You know, I realized that I posted a blog yesterday and did not say what I am thankful for.
So I decidedly will make a whole new blog devoted to my thankfulness.
I am thankful for the following:
My wonderful husband and the family I married into - for being the best of the best. Never making me think twice. Always being supportive. And for supplying the genes that will someday make me a cute little bambino.
My fantastic friends - who all continue to be awesome into their adult lives.
My family (including Keegan's) and relatives - for making our honeymoon possible through their generous donations.
Emmjay - because she makes me happy everyday.
My job - what I have learned there, and the people I've met (and the money, of course).
People like - Tim Howard, Greg, and my parents (sometimes) for helping us all when we are in need.
CONES.
Weight Watchers - for getting me to a better weight so I wouldn't look disgusting on my wedding day.
Barnes and Noble - for bringing back my love for books.
Starbucks - for being there when Dunkin Donuts fails.
Dunkin Donuts - for STILL having pumpkin ice (I won't hold my breath once the month is over).
Sponges with brillo pads on the opposite side - otherwise washing dishes would be three times as frustrating as it already is.
Wendy's - for coming out with a chocolate chip cookie dough frosty.
DJ's - for constantly taking me off my diet with the deliciousness that is their chicken cutlet sandwich.
Keegan's dental connections - got to love white(er) teeth!
Hair straighteners - because.... what would I do with this mane without you?!
Myspace - because you have become a necessity in my life. Just stop changing because it's fucking annoying.
Sarku Japan - for teaching me that I like fried cabbage, more than I ever though I would or could.
Dust busters - for making it much more enjoyable to clean up after Em.
Breathe Right strips - for the many nights I was able to sleep, either when Keegan was using them so he wasn't keeping me awake - or when I was sick and needed them to breathe. They really work!
Turkeys - for being consistently delicious throughout the years.
Ann Taylor Loft - for supplying me with a wardrobe for work (and our honeymoon) that I didn't think was possible. I suppose I should just thank Alena for telling me to go in there and browse.
Internet games - such as Chuzzle and Luxor. They keep me awake and entertained for hours when need be.
Lastly, I'd like to thank 2008 for being my bitch.
It was very cooperative.
It allowed me to diet and exercise, totalling 60 pounds of weight loss (which I have since gained some back).
It also allowed me, Keegan, Erin, Chelsea, and Ryan to quit smoking cigarattes (just passed my 9 month mark)!
I was also able to secure a good job, and get tan in time for my wedding.
Oh, and yeah - I got married too!
So, 2008... although I am sure it was rather embarassing for you, you have empowered me to go forth and do even better things next year.
For that I am the most thankful.
Happy Thanksgiving everybody!
What are YOU thankful for?
Thursday, August 20, 2009
November 27, 2008 - "how dare you."
fucking thanksgiving 2008 is tomorrow.
and... did i just get married and turn 24?
what. the. fuck.
we're about to experience 2009, and we haven't fully secured a slogan yet.
i think maybe it should be "what the fuck. 2009?"
just a thought.
so - *insert really high pitched pysched tone here* hi guys!
i feel like maybe i should recap some from where i left off in my last blog.
but anyone that reads this, knows what's going on in my life already... so why waste precious time?
well let me just say this....
married though.
for real.
after ALL THAT.
it's done.
i'm just amanda keegan, and that is who i will remain.
so much stress, for something that went by in a flash.
i got to say though... it was pretty freakin awesome.
you know what was even awesomer because it lasted 11 days longer than my wedding?
that's right!
OUR HONEYMOON!
you guys don't even know.
or maybe you do.
i hope you do.
but traveling around like that and having so much time and money is unbelievably liberating in a way i wish i could explain.
it was worth it.... spending all that money that is.
we went to amsterdam 2 years ago from now.
that is another thing that i hope those of you haven't experienced, get to eventually experience (if you like weed especially).
it's just freaking amazing what has happened in the past 2 years.
think of madi.
and boy do i love to think about that adorable child.
2 years ago... she wasn't even in the womb yet.
sorry to use the word "womb" on you like that.
but fo' REAL.
i read one of my blogs from a couple years ago and i teared up with laughter.
i asked erin if she thought it was conceited of me to be so amused by my own writing.
she says no.
keegan thinks i should write a book.
i used to want to do that.
now i can't even write a good blog anymore.
am i losing it?
i certainly hope not, since it was one of the only things i ever had.
emmjay is great, she thanks you for asking.
she's having this situation where she is kind of unclear about where she should be shitting.
she seems to have taken it upon herself to just go wherever she deems fit.
it's quite unacceptable, and i am not positive what her malfunction might be.
we've discussed it, and she is just rebelling.
i personally believe that she has abandonment issues from when we went on our honeymoon.
i mean, she had a great time with erin - but how could she be sure that we were going to come back?
aside from the fact that i told her a bunch of times.
she doesn't listen.
so anyway - she probably gave us an ultimatum like "you leave me behind for any length of time in a place that is not my home, and if and when you return, i will shit on your floor for my remaining days".
we probably didn't understand - since she's a fucking rabbit.
my 24th birthday was fun.
much lower key this year.
thank you everyone.
what are we doing for new years?
i have to work on friday because i fucking work for simon.
damn the man.
simon is SO "the man" in my life.
damn him.
at least i only have to work 6 hours, and then after that - it's the weekend.
i suppose i'll suck it up.
christmas is coming.
craaazy.
what's going to happen?
it's a secret.
will keegan get his remote starter?
will i decide on getting a vaporizer?
are tara or chelsea my secret santa?
what did i end up getting my secret santa person?
good things to unfold.
stay tuned.
i got to go.
i don't have to work tomorrow.
it's not even 10:30pm.
i'm just terribly, terribly lame.
good night.
and... did i just get married and turn 24?
what. the. fuck.
we're about to experience 2009, and we haven't fully secured a slogan yet.
i think maybe it should be "what the fuck. 2009?"
just a thought.
so - *insert really high pitched pysched tone here* hi guys!
i feel like maybe i should recap some from where i left off in my last blog.
but anyone that reads this, knows what's going on in my life already... so why waste precious time?
well let me just say this....
married though.
for real.
after ALL THAT.
it's done.
i'm just amanda keegan, and that is who i will remain.
so much stress, for something that went by in a flash.
i got to say though... it was pretty freakin awesome.
you know what was even awesomer because it lasted 11 days longer than my wedding?
that's right!
OUR HONEYMOON!
you guys don't even know.
or maybe you do.
i hope you do.
but traveling around like that and having so much time and money is unbelievably liberating in a way i wish i could explain.
it was worth it.... spending all that money that is.
we went to amsterdam 2 years ago from now.
that is another thing that i hope those of you haven't experienced, get to eventually experience (if you like weed especially).
it's just freaking amazing what has happened in the past 2 years.
think of madi.
and boy do i love to think about that adorable child.
