July 17th, 2003 - "a long long time has passed"

what up bitches... i am back up in this mothafucka today!! whoop whoop!! i havent updated this since.. *sniff* fpc days..ahh those were the days.. freezing my ass off, walking up hills both ways in the snow.. and thats no joke. i do miss kelly and tim a lot, i wish they summered on cape cod like the rest of the population seems to be doing this year. i think we are sinking...it worries me. i am at the cape cod cheer connection right now. i am not working persay because no classes are in session this week, but some cheerleaders are sitting here in this office with me waiting for their ride home from a cheer camp they just came from.. and i am here all alone with them, listening to them talk about basing and stunting.. i wish i understood.. actually.. i do understand and i cant tell anyone how badly that freaks me out. oh yah the big news is my sister went to cheerleading camp and out of the entire state they chose her to represent massachusetts (mass achoo zits LoL) for the United Cheerleading Association which means she is gonna be in the Macy's Parade in NY which means i get to go to NY at some point, which is fucking excellent cuz i am milking that trip for all it is worth lemme tell ya!!
anyway..
i do believe i am hanging out with briana and erin today until 5 when sarah garneau calls and then we are gonna hang out with her hopefully cuz she fucking rocks and i miss the shit outta that girl!! i cant wait to go home, clean my bathroom, eat baby hot dogs, and change.. its mad hot out today and i hate it. i put a lot of pics in my car on the ceiling yesterday and unfortunately they seem to be comeing loose due to the fact that i used push pins.. hmmm
one cheerleader down, 2 to go
the weird thing is, i dont even know the 2 that are left.. weird
i think i need to go back to the dollar store and buy more double side adhesive tape for the pics on the ceiling.. i spend way too much money and i still havent enrolled in college for the fall.. man i suck
i dont wanna put a damper on this entry or anything but if anyone is wondering why i get in sad moods all the time it may have something to do with everyoen being so damn good looking in the summer and i seem to be developing neandrathal like qualities as the years progress...i wish atkins would speed up, but then again i kinda suck at that too i guess, i mean it can only be my fault if the diet isnt working as quickly as it should. plus everyone likes to prance around in bikinis and do cute things with their hair and date cute boys and here i am... with pictures on the ceiling of my saturn.. following my cute friends around like a meaningless peon..
sorry guys, that was meant to be funny, that futile attempt seemed to have failed
2 cheerleaders down, 0 to go!!
you know, the one time i fucking come online for longer than 15 min. and NO ONE is on to talk to.. ah i guess its cuz everyone in their right minds are either working or at the beach.. if i was skinny i would rock the beach deal too..
mmm mmm mmm mmm i love the crash test dummies and meatloaf... i dont feel good, things are getting fuzzy, i think i am dying.. well i am gonna get offline and call briana and see what she is doing... peace out everyone