for some reason i feel compelled to apologize to the general public for being me. i don't really know what it is exactly that people seem to find offensive about the things i say and do, but apparently some do, so thats what this entry is all about. here's the thing. my entire life i have been the same. i have slightly matured, but always been the same. i can't suck up, i can't be fake, and i have a huge problem with liars. not saying i dont lie- im definetely a very good liar, and thats why i tend to not lie, cuz i can even convince myself, and that creeps me out. i literally cannot pretend to be something i am not, or hold my opinion to myself about matters i feel strongly about. im not gonna sympathesize with you if i think you are the one at fault. i dont believe in sitting around feeling sorry for yourself about the way your lives go when you are the only one capable of changing it. i'm not lovey dovey, i wasnt brought up that way. i am always there for my friends, and they know it, but dont expect to hear me say it to your face. i dont like confrontation. i dont like fights, i dont have time for shit like that. i dont like when i get blamed for thigns that arent my fault. they make me feel uncontrollably shitty, even when i know its not my fault. im overly sensitive, and overly trustworthy. i cant deal with people telling me what i want to hear, i want to hear the truth. i like when people are upfront with me, but realize there is a time and place. don't expect me to drop everything and help you do something you are just as capable of doing yourself.
this is me, unfortunately. take it or leave it. i dont expect people to like it, but if your gonna be my friend, respect that this is me. sorry.
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