2 years ago... she wasn't even in the womb yet.
sorry to use the word "womb" on you like that.
but fo' REAL.
i read one of my blogs from a couple years ago and i teared up with laughter.
i asked erin if she thought it was conceited of me to be so amused by my own writing.
she says no.
keegan thinks i should write a book.
i used to want to do that.
now i can't even write a good blog anymore.
am i losing it?
i certainly hope not, since it was one of the only things i ever had.
emmjay is great, she thanks you for asking.
she's having this situation where she is kind of unclear about where she should be shitting.
she seems to have taken it upon herself to just go wherever she deems fit.
it's quite unacceptable, and i am not positive what her malfunction might be.
we've discussed it, and she is just rebelling.
i personally believe that she has abandonment issues from when we went on our honeymoon.
i mean, she had a great time with erin - but how could she be sure that we were going to come back?
aside from the fact that i told her a bunch of times.
she doesn't listen.
so anyway - she probably gave us an ultimatum like "you leave me behind for any length of time in a place that is not my home, and if and when you return, i will shit on your floor for my remaining days".
we probably didn't understand - since she's a fucking rabbit.
my 24th birthday was fun.
much lower key this year.
thank you everyone.
what are we doing for new years?
i have to work on friday because i fucking work for simon.
damn the man.
simon is SO "the man" in my life.
damn him.
at least i only have to work 6 hours, and then after that - it's the weekend.
i suppose i'll suck it up.
christmas is coming.
craaazy.
what's going to happen?
it's a secret.
will keegan get his remote starter?
will i decide on getting a vaporizer?
are tara or chelsea my secret santa?
what did i end up getting my secret santa person?
good things to unfold.
stay tuned.
i got to go.
i don't have to work tomorrow.
it's not even 10:30pm.
i'm just terribly, terribly lame.
good night.
April 07, 2008 - "Playing the Waiting Game..."
Ugh. I’m sick to my stomach.
I had my second job interview for a state job last week. They told me I’d hear "something" by either friday afternoon or monday morning. It is now 10:30 on monday morning, and I have a dozen people waiting to hear if I got this job. The worst part about it, is that they’re all convinced it was totally in the bag for me. What they don’t understand is that there were 48 people that applied for this job. 14 were interviewed the first time. I don’t know how many were interviewed the second time. My dad works in that office, so I have connections. But then I find out that someone’s wife that works in that office also wants to the job. I felt that the interviews went really well, but there’s no way of knowing. My dad talked to the dude that works in the department, and I guess he hasn’t heard anything yet either. So, that’s a good thing... It’s just that if I don’t get this job we’re totally fucked. I haven’t had a REAL job since September. My cell phone bill is over $600, and it’ll be shut off any day now. When they shut if off, they need a minimum of $326 to turn it back on. Not to mention our car insurances will both be cancelled by the end of the month if they aren’t paid. Oh, and did I mention rent was due, among other things? Yeah.... FUCKED. I have spent lots of time, including this morning, looking on capecodonline and craisglist for job postings. All of which don’t pay enough, or require some serious degree. I refuse to work in the retail, food, or cleaning business. It’s not my scene. I’m an office girl. This whole thing is just devestating, especially as I watch time pass....
The wedding plans are coming along quite well though. We’ve pretty much secured all the major aspects like the DJ, Florist, Photographer, Dresses, etc. I’ve picked out my bridesmaids gifts and the overall gifts, we’ve just got to buy them. I’ve lost 30lbs since I started dieting (weight watchers) and exercising in January. It’s a nice feeling. I can wear jeans again! My main concern is to look good in my wedding pictures, and I will not like the way I look if I have fat pouring out of my dress. heh.
To keep busy lately (since we rarely leave the house), I have taken my bunny obsession to the next level. Most of you know I got Emmjay a BunSpace (same thing as myspace, but for bunnies). I have also learned that my Flickr account allows me to join groups.... so I have joined 3. Bunny Lovers Unite, Pot Smokers Unite, and I (Heart) Amsterdam. I get to post questions, answers, and pictures in my Bunny Lovers Unite group, and it’s really fantastic. I’ve made new "contacts", and they all comment on my Emmjay pictures. She’s a big hit! Like I’m surprised...
I have been talking about how I’ve wanted to get back into blogging for so long, yet when I get here, I draw a blank. There are so many irrelevant things to talk about that are flooding my mind. However, I should be listing things and/or doing the dishes. I also have to go to Yarmouth and Hyannis at some point today. I guess I am just waiting here with my stomach in knots waiting to hear about this job before I can go on with my day. I feel like I can’t even start working until I have the news. It’s really fucking everything up.
I think I’m gonna go for now. My concentration sucks and I’m in a "mood" until I have reason not to be. Hopefully I’ll be back soon with some great news!
I had my second job interview for a state job last week. They told me I’d hear "something" by either friday afternoon or monday morning. It is now 10:30 on monday morning, and I have a dozen people waiting to hear if I got this job. The worst part about it, is that they’re all convinced it was totally in the bag for me. What they don’t understand is that there were 48 people that applied for this job. 14 were interviewed the first time. I don’t know how many were interviewed the second time. My dad works in that office, so I have connections. But then I find out that someone’s wife that works in that office also wants to the job. I felt that the interviews went really well, but there’s no way of knowing. My dad talked to the dude that works in the department, and I guess he hasn’t heard anything yet either. So, that’s a good thing... It’s just that if I don’t get this job we’re totally fucked. I haven’t had a REAL job since September. My cell phone bill is over $600, and it’ll be shut off any day now. When they shut if off, they need a minimum of $326 to turn it back on. Not to mention our car insurances will both be cancelled by the end of the month if they aren’t paid. Oh, and did I mention rent was due, among other things? Yeah.... FUCKED. I have spent lots of time, including this morning, looking on capecodonline and craisglist for job postings. All of which don’t pay enough, or require some serious degree. I refuse to work in the retail, food, or cleaning business. It’s not my scene. I’m an office girl. This whole thing is just devestating, especially as I watch time pass....
The wedding plans are coming along quite well though. We’ve pretty much secured all the major aspects like the DJ, Florist, Photographer, Dresses, etc. I’ve picked out my bridesmaids gifts and the overall gifts, we’ve just got to buy them. I’ve lost 30lbs since I started dieting (weight watchers) and exercising in January. It’s a nice feeling. I can wear jeans again! My main concern is to look good in my wedding pictures, and I will not like the way I look if I have fat pouring out of my dress. heh.
To keep busy lately (since we rarely leave the house), I have taken my bunny obsession to the next level. Most of you know I got Emmjay a BunSpace (same thing as myspace, but for bunnies). I have also learned that my Flickr account allows me to join groups.... so I have joined 3. Bunny Lovers Unite, Pot Smokers Unite, and I (Heart) Amsterdam. I get to post questions, answers, and pictures in my Bunny Lovers Unite group, and it’s really fantastic. I’ve made new "contacts", and they all comment on my Emmjay pictures. She’s a big hit! Like I’m surprised...
I have been talking about how I’ve wanted to get back into blogging for so long, yet when I get here, I draw a blank. There are so many irrelevant things to talk about that are flooding my mind. However, I should be listing things and/or doing the dishes. I also have to go to Yarmouth and Hyannis at some point today. I guess I am just waiting here with my stomach in knots waiting to hear about this job before I can go on with my day. I feel like I can’t even start working until I have the news. It’s really fucking everything up.
I think I’m gonna go for now. My concentration sucks and I’m in a "mood" until I have reason not to be. Hopefully I’ll be back soon with some great news!
