July 29th, 2004 - "cry me a river build me a bridge and jump the fuck off it"

oh god life is just so sad. let's all have a group cry.
ahh i feel better now. don't you?
everyone is so miserable. it's very disconcerting, i must say. but can i just point out one very important thing?
THE ONLY PERSON IN THIS WORLD THAT HAS CONTROL OVER THE WAY YOUR LIFE PANS OUT IS YOURSELF. IF YOU AREN'T HAPPY THEN THINK ABOUT WHAT IT IS YOU NEED TO DO TO BE HAPPY, AND TAKE IT ONE STEP AT A TIME. HOW ABOUT EVERYONE STOPS BLAMING CAPE COD FOR ONCE IN THEIR LIVES BECAUSE NO MATTER WHERE ANY OF YOU PEOPLE GO, IF YOU ARE IN THE SAME STATE OF MIND THAT YOU ARE IN NOW, YOUR GONNA BE MISERABLE. YOU CAN'T CHANGE OTHER PEOPLE AND IF YOU SPEND ALL YOUR TIME TRYING TO CHANGE OTHER PEOPLE, THAT'S ENERGY WASTED WHEN YOU COULD BE USING IT TO BETTER YOUR OWN LIFE. EVEN IF YOU HAVE THAT SPECIAL PERSON IN YOUR LIFE THAT YOU THINK IS THE PERFECT LITTLE MISSING PUZZLE PIECE, IF YOU AREN'T HAPPY WITH YOUR OWN LIFE, ALL YOUR GONNA DO IS BRING THAT PERSON DOWN. EVERYONE IS TOO BUSY COMPLAINING AND BEING COMFORTABLE WITH WHERE THEY ARE NOW. CAPE COD ISN'T HOLDING ANYONE BACK. YOUR ONLY HOLDING BACK YOURSELVES. EVERYONE READING THIS KNOWS THAT THEY ARE CAPABLE OF SO MUCH MORE THAN THEY ARE CURRENTLY DOING FOR THEMSELVES, AND IT SUCKS AND IT IS FRUSTRATING TO READ EVERYONE'S RANTS ABOUT HOW DEPRESSED AND SUICIDAL THEY ARE, BUT ARE WILLING TO DO NOTHING TO BETTER IT. BUCK UP. WE ARE ADULTS NOW GUYS. THIS MEANS THAT AT THIS POINT IF WE ARE NOT ALL IN COLLEGE, THEN WE SHOULD AT LEAST HAVE A JOB, A CAR, AND A PLACE TO LIVE IN WHICH WE PAY RENT. WORKING SUCKS, RIGHT? AND IT'S NOT GONNA MAKE YOU HAPPY HAVING TO GIVE UP GETTING FUCKED UP EVERYNIGHT OF YOUR LIFE TO BEING SLIGHTLY RESPONSIBLE AND HAVING A PAYCHECK COMING IN WITH YOUR NAME ON IT EVERY WEEK. IN THE LONG RUN, BEING ABLE TO HAVE A PLACE TO CALL YOUR OWN, TRANSPORTATION TO CALL YOUR OWN, AND A FULL TIME JOB, YOUR BOUND TO BE HAPPIER. THE EFFECTS OF DRUGS ONLY LAST SO LONG BEFORE THEY CATCH UP WITH YOU. AND DON'T BLAME YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND EVERYONE AND ANYONE ELSE FOR THE WAY THINGS WORK OUT. DON'T RELY ON OTHER PEOPLE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY, YOU'RE JUST GONNA GET LET DOWN. YOU START FROM THE INSIDE WHEN YOU TRY TO BETTER YOUR LIFE. YOU DON'T GET NEW FRIENDS, OR TRY TO REPLACE A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND FIRST. THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I AM NOT "HAPPY" AND I MAY NEVER BE, BUT I AM HAPPIER AND SO MUCH MORE COMFORTABLE WITH MY LIFE NOW THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN BEFORE. AND IF I CAN CHANGE MY LIFE, AND FEEL BETTER ABOUT IT.. AND I MANAGED TO LIVE ON CAPE COD AND VOLUNTARILY STAY HERE MY ENTIRE LIFE, THEN WHY THE FUCK DO YOU PEOPLE FIND IT SO DIFFICULT. IT'S TIME TO GROW UP GUYS, BEFORE YOUR STUCK WHERE YOU ARE FOREVER.
dudes im not even done with all i have to say but i just got done reading a whole bunch of sad story posts and i knew i had to throw it out there. if i didn't care about you people i wouldn't even waste my time and energy trying to articulate to you people that you are so much better than the lives your complaining about. find it in you to grow up, and do it.
and hey
good luck guys. <3>