More, Now, Again by Elizabeth Wurtzel, the same girl that wrote Prozac Nation and Bitch, 2 of my fave books. this book is basically about her cocaine and ritalin addiction. im interested, since i have developed a real love for adderall. <3

so guys i definetely have to go now. i have 15 min till my lunch break and i havent done anything but this in the past, like- 20. rob should be thrilled. i hope its warmer our then when i came in this morning. alright i love you all. call me somtime.