September 14th, 2007 - "it needs to happen."
well, here i am. it's been some time now hasn't it livejournal? i decided that i should show myself, and not just copy a myspace blog and post it in here. that's so sad. especially since livejournal was my original blog spot. big ups to you livejournal - i still know what's up.
so... i am getting married in less than a year from now. crazy, huh? september 12, 2008. who woulda thought that the overweight, sexually frigid, perpetually stuck in the "friend zone" girl would fine her soulmate and marry by 24? not me, that's for SURE. and i know there are tons of people out there that think we are too young... and years ago, i would have agreed. you just never know the feeling until you have it i suppose. and there is no denying this feeling. i know many of you can identify. so trust me, i don't feel like i am doing myself, or keegan for that matter, an injustice by marrying next year. ya heard? so let me run down what the exact situation is for the wedding (now i am going to have to post this in myspace)...
my parents are not wealthy people. you might actually classify them as struggling at this point. so they gave me a choice - a huge cheap wedding with all my friends and a cookout or something... OR... have a elegant beautiful cape cod wedding with just family, the wedding party, and several other choice individuals. it may come as a surprise that i chose the latter since i am obsessed with my friends - but this is a wedding, not a party, and i had to come to terms with that. so, we put a deposit down at the captain linnell house in orleans for an evening wedding on a friday. the actual ceremony is going to be on skaket beach in orleans (right next to the linnell house), and all will be welcome (it will probably be a standing situation for most). however, the reception afterwards will be just fam and wedding party and whatever. BUT... the next day, my bridal party and my extended family have agreed to chip in and throw a huge casual wedding reception for all of the 100 plus people i had to cut off the list. it's gonna be a tent, dj, caterer situation that will start sometime in the late afternoon, and go into the night. it will be at the big house in west dennis, and will not require you to dress up. i figure this will be a much better arrangement for most of my friends anyway. my main concern was that none of you felt left out or unimportant. i want everyone there, obviously.
ok, so that's that.
secondly... i quit the ebay store. shocking, i know. turns out that my bosses were pulling the whole "i don't have the money to pay you today" thing, on the day i was supposed to be getting paid. it happened quite a few times. on labor day weekend it was a real issue. they expected me to go a 3 day weekend, while paying my bills, with $325. i need to deposit at least $400 a week to cover my bills alone. so i made numerous efforts to contact them so i could get the other $250 they owed me, but to no avail. finally, monday night, the day before i was supposed to go to work, my bosses send me this e-mail:
"Amanda--thanks for your email. Jim and I have had numerous discussions regarding the ebay store and your management of it.We are both alarmed with the reduction in sales since the creation of the ebay store which subsequently has impacted us all with a reduced cash flow.
Your need for weekly payment is not working out at this time. Our biggest monthly debt is your contract of $2,400. We have paid this without fail for many months and during this transition we feel we can no longer afford this expense. You seem to be very concerned over the $215. remaining from last week. This money needs to be paid to you before we will incur anymore debts to you.
We are very, very encouraged by the termination/closure of the drop off store on Friday, September 14. As of this moment in time, it is still unclear how this remote transition will occur, and when we are in a better position to explain it, we will. Jim feels that many successful formats have been ignored and he is concerned that this same frivolous approach will be transferred to the remote listing procedure. The Brazilian product of gems and minerals is very detail oriented and we are very concerned that these details will be treated carelessly as so many others have been. We all depend on these profit margins for our livelihood, and the remote process and procedure must be followed explicitly. When you are selling diamonds and gems, there is no margin for error.
We will have a meeting regarding all of our concerns in the next few days. I have been uncomfortable asking you to help me learn the do's and don'ts of listing because I feel as if I'm keeping you from completing your contract work. Like all of us are doing, you will need to make adjustments to your finances as well. Despite this transition, we see a very positive future for estate_ auctions_ online as we focus on the care and maintenance of our foreign clients. We sincerely hope you will remain a part of it, but if you choose to move on we understand. I hope this clarifies some of your concerns. Ardell and Jim"
first off, note all the spelling and punctuation errors. how sad is that for a 60 year old?! secondly, here was my response to that e-mail:
"Jim and Ardell,
You'll be pleased to know that I went and cleaned out all my personal belongings from work this evening, as to not cause a distruption in your work day tomorrow. I took nothing that did not belong to me. All files and documents are on the computer at my desk. Keegan and I will be in sometime tomorrow to collect my $215 owed to me, plus the $40 taken from my check for the bureaus (as I see no way of getting them at this point since there is no vehicle to deliver them anymore).
I'm very interested to hear that "Jim feels that many successful formats have been ignored and he is concerned that this same frivolous approach will be transferred to the remote listing procedure", since Jim has never once made any sort of mention of that to me. All I have ever heard from him was how "we" were going to thrive remotely and he would keep me on to do all this work and blah blah blah.... only to find out that he is worried about my "errors".
Good luck."
so, with that, i showed up the next day, collected my $255, and was done with it. fuck them, ya know? don't sit there and praise me day in and day out for what i do, then when i wanna get paid, turn around and tell me i suck at my job? good luck to them since i am the only one that even knew how to use a computer correctly there. haha.
so summer is pretty much over, huh? i got to say, i love fall weather, a lot. but, fall is just another excuse for me to hibernate and put on weight. unfortunately for me, i have already put on my winter weight in less than a month by going off atkins and going wild for bread. the real reason i went off atkins is because i lost my job and cannot afford to eat steak and the like everyday. truly. otherwise, i would stay on, cus it was working. something has to be done though because now i have less than a year to fit this fat ass in a wedding dress. good god! this summer has been pretty good for concerts though. dispatch, silverchair, state radio, linkin park/my chemical romance/taking back sunday/him/placebo... fucking great times. concerts are my livelihood. i'm seeing say anything again on november 1! luckily that concert is 2 weeks before my birthday and erin is getting me a ticket. jobless girls are not allowed to spend their money on concert tickets.
keegan and i started our own online ebay store. if you wanna search for it, it's called The Eclectic Xperience (Experience was taken). we have about 85 things listed. about 76 of them are ours, and the other things are designer purses and stuff from a personal consigner. stop by and buy some shit! haha. we have sold a couple pairs of pants, a humping chihuaha toy, an fm transmitter, a couple purses, a laser level, and a cross pen set. not bad for a start. every little bit of money helps at this point.
this just in: my mom admitted that she was psycho and needed help. she is "medication sensitive" so she is just gonna go to counseling. she says at this point she is afraid she is seriously gonna hurt someone. she also says that the lines of right and wrong are blurring... scary. she also says that she can't even work because she is afraid of losing her cool if a situation arose. the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem. honestly, i am afraid she is gonna kill the therapist or something, hah.
oh! i just found out that i am far-sighted. the fucked up thing is, i have always had amazing vision. but when i hold something close to my face, it blurs and i can't see it at all. so scary! i can read fine, and my eyes don't bother me when i drive or anything like that. i think i should get a professional opinion soon. it's so fucking weird to all of a sudden have a part of your body that doesn't work the same way it always has, ya know?
well i think i'm done now. this should be enough to keep you all satisfied for another few months, right?
so... i am getting married in less than a year from now. crazy, huh? september 12, 2008. who woulda thought that the overweight, sexually frigid, perpetually stuck in the "friend zone" girl would fine her soulmate and marry by 24? not me, that's for SURE. and i know there are tons of people out there that think we are too young... and years ago, i would have agreed. you just never know the feeling until you have it i suppose. and there is no denying this feeling. i know many of you can identify. so trust me, i don't feel like i am doing myself, or keegan for that matter, an injustice by marrying next year. ya heard? so let me run down what the exact situation is for the wedding (now i am going to have to post this in myspace)...
