August 14th, 2002 - "the letter F"

i do not like this letter. its so negative. fuck. fat. frumpy. fake. feign. famished. false. fail. foul. frank. funky. fart. follower. former. far. facade. and then they mis in words like...fine. feminine. fun. food. friday. forte. its just not fair. the bad seem to outdo the good. and why does feminine seem negative? like it does for some reason. i dont know. anyway i got on this subject because i was thinking...fuck..i am wicked fat..thats where the negative f thing came in. yah..starving yourself does not work espeiclaly when you go to ocb and eat yourself into a small coma. ugh that was nasty. and then i came home from work and did it again. i have been home for almost 2 hours and so far all i have done is eat, watch tv, and come online..i need to take a shower and situate myself for the endeavor to p-town tonite. dream on thats what aerosmith says..who i am jammin to right now. my face is on ratemyface.com..the pic doesnt really look like me, anymore anyway..i figure i will put a fake pic of me on there (well not really fake..but old) and watch people rate it high..then put a real one on and get dissed like a motherfucker. word. i am gonna thro up..here i come outta that coma..peace.