December 22nd, 2005 - "my perfect night"

so it has happened. the most amazing thing in my life to date has happened. last night, or this morning rather, keegan asked me to marry him - like, for real.

yesterday was an emotionally draining day when he found out that i already knew about the ring. there was a lot of things to say at that point. but everything was okay. he preferred to know that i knew. so it worked out. but i worked till 6 last night, so i didn't even get to see him after this spat we had about the ring. he made it sort of a big deal that someone drop me off at the movies, after hours, to watch a movie with him. there was speculation that he would ask me, but i didnt really think he would, since it seemed too obvious after the situation earlier. so it really wasn't a thought in my head that he would ask me, i just thought he wanted to have some alone time.

so we are watching fun with dick and jane. at this point it is past midnight, and, since its after hours, we were completely alone. at the end of the movie he tells me that his manager mentioned that the credits were hilarious, much like the Just Friends movie when Ryan Reynolds sings I Swear in the fat suit with a retainer. so we are watching the credits and nothing funny is happening. pretty soon, the end of the credits come, and he asks me if i want to go. i say yes, and i get up and gather my things. then he asks me if i want a drink. i got confused, cus i had a drink. so then he sits me down so i am facing the screen again, and i see my name on the movie screen. then he pulls out to champagne glasses (borrowed from the liqour store) and fills them. then the 2 of us watched a series of photos of the 2 of us across the screen. he had slides made up of pics of us, and put them in place of the local ads they would show before the movie. i have never seen myself on a screen that large before. hah. so then some words come up in between photos - one said: "March 26, 2005 I fell in love with the girl at the rock show"... then more pics.. then more words that said "I love you more than anything"... then more pics... then the last thing to come up on the screen was "So when we first met..." (which is something he has said to me since the day we started dating).. at which point he turned to me and said "so when we first met, did you think i would be asking you to marry me?" and he held out the ring. i almost died. and would you believe that the song he had picked out and was playing, which was Dispatch - "To Be With You", ended right after he asked me. it was fucking cinematic. now get this straight, i felt like crying. i wanted to cry so bad, but i was so nervous and anxious, and emotionally drained from earlier that day that i just went into shock. i couldn't believe it actually happened. especially not that way. it was so... perfect. so of course i said yes. and he put the most beautiful ring EVER on my finger. it fits perfectly. i didn't even know what size my finger was for chrissakes! then he gave me roses. i swear to god it could not have been more perfect. and i could not be more in love than i am. he even went as far as to go to my parents house, when i didnt know, and ask my dad for persmission. amazing. perfect. wonderful. i have never been so happy. now that it has settled in... NOW i feel like crying <3

To Be With You
And I will walk with you
Using the stars as guides
On a homeward path we go
Knowing our time is nigh
I will walk
To be with you
All I’ve done
To be with you
So put your hand in mine
And lay your head to rest
We’ll light the candles now
They won’t be lit for long
We will know our day was blessed
I… I… will walk
To be with you
All I’ve done
All I’ve done
Just to be with you
I …
And I will walk with you
Using the stars as guides
On a homeward path we go
Knowing our time is nigh
I will walk
To be with you
All I’ve done
And I say
I …
To be with you
To be with you
To be with you