my parents are not wealthy people. you might actually classify them as struggling at this point. so they gave me a choice - a huge cheap wedding with all my friends and a cookout or something... OR... have a elegant beautiful cape cod wedding with just family, the wedding party, and several other choice individuals. it may come as a surprise that i chose the latter since i am obsessed with my friends - but this is a wedding, not a party, and i had to come to terms with that. so, we put a deposit down at the captain linnell house in orleans for an evening wedding on a friday. the actual ceremony is going to be on skaket beach in orleans (right next to the linnell house), and all will be welcome (it will probably be a standing situation for most). however, the reception afterwards will be just fam and wedding party and whatever. BUT... the next day, my bridal party and my extended family have agreed to chip in and throw a huge casual wedding reception for all of the 100 plus people i had to cut off the list. it's gonna be a tent, dj, caterer situation that will start sometime in the late afternoon, and go into the night. it will be at the big house in west dennis, and will not require you to dress up. i figure this will be a much better arrangement for most of my friends anyway. my main concern was that none of you felt left out or unimportant. i want everyone there, obviously.
ok, so that's that.
secondly... i quit the ebay store. shocking, i know. turns out that my bosses were pulling the whole "i don't have the money to pay you today" thing, on the day i was supposed to be getting paid. it happened quite a few times. on labor day weekend it was a real issue. they expected me to go a 3 day weekend, while paying my bills, with $325. i need to deposit at least $400 a week to cover my bills alone. so i made numerous efforts to contact them so i could get the other $250 they owed me, but to no avail. finally, monday night, the day before i was supposed to go to work, my bosses send me this e-mail:
"Amanda--thanks for your email. Jim and I have had numerous discussions regarding the ebay store and your management of it.We are both alarmed with the reduction in sales since the creation of the ebay store which subsequently has impacted us all with a reduced cash flow.
Your need for weekly payment is not working out at this time. Our biggest monthly debt is your contract of $2,400. We have paid this without fail for many months and during this transition we feel we can no longer afford this expense. You seem to be very concerned over the $215. remaining from last week. This money needs to be paid to you before we will incur anymore debts to you.
We are very, very encouraged by the termination/closure of the drop off store on Friday, September 14. As of this moment in time, it is still unclear how this remote transition will occur, and when we are in a better position to explain it, we will. Jim feels that many successful formats have been ignored and he is concerned that this same frivolous approach will be transferred to the remote listing procedure. The Brazilian product of gems and minerals is very detail oriented and we are very concerned that these details will be treated carelessly as so many others have been. We all depend on these profit margins for our livelihood, and the remote process and procedure must be followed explicitly. When you are selling diamonds and gems, there is no margin for error.
We will have a meeting regarding all of our concerns in the next few days. I have been uncomfortable asking you to help me learn the do's and don'ts of listing because I feel as if I'm keeping you from completing your contract work. Like all of us are doing, you will need to make adjustments to your finances as well. Despite this transition, we see a very positive future for estate_ auctions_ online as we focus on the care and maintenance of our foreign clients. We sincerely hope you will remain a part of it, but if you choose to move on we understand. I hope this clarifies some of your concerns. Ardell and Jim"
first off, note all the spelling and punctuation errors. how sad is that for a 60 year old?! secondly, here was my response to that e-mail:
"Jim and Ardell,
You'll be pleased to know that I went and cleaned out all my personal belongings from work this evening, as to not cause a distruption in your work day tomorrow. I took nothing that did not belong to me. All files and documents are on the computer at my desk. Keegan and I will be in sometime tomorrow to collect my $215 owed to me, plus the $40 taken from my check for the bureaus (as I see no way of getting them at this point since there is no vehicle to deliver them anymore).
I'm very interested to hear that "Jim feels that many successful formats have been ignored and he is concerned that this same frivolous approach will be transferred to the remote listing procedure", since Jim has never once made any sort of mention of that to me. All I have ever heard from him was how "we" were going to thrive remotely and he would keep me on to do all this work and blah blah blah.... only to find out that he is worried about my "errors".
Good luck."
so, with that, i showed up the next day, collected my $255, and was done with it. fuck them, ya know? don't sit there and praise me day in and day out for what i do, then when i wanna get paid, turn around and tell me i suck at my job? good luck to them since i am the only one that even knew how to use a computer correctly there. haha.
so summer is pretty much over, huh? i got to say, i love fall weather, a lot. but, fall is just another excuse for me to hibernate and put on weight. unfortunately for me, i have already put on my winter weight in less than a month by going off atkins and going wild for bread. the real reason i went off atkins is because i lost my job and cannot afford to eat steak and the like everyday. truly. otherwise, i would stay on, cus it was working. something has to be done though because now i have less than a year to fit this fat ass in a wedding dress. good god! this summer has been pretty good for concerts though. dispatch, silverchair, state radio, linkin park/my chemical romance/taking back sunday/him/placebo... fucking great times. concerts are my livelihood. i'm seeing say anything again on november 1! luckily that concert is 2 weeks before my birthday and erin is getting me a ticket. jobless girls are not allowed to spend their money on concert tickets.
keegan and i started our own online ebay store. if you wanna search for it, it's called The Eclectic Xperience (Experience was taken). we have about 85 things listed. about 76 of them are ours, and the other things are designer purses and stuff from a personal consigner. stop by and buy some shit! haha. we have sold a couple pairs of pants, a humping chihuaha toy, an fm transmitter, a couple purses, a laser level, and a cross pen set. not bad for a start. every little bit of money helps at this point.
this just in: my mom admitted that she was psycho and needed help. she is "medication sensitive" so she is just gonna go to counseling. she says at this point she is afraid she is seriously gonna hurt someone. she also says that the lines of right and wrong are blurring... scary. she also says that she can't even work because she is afraid of losing her cool if a situation arose. the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem. honestly, i am afraid she is gonna kill the therapist or something, hah.
oh! i just found out that i am far-sighted. the fucked up thing is, i have always had amazing vision. but when i hold something close to my face, it blurs and i can't see it at all. so scary! i can read fine, and my eyes don't bother me when i drive or anything like that. i think i should get a professional opinion soon. it's so fucking weird to all of a sudden have a part of your body that doesn't work the same way it always has, ya know?
well i think i'm done now. this should be enough to keep you all satisfied for another few months, right?
July 12, 2007 - "god it just feels so good."
man, it sure has been awhile. i'm sitting here alone with some time to reflect... so i thought, why not? we originally had plans to go to rhode island tonight... but those plans fell through. keegan and kelcey just went to play disc.
let me tell you something about disc. i've played before, years ago. i thought it would be a really fun activity for me to get into for weight loss purposes and whatnot. i had only ever done the burgess course. so, this year, we got ourselves some discs and headed to the college course. yeah. me in a skirt and flip flops and going up and down treacherous trails while trying to smack the bugs off - doesn't mix too well (as you can imagine, wah wah wah). not only that - i can't throw the fucking disc. i realized that it is not just the fact that i let my fingers hook around the disc flap, and hold on to it too long... but my arm does not want to throw anything in the direction it should go in. i discovered this sometime last year or the year before, when i went to play beer pong. what a sad night that was. now i will never claim to have been a undefeated beer pong champion... but i was pretty good in my heyday. now i can't even throw remotely close. it's horribly embarassing, and such a mystery to me. so anyway - that is the long winded version of the reason i didn't go with them to play. i mean, we all know i'm lazy, i'm not disagreeing with that... it's just those little things like lack of sneakers and bugs in my hair that keep me down THAT much more.
