May 24th, 2006 - "nothing in particular."

uh oh. she's back.

but just for a quick 1, 2.

actually, who am i kidding... when i do post, it is always a long one. full of bullshit, mostly.

so what's new... hmmm... oh, nothing. i got my hair dyed and trimmed last night. we practically had a party at my lil' apartment. it was me, erin o, briana, matty, eryn, chelsea, hazard, and lisa. with a cameo appearance by jen and justin. we all got stoned and watched grandma's boy. always a good time. i have seen it 3 times in 3 days. awesome.

p.s. hazard kicked my ass in the spelling bee. next time i think we should both get the same words read aloud to us, we should write them down, then the moderator should grade them. oral spelling bees are ridiculous. and yes, i'm bitter. turns out i'm not such a good speller, just better than most of my friends - which i guess isn't saying much at times lol. i love you silly spelling bitches.

so i should be doing work right now, but for some reason, i am so goddamn distracted, that i have even resorted to post in livejournal, clearly.

i am digging coconut ice coffee intensely lately. i am literally convinced that i can chew the coconut, that's how much it tastes like coconut. mind-blowing.

a lot of people have been asking about my wedding lately. it's already starting to stress me out knowing that in like 6 months i will seriously have to be planning it. i hope to lose some serious weight by the time i get married in 2008, but i have never followed through with anything, ever, so i won't be terribly surprised if i don't. god, i'm so lame it's almost painful.

tomorrow my mom graduates from 4C's with an associates. yeah, she has been going to school on and off for 21 years, to get an associates... and i forget in what... physical ed i think? anyway, she has enough credits for well over a bachelor's degree, but she never had a major, so all those credits are useless unfortunate. i'm starting to get nervous about school. i mean, i fucking despise school. i hated going, i hate work and obligation - but god forbid this business fails, which i am sure it will, what kind of job will i get without a degree and only "some college"? i mean, i know a lot of shit that people with degrees don't know about e-commerce and ebay (of course), but probably not nearly enough. if i didn't have to pass core classes i would have a fucking degree by now, but i suck at math, science, and history - so there goes that. i have suck little motivation. something is seriously wrong with me. but i'm at peace with that, so it's okay.... for now.

i took a career test. i got a 99% for a clerical job. 97% for an art related job (but what?). 96% for writing (which i would LOVE to do if i could write to my own beat, and not have to write what someone tells me to write). 92% for person service (whatever that means). 84% teaching/social services (i always wanted to be a counselor). 64% for food service (which is a fucking joke... NEVER). and 60% sales (i don't like selling things to people). i got a bunch of other things too, but nothing matters to me if it's under 60%. i'm only 29% assertive, 27% persuasive, and 8% systematic, which i find to be a problem. but i do think i am more persuasive than that. my lowest interest was 1% for outdoors work (of course it was, they asked me a bunch of farming questions). the next lowest was 3% for science (surprise surprise).

lisa (keegan's lisa) is coming to spend the night on friday, and come to ryan's cookout with us in auburn on saturday. i am really stoked for keegan to be able to get to see her. i fucking love lisa, she is awesome. we don't have plans yet, but keegan said he wants to go out for a bit, so i'm sure we will be doing that. on the way to auburn we are gonna pick zoe up in boston so she can come with us, and then bring her back to the cape. i miss her cus i haven't seen her in weeks. last time i saw her though, she looked awesome. i'm psyched for her.

i keep buying songs of itunes, randomly. when did i ever think it was cool to pay .99 cents for a fucking song, no idea. ah well, i enjoy adding to my music collection, as we all know.

i got the new angels and airwaves cd yesterday. it's real good. it's just that, i don't get why blink 182 even broke up. so tom is now the frontman for angels and airwaves (which sounds strikingly similar to blink 182's last cd), mark is the frontman for +44 which sounds like blink 182... and travis plays drums for the transplants, which sounds absolutely nothing even remotely blink 182-esque. it's just weird. and i can't believe they have families now and stuff. i started loving them when they were kids, and i was pre-teen or some crazy shit like that. speaking of, angels and airwaves just started playing, odd.

what other useless bullshit info can i throw in here?

my forgetting things are getting worse and worse. i don't even know what to do about it. i would take ginko biloba if i thought that i would remember to take it. but i know i won't. let's look back into the schedule i keep in my phone and see what kinda alarms i have to set for myself on a daily basis:
feb 11, 8pm - buy water!
feb 13, 5:30 - bunny food.
mar 4, 10:00 - pants and tattoo (for keegan)
mar 14, 10:25 - salad (so i wouldn't forget to eat it)
mar 15, 12:59 - erin condon hangout
mar 18, 9:30 - dressing (so i would remember to bring dressing to work for my salad)
mar 18, 9:30 - phone charger
mar 24, 2:00 - russ hangout, get a quarter.
mar 30, 8:30 - cigarettes
apr 5, 10:30 - milk
apr 6, 5:45 - i owe chelsea 9 bucks
apr 18, 10:00 - razors
apr 26, 9:15 - call jen back
may 3, 8:45 - get money for briana. 50 bucks.
may 3, 4:30 - renee's graduation party on saturday
may 4, 4:45 - get the cd
may 5, 7:30 - again, renee's graduation party on saturday
may 12, 9:00 - backseat (i had stuff in the backseat i didnt wanna forget)
may 13, 1:00 - vise (remember to get the visor of cd's out of my car)
may 13, 8:20 - turn off the heat!
may 17, 10:30 - pop tarts
may 22, 9:30 - balls deep (reminding me to work that phrase into my everyday vocabulary

see what i mean? it's shit like THAT i can't remember. it's just stupid shit, why is it sooo hard? fucking frustrating is what it actually is. i might be getting dumber, and i don't want to get dumber!

so now that i have wasted a sufficient amount of both yours and my time, i should go.

friday night - out.
saturday - ryan's cookout in auburn.
sunday - drive keegan to work in the morning, get an oil change. nap.
monday - tara's memorial day cookout.

this is about all you should expect to see from me in livejournal for quite some time. god speed.