August 27th, 2002 - "needin to fuck some shit up"

i am full of rage..let it burn wanna wanna let it burn...haha well what can i say guys..i wonder if this is my last entry till i go away? doubtful. i get bored at work frequently. my parents were being crazy again today..they made me drive home when i had just gotten to exit 1. retards. speaking of retards my sister ran away today and i had to chase her around south dennis in a car..and on foot. the scariest part of that is that jen p was watching my lil bro..i cant belive she didnt lock him in a closet..a small one at that..the brighter point is i got to beat her ass...it was awesome..i actually had permission too..not like i woulda waited for it anyway..i dont know why i am so grrish..i mean i just read some things that either make me wanna kill myself or someone else..yet i am mad and will probably just end up sleeping on it and not even discussing the anger which will eventually build up to insane hostility that i may release on the next person that so much as just pushes a button..so dont be that person. i had a rough day...i am having severe need-to-clean-my-room-but-don't-feel-like-it syndrome. literally have like 2 people online over here..what the fuck..as jordan rutherford just said.."i dont care.. im leaving i'll just ignore all my problems"...hey there's an idea..fuckin bitches and ho's all infesting cape cod...good time to exit i would say. jen told me she knew someone with webbed feet today and that was so disturbing i was on the verge of pisspantsing myself. what does a girl want? i dont know. oh my god possibly believe it or not its a disease. i think i have backtitsitis..is that such a thing..can back tits get breast cancer? that would be crazy..oh man i need to ponder that for a few. my room echoes..its weird..i never had bare walls..i woke up last nite and i didnt know where i was..it was scary. i would have liked to become obliterated in bourne today..and i was so close..tit fuck. i love how me and erin created the izzy language and its now used by people that shouldn't use it..keep it in the ring please..aw fuck i dont feel like moving..too much physical enegry for a fat kid..i saw a real live asshole today..it was crazy..and i chased it..but it tricked me..uh oh watch your back..window that is..word molly knows whats up..spending the night at home tonite..sometimes thats what needs to happen..however i feel like i have been home far too much lately..when i know what goes on in my family members' lives..it means i need to be home less..no one wants to get involved in their fucked up agenda..not even me. shitheads...some people..popples..aw popples i loved them..care bears...GEM..gem was the fucking shizzy dawg..down here at the porn shop..in ship shape..i wish dogs had collars..all of them..cuz then they wouldnt get lost so easy..little puppy address tags..everyone should get their dog like registered or something..you know what i mean..and they should have a tag so you know who they belong too..kinda like we have license plates..and social security numbers..i layed myself today..i got one a benny's for the rearview..it smells like coconut..i was supposed to go to main st tonite and be a villian..oops..my back is crazy i need some vicadin..uh oh i feel the tired in me..get outta me...shit..ok well i should like do less of this and more of something that may get me somewhere..like moved out of this house..so if this is in fact my last one for awhile..dont forget i exist unless you know i want you to so clearly my FRIENDS have nothing to worry about..you bitches are foreva eva..peace