we missed the moe concert the other night. we had 4th row fucking tickets. we get to the parking lot - look at the sign - look at the tickets... and realize it was the night before. oops. we both looked at the tickets before the date of the show, and neither of us had noticed. der.
crazy shit is happening with my job. i can't really discuss it in depth because it is all too new - and not quite put together yet. i do promise that i will "blog" about that when i am in a position to elaborate further. think happy thoughts.
keegan bought me a bridal book. it's like a year countdown to the "big day" and tells you what you should be doing each month. it starts at 12 months, and that's in november - so i have some time to get into it. i def need to make more calls though. i seriously have bridal spurts where i get some shit figured out - and leave the rest for weeks (or months) later.
oh, and i also wanted to tell you guys that my boss *might* have the only photograph in the world of abraham lincoln, mary todd lincoln, and elizabeth todd edwards (wifey's sister). it's an ambrotype, and it's going to auction july 28th. you can check it out if you go to www.nesteggauctions.com/lincoln.php - it's pretty fucking wild. i got to spend some time with it. i really can't be sure if it's totally him or not. there are almost as many reasons to believe that it's him as there are to believe it is not him. if it sells for a mil, my boss will throw me 10 grand to pay off *most* of my tax debt. if it goes for less, i am gonna get a little something since i did the research on the damn thing.
i have wicked anxiety right now. i think it is because i don't know what to talk about - even though i haven't posted anything in months (nothing of substance anyway). and all these thoughts are flooding my head, but i am pushing them all away and only coming up with stupid things to say. it's either that, or i'm freaked out that the charcoal in the grill is burning and i am in charge of not forgetting to periodically check on it. scary. (i did just get up to check on it by the way).
so i guess i will talk about one of those stupid little thoughts that get through --- the band paramore is awesome. i really love their song misery business. i don't normally like a lot of chic lead singer music, haha. i get into it no matter how many times of day i listen to it. and trust me, i listen to it a lot everyday. however, it is not to the point where i would go spend a full day at warped tour waiting to see them (since that's the only place they're playing) because our warped tour line up is laaame. i've either seen all those bands, or never heard of them. plus, all ages shows suck more and more as you get older.
so some of you may have heard about nan. we keep hearing that she'll go any day now... then it's back to any week now... who knows at this point. this woman does not want to let go. i am right there with her though. i am not ready for that. i have had a shitload of time too... but you just can never be ready for it. meh.
ugh i hate being confined to the house. i really just wanna get up and get in the car and go somewhere... but the fucking grill won't die out. at least not by the time kelcey and keegan get back. i'm like a tornado of anger, swirling about! heh.
keegan, ryan, and i are leaving to go to new york city on saturday morning. we are going to get there early, enjoy the city - check into our hotel, go to the dispatch show, go to the roots down below after show, go to bed, and go back home. what a fun less than 48 hours! but you know what july 29 is?? well if you guessed jen provost's 24th birthday, jen andrews' (family) baby shower, or the silverchair show in boston... YOU ARE CORRECT! erin, kelcey, keegan, and i - the ones that went to the silverchair show in NYC in february - will be taking on the avalon in boston. fuck yes. even though silverchair's music is un-fucking-believable now. and when i say that - i mean it in a positive and negative way. positive for them, because they are all getting older and happier and all that horse shit. but negative for me, because i don't wanna fucking hear daniel johns sing like justin fucking timberlake. don't get me wrong - i love justin timberlake, but daniel johns should NOT BY ANY MEANS be trying to hit those notes. ugh. they are on the late, late show tonight. probably playing straight lines - one of the gayest songs possible. god i love them, why did they have to do this to me? hah. actually, i really like 3 songs on their new cd. sucks compared to liking the entirety of every other one of their cd's though.
dudes, i got to go. i can't manage my thoughts anymore. i'm gonna post this, then freak out about how i should've posted about something i completely blanked about. see yas.
let me tell you something about disc. i've played before, years ago. i thought it would be a really fun activity for me to get into for weight loss purposes and whatnot. i had only ever done the burgess course. so, this year, we got ourselves some discs and headed to the college course. yeah. me in a skirt and flip flops and going up and down treacherous trails while trying to smack the bugs off - doesn't mix too well (as you can imagine, wah wah wah). not only that - i can't throw the fucking disc. i realized that it is not just the fact that i let my fingers hook around the disc flap, and hold on to it too long... but my arm does not want to throw anything in the direction it should go in. i discovered this sometime last year or the year before, when i went to play beer pong. what a sad night that was. now i will never claim to have been a undefeated beer pong champion... but i was pretty good in my heyday. now i can't even throw remotely close. it's horribly embarassing, and such a mystery to me. so anyway - that is the long winded version of the reason i didn't go with them to play. i mean, we all know i'm lazy, i'm not disagreeing with that... it's just those little things like lack of sneakers and bugs in my hair that keep me down THAT much more.
we missed the moe concert the other night. we had 4th row fucking tickets. we get to the parking lot - look at the sign - look at the tickets... and realize it was the night before. oops. we both looked at the tickets before the date of the show, and neither of us had noticed. der.
crazy shit is happening with my job. i can't really discuss it in depth because it is all too new - and not quite put together yet. i do promise that i will "blog" about that when i am in a position to elaborate further. think happy thoughts.
keegan bought me a bridal book. it's like a year countdown to the "big day" and tells you what you should be doing each month. it starts at 12 months, and that's in november - so i have some time to get into it. i def need to make more calls though. i seriously have bridal spurts where i get some shit figured out - and leave the rest for weeks (or months) later.
oh, and i also wanted to tell you guys that my boss *might* have the only photograph in the world of abraham lincoln, mary todd lincoln, and elizabeth todd edwards (wifey's sister). it's an ambrotype, and it's going to auction july 28th. you can check it out if you go to www.nesteggauctions.com/lincoln.php - it's pretty fucking wild. i got to spend some time with it. i really can't be sure if it's totally him or not. there are almost as many reasons to believe that it's him as there are to believe it is not him. if it sells for a mil, my boss will throw me 10 grand to pay off *most* of my tax debt. if it goes for less, i am gonna get a little something since i did the research on the damn thing.
i have wicked anxiety right now. i think it is because i don't know what to talk about - even though i haven't posted anything in months (nothing of substance anyway). and all these thoughts are flooding my head, but i am pushing them all away and only coming up with stupid things to say. it's either that, or i'm freaked out that the charcoal in the grill is burning and i am in charge of not forgetting to periodically check on it. scary. (i did just get up to check on it by the way).
so i guess i will talk about one of those stupid little thoughts that get through --- the band paramore is awesome. i really love their song misery business. i don't normally like a lot of chic lead singer music, haha. i get into it no matter how many times of day i listen to it. and trust me, i listen to it a lot everyday. however, it is not to the point where i would go spend a full day at warped tour waiting to see them (since that's the only place they're playing) because our warped tour line up is laaame. i've either seen all those bands, or never heard of them. plus, all ages shows suck more and more as you get older.
so some of you may have heard about nan. we keep hearing that she'll go any day now... then it's back to any week now... who knows at this point. this woman does not want to let go. i am right there with her though. i am not ready for that. i have had a shitload of time too... but you just can never be ready for it. meh.
ugh i hate being confined to the house. i really just wanna get up and get in the car and go somewhere... but the fucking grill won't die out. at least not by the time kelcey and keegan get back. i'm like a tornado of anger, swirling about! heh.
keegan, ryan, and i are leaving to go to new york city on saturday morning. we are going to get there early, enjoy the city - check into our hotel, go to the dispatch show, go to the roots down below after show, go to bed, and go back home. what a fun less than 48 hours! but you know what july 29 is?? well if you guessed jen provost's 24th birthday, jen andrews' (family) baby shower, or the silverchair show in boston... YOU ARE CORRECT! erin, kelcey, keegan, and i - the ones that went to the silverchair show in NYC in february - will be taking on the avalon in boston. fuck yes. even though silverchair's music is un-fucking-believable now. and when i say that - i mean it in a positive and negative way. positive for them, because they are all getting older and happier and all that horse shit. but negative for me, because i don't wanna fucking hear daniel johns sing like justin fucking timberlake. don't get me wrong - i love justin timberlake, but daniel johns should NOT BY ANY MEANS be trying to hit those notes. ugh. they are on the late, late show tonight. probably playing straight lines - one of the gayest songs possible. god i love them, why did they have to do this to me? hah. actually, i really like 3 songs on their new cd. sucks compared to liking the entirety of every other one of their cd's though.
dudes, i got to go. i can't manage my thoughts anymore. i'm gonna post this, then freak out about how i should've posted about something i completely blanked about. see yas.
April 19th, 2007 - "420 is upon us."
i just wanted to take the time out to wish you all a happy and healthy 4/20.
erin, zoe, and i will be taking our annual trip off cape... just not to our usual spot. our objective is to get to vermont. we were planning on heading to burlington, but it might be too far... depends on what time we are in motion.
i am currently burning 6 420 related cd's for erin's new 6 CD changer... in her new mercedes benz wagon. we're very excited about our maiden voyage out of state. we got a half and we'll be having a lot of fun. i suggest you all do the same.
erin, zoe, and i will be taking our annual trip off cape... just not to our usual spot. our objective is to get to vermont. we were planning on heading to burlington, but it might be too far... depends on what time we are in motion.
i am currently burning 6 420 related cd's for erin's new 6 CD changer... in her new mercedes benz wagon. we're very excited about our maiden voyage out of state. we got a half and we'll be having a lot of fun. i suggest you all do the same.
February 26th, 2007 - "holy shit it's not a quiz!"
hey folks. i'm trying out the "rich text" mode that livejournal has to offer. i don't know if it will come out looking the same as it looks right now once i post it - but who cares, it looks good now.
so let's see... lots to update on. you know, i wanted to update weeks ago, but i keep putting it off. i know i did the silverchair blog, but - duh.
keegan is watching a 2 part episode of CSI directed by tarantino right now. i would have been into it had i been paying attention in part one. now it's too late, and there is another 45 min of this episode. ah well, guess i'll catch up here.
so a couple weeks ago, a bunch of us went to roots down below at pufferbellies. we all got there way too early. which pretty much meant there wasn't much to do but drink a shitload to pass the time. it ended up being me, keegan, erin, renee, katie feist, tara, jen a, kelcey, ryan, and dan. a lot of long islands and shots ensued on everyone's part. people were accosted, others were dodged. we rocked out since it was clearly late enough in the night for us all to be in that kinda mood. at the end of the night i got overly emotional drunk and made a bit of a scene regarding kelcey, and her driving herself and dan home. we figured it out. we should have planned ahead because we didn't have the most sober of drivers, but we had the sober-est of drivers. promise. it was a looong night. it was also a funnn night. belee dat.
on another note, we finally bit it and went to a bridal expo. it was me, keegan, jen p, jen's mom, my mom, and my sister. we were bombarded with information. we got the date, but still no idea where we are gonna have it. i pretty much found my dress, but i am not gonna try them on till next year. i have so many hopefulls for my bridesmaids dresses, but they keep changing. and the bridesmaid thing is KILLING ME. as if it isn't hard enough to keep the wedding totals below 200... all my friends want to be bridesmaids. almost all of them are equally entitled to the job. however, i cannot have 8 bridesmaids with like 4 or 5 ushers. i need to clean house - which will make people very upset but it's not a contest. if i have one person, then the other person wants to know what makes that person more qualified then them? it's basically a game of ranking my friends, which is the last thing i want to do. i promised bridesmaids status to almost everyone - before i really realized that it can't go down like that. oh well, we'll cross that bridge sooner or later. anyway - back to the expo. so we get a bunch of shit, enter a bunch of giveaways, collect a lot of phamplets... blah blah blah. so then these guys are gonna give away a night stay at any marriott hotel, anywhere. but the catch is that you have to be the first 11 callers. so we all had to get cell phones out and continuously call this dude. so a bunch of people get it, me not being one of them. apparently once you were one of the 11, you had to get on stage and dance for it. they had you do a couple different dances, and the audience picked the winner. the dj guy needed help with the cha cha slide, so he asked if anyone in the audience knew it. of course, lauren chester knew it. so she had to go on stage, and have all these people follow her lead. the dude kept calling her "fly girl". have to admit, it was mildly entertaining. or maybe it was the sea breezes i was drinking... idk. then there was a fashion show where i realized that palm beach coral and/or burnt orange vests look like shit on the guys. so that's another modification i have to look into making. so after the fashion show was over... the dude asks for all the couples to come on stage. i, of course, wanted no part of it. however, keegan raised his hand, and my mom was trying to hold my hand up. so, along with 11 other couples, we had to go up on stage to play a rendition of the "newlywed game". meh. the couples all had to stand back to back, and the boys got a clipboard and a pen. the dj dude (from mr. tux) asked questions, and our answers had to match. the first question was what was the guys' best feature. i said lips. keegan said smile. we were in. a bunch of people got eliminated. there was only 4 of us left. next question was who would your guy want to be for a day. i panicked and went with justin timberlake. i don't know, it was a shot in the dark. and kind of a joke. i mean, it's just for a day! ANYWAY keegan said himself.. but we lucked out cus everyone else got that one wrong too, so we got to stay. the next question was what was the last movie we saw together in the theater? the 2 girls to my right got it totally wrong. i could not remember for the life of me, but by the time it got to me it clicked - alpha dog. so i was safe. oh, did i mention this was a contest for $250 cash? so the girl next to me is all "omg i know all the actors and what happened in the movie but i cant remember the title!" and the guy was like... "ok, who was in it and what happened" and as she was explaining it, the audience yells out the name. and HE FUCKING GAVE IT TO HER! bullshit. mind you, her fucking fiance was the one that won the damn night at the marriot for being an entertaining person to watch do pelvic thrusts. so, okay - next question. what is your soon-to-be-mother-in-law's birthday? i knew it when it came around, but i had completely forgot. but of course, the connecticut-bred looking bitch knew it right down to the year. can you believe we lost when she totally cheated? so i was PISSED. keegan was okay with it. but i had to complain to mother. well wouldn't you believe she marched right on up to the tux guy and asked if there was a runner-up prize or something since it clearly wasn't fair. we ended up leaving with a free tux for the wedding. lame compared to $250 cash, but whatev.
work has been tough lately. our boss is nothing short of a douchebag. i mean, when he is nice - he is my fave adult to be around. but when he isn't being nice, he is a royal asshole. he makes shit up in his head. wicked mood disorders. and he knows it, which might be the worst part. sometimes i feel like working for him is like being in an abusive relationship with someone you love, because you feel like no one else will love you. yeah, totally.
i learned something tonight. i learned that positive reinforcement is the key to life. think about it. if you get constantly praised for the good things you do, you will look for that praise all the time, thus striving for excellence. this is why i can't do math. i had a hard time with it, but instead of helping me through it, my parents got angry and frustrated with why i just couldn't get it - and would scare me into getting the questions right. which i seldom did. i try my hardest to offer positive reinforcement, and now i realize that the reason i do, is because i am treating others as i would like to be treated, which is how i tend to roll. for instance, when i taught keegan to drive standard... instead of freaking out and huffing and puffing and freaking him out when he would stall or something - i would tell him how good he was doing, and offer suggestions on how he might alter what he was doing to make it more comfortable to him. he learned in no time. same thing with jen a. no sooner did i teach her, she was driving my car on hills for chrissakes.
we went to the all american pub for dinner the other night for my dad's 44th. my parents admitted that they are much nicer to their children now. i was the test kid. so much so, that my sister pushed all her dreams of boston college to the wind, because she is too comfortable with mommy at home. she won't even get a fucking license. it's gross! not only that, she has a "serious" boyfriend (who is already like a part of the family) that she doesn't want to leave. she has some serious plans to go to 4 C's and try to further her career as a cheerleader. my brother, thankfully, wants to go to florida state... then move to NH. i told him to go to FL and not come back. he has to get out. and NH is not all he thinks it is. or else i'd still be there.
on an entirely different note... my bunny is a celine dion fan. during the oscar's last night, when celine came on - she stopped eating, perked her ears so high, and raised her left paw off the ground and held it there. then ran under her box and hopped around it for a bit. man, she loooves it. then today keegan was saying things like "marky mark" and "panic at the disco" to look for a reaction. nothing. then he says "celine dion" and she starts doing this weird twitchy thing with her face. fucking celine loving fascist. love her.
um. lots of concerts coming up. don't know how i'm gonna do it, but i gotta.
say anything & saves the day.
state radio.
roots down below and the wailers.
my chemical romance.
fall out boy/the academy is.../+44/cobra starship.
30 seconds to mars (and a couple other bands i could care less about).
ROGER WATERS!
dispatch (already got tickets).
i feel like i am missing a couple but that's okay, doesn't really matter.
i have GOT to go. keegan has now thrown my keys, a cigarette pack, 2 lighters, and a sock at the bunny because she is "not responding" to him. there goes the other sock. this is what happens when you let him drink 2 bottles of champagne by himself. good god. luckily, he wouldn't throw it hard enough to hit her.. but i might just have to hit him.
laaate.
so let's see... lots to update on. you know, i wanted to update weeks ago, but i keep putting it off. i know i did the silverchair blog, but - duh.
keegan is watching a 2 part episode of CSI directed by tarantino right now. i would have been into it had i been paying attention in part one. now it's too late, and there is another 45 min of this episode. ah well, guess i'll catch up here.
so a couple weeks ago, a bunch of us went to roots down below at pufferbellies. we all got there way too early. which pretty much meant there wasn't much to do but drink a shitload to pass the time. it ended up being me, keegan, erin, renee, katie feist, tara, jen a, kelcey, ryan, and dan. a lot of long islands and shots ensued on everyone's part. people were accosted, others were dodged. we rocked out since it was clearly late enough in the night for us all to be in that kinda mood. at the end of the night i got overly emotional drunk and made a bit of a scene regarding kelcey, and her driving herself and dan home. we figured it out. we should have planned ahead because we didn't have the most sober of drivers, but we had the sober-est of drivers. promise. it was a looong night. it was also a funnn night. belee dat.
on another note, we finally bit it and went to a bridal expo. it was me, keegan, jen p, jen's mom, my mom, and my sister. we were bombarded with information. we got the date, but still no idea where we are gonna have it. i pretty much found my dress, but i am not gonna try them on till next year. i have so many hopefulls for my bridesmaids dresses, but they keep changing. and the bridesmaid thing is KILLING ME. as if it isn't hard enough to keep the wedding totals below 200... all my friends want to be bridesmaids. almost all of them are equally entitled to the job. however, i cannot have 8 bridesmaids with like 4 or 5 ushers. i need to clean house - which will make people very upset but it's not a contest. if i have one person, then the other person wants to know what makes that person more qualified then them? it's basically a game of ranking my friends, which is the last thing i want to do. i promised bridesmaids status to almost everyone - before i really realized that it can't go down like that. oh well, we'll cross that bridge sooner or later. anyway - back to the expo. so we get a bunch of shit, enter a bunch of giveaways, collect a lot of phamplets... blah blah blah. so then these guys are gonna give away a night stay at any marriott hotel, anywhere. but the catch is that you have to be the first 11 callers. so we all had to get cell phones out and continuously call this dude. so a bunch of people get it, me not being one of them. apparently once you were one of the 11, you had to get on stage and dance for it. they had you do a couple different dances, and the audience picked the winner. the dj guy needed help with the cha cha slide, so he asked if anyone in the audience knew it. of course, lauren chester knew it. so she had to go on stage, and have all these people follow her lead. the dude kept calling her "fly girl". have to admit, it was mildly entertaining. or maybe it was the sea breezes i was drinking... idk. then there was a fashion show where i realized that palm beach coral and/or burnt orange vests look like shit on the guys. so that's another modification i have to look into making. so after the fashion show was over... the dude asks for all the couples to come on stage. i, of course, wanted no part of it. however, keegan raised his hand, and my mom was trying to hold my hand up. so, along with 11 other couples, we had to go up on stage to play a rendition of the "newlywed game". meh. the couples all had to stand back to back, and the boys got a clipboard and a pen. the dj dude (from mr. tux) asked questions, and our answers had to match. the first question was what was the guys' best feature. i said lips. keegan said smile. we were in. a bunch of people got eliminated. there was only 4 of us left. next question was who would your guy want to be for a day. i panicked and went with justin timberlake. i don't know, it was a shot in the dark. and kind of a joke. i mean, it's just for a day! ANYWAY keegan said himself.. but we lucked out cus everyone else got that one wrong too, so we got to stay. the next question was what was the last movie we saw together in the theater? the 2 girls to my right got it totally wrong. i could not remember for the life of me, but by the time it got to me it clicked - alpha dog. so i was safe. oh, did i mention this was a contest for $250 cash? so the girl next to me is all "omg i know all the actors and what happened in the movie but i cant remember the title!" and the guy was like... "ok, who was in it and what happened" and as she was explaining it, the audience yells out the name. and HE FUCKING GAVE IT TO HER! bullshit. mind you, her fucking fiance was the one that won the damn night at the marriot for being an entertaining person to watch do pelvic thrusts. so, okay - next question. what is your soon-to-be-mother-in-law's birthday? i knew it when it came around, but i had completely forgot. but of course, the connecticut-bred looking bitch knew it right down to the year. can you believe we lost when she totally cheated? so i was PISSED. keegan was okay with it. but i had to complain to mother. well wouldn't you believe she marched right on up to the tux guy and asked if there was a runner-up prize or something since it clearly wasn't fair. we ended up leaving with a free tux for the wedding. lame compared to $250 cash, but whatev.
work has been tough lately. our boss is nothing short of a douchebag. i mean, when he is nice - he is my fave adult to be around. but when he isn't being nice, he is a royal asshole. he makes shit up in his head. wicked mood disorders. and he knows it, which might be the worst part. sometimes i feel like working for him is like being in an abusive relationship with someone you love, because you feel like no one else will love you. yeah, totally.
i learned something tonight. i learned that positive reinforcement is the key to life. think about it. if you get constantly praised for the good things you do, you will look for that praise all the time, thus striving for excellence. this is why i can't do math. i had a hard time with it, but instead of helping me through it, my parents got angry and frustrated with why i just couldn't get it - and would scare me into getting the questions right. which i seldom did. i try my hardest to offer positive reinforcement, and now i realize that the reason i do, is because i am treating others as i would like to be treated, which is how i tend to roll. for instance, when i taught keegan to drive standard... instead of freaking out and huffing and puffing and freaking him out when he would stall or something - i would tell him how good he was doing, and offer suggestions on how he might alter what he was doing to make it more comfortable to him. he learned in no time. same thing with jen a. no sooner did i teach her, she was driving my car on hills for chrissakes.
we went to the all american pub for dinner the other night for my dad's 44th. my parents admitted that they are much nicer to their children now. i was the test kid. so much so, that my sister pushed all her dreams of boston college to the wind, because she is too comfortable with mommy at home. she won't even get a fucking license. it's gross! not only that, she has a "serious" boyfriend (who is already like a part of the family) that she doesn't want to leave. she has some serious plans to go to 4 C's and try to further her career as a cheerleader. my brother, thankfully, wants to go to florida state... then move to NH. i told him to go to FL and not come back. he has to get out. and NH is not all he thinks it is. or else i'd still be there.
on an entirely different note... my bunny is a celine dion fan. during the oscar's last night, when celine came on - she stopped eating, perked her ears so high, and raised her left paw off the ground and held it there. then ran under her box and hopped around it for a bit. man, she loooves it. then today keegan was saying things like "marky mark" and "panic at the disco" to look for a reaction. nothing. then he says "celine dion" and she starts doing this weird twitchy thing with her face. fucking celine loving fascist. love her.
um. lots of concerts coming up. don't know how i'm gonna do it, but i gotta.
say anything & saves the day.
state radio.
roots down below and the wailers.
my chemical romance.
fall out boy/the academy is.../+44/cobra starship.
30 seconds to mars (and a couple other bands i could care less about).
ROGER WATERS!
dispatch (already got tickets).
i feel like i am missing a couple but that's okay, doesn't really matter.
i have GOT to go. keegan has now thrown my keys, a cigarette pack, 2 lighters, and a sock at the bunny because she is "not responding" to him. there goes the other sock. this is what happens when you let him drink 2 bottles of champagne by himself. good god. luckily, he wouldn't throw it hard enough to hit her.. but i might just have to hit him.
laaate.
February 17, 2007 - "The Greatest View: Silverchair Concert 2/12/07"
***So as most of you now know, IT has happened. And by it, I mean I finally, after 12 years of obsessing... I saw Silverchair in concert. The following explains the who, what, were, why, how. Please take the time to enjoy this.***
Originally I had been sitting by the computer on the day that the tickets went on sale, and could only afford 2. I got 2 tickets to the February 12 show, which sold out almost immediately. I got Keegan and I tickets for only $20 each, plus those lame conveniency charges and shipping costs. In discussion with Kelcey and Erin, I mentioned that they should go. I knew I could scoop tickets from craigslist or ebay, so that's what I did. Kelcey ended up getting hers for $55, and Erin got hers for $82.50. Inflation's a bitch. Erin was going to be the driver since she is the most experienced in city driving. The day before we were going to go, I get a text message from her that says "limo picks us up at noon". She had rented a 2007 stretch limo to take us so there would be little to no complication, and we could all drink. Amazing. We actually had the limo pick us up at 1, went to a liquor store, stopped for gas and batteries, and headed to NYC. On the way we stopped at a McDonalds in RI that was totally all done like it was a 50s diner, which I thought was wicked cool. We also had to stop in the Bronx to go use a bathroom at a McDonalds. Yikes. Doors opened at 7:30, but I wasn't totally freaking out about being late because Army of Me was opening, and I could have missed them and been okay with it. After getting lost pretty badly, we ended up where we needed to be. Unfortunately we had to get out of a limo in front of the line of kids waiting to get into the concert... embarassing. We were at the Bowery Ballroom, one of the smallest concert venues I have been to. We got some drinks and proceeded upstairs to check out Army of Me. They played very well, but I think their stuff might be a little too soft for me. After they went off stage they band members were practically standing right next to us in a doorway. Some people went over and hugged them and got pictures. I just left them alone. When they went off stage, I got as close as I could weasle in, and got VERY impatient.
On the way there I am hell bent on trying to bet on which song they will open with. I felt very strongly about them opening with Slave (from Freak Show, their second cd). We got right up to the front right of the stage, and a dude we were standing near (whom Kelcey and Erin befriended) was almost sure they would open with Slave too. We were excited. Much to our suprise, they opened with Without You (off Diorama, their fourth cd). No big deal. Next, they come out with Emotion Sickness which sends me into an absolute frenzy. As we all know, that is one of my most favorite songs. I took a 30-second or so clip of it with my camera, which you will find in My Videos section. At this point I am so fucking pumped, expecting more Neon Ballroom, or some Freak Show, or, most importantly, Frogstomp songs. But following Emotion Sickness we got The Greatest View, World Upon Your Shoulders, and Across The Night (all off Diorama), then Young Modern Station (off their newest cd that won't be released for about a month from now). I was starting to get concerned that they weren't going to play many older songs. So as much fun as I was having... I was starting to get slightly disappointed. Ana's Song (off Neon Ballroom) came afterwards, and that reassured me that good things were to come... I think.
Now let me stop here and just say a couple things regarding the way I feel about Silverchair's new music. When I heard Straight Lines (their newest single, and also the next song on their playlist that night), I had a fucking heart attack. A literal tear dropped from my eye when I saw the video. Let me remind you that I fell deeply in love with that band at a most influential point in my life - and have never felt differently. That band was the GRUNGE band Silverchair, from 1995. My love continued through Freak Show, went with the flow into Neon Ballroom until I learned to really love it... and got really concerned at Diorama. Honestly, when Diorama came out I felt like maybe my love was diminishing, but I still maintained that they were my favorite band. I never really got into Diorama. I knew pretty much all the songs - but just couldn't relate to them or enjoy them like I had done in previous years. So let me just say that when they were done playing Straight Lines, and then played 2 more songs from Diorama (Tuna in the Brine & Luv You Life) my heart was sinking. I didn't realize that they were going to play that concert as if Diorama had just been released and they were promoting it (it was released in 2002). Finally I hear Daniel say they were going to play "an old song" and I nearly lost my shit. In the seconds before he started playing I had high hopes of what it could possibly be. It was The Door, off Freak Show (their second cd) and also happened to be the first song they played all night that was pre-1999. I had hoped for something off Frogstomp, but I decided to just keep my fingers crossed that they would bust out with it a little later, or at least for the encore. 2 new songs followed, Don't Wanna Be The One (a Midnight Oil cover) & Mind Reader. I knew the concert was coming to an end and I was getting really upset. Then FINALLY they played Freak (everyone knows this song, hopefully) and I couldn't have been more pleased. If they had not at least played that I would have freaked. And that was it, they went off stage. We all knew an encore was in order. They seemed to take forever to come back out, and when they did they played If You Keep Losing Sleep (another new song), and The Lever (off Diorama). That was it. Not one song off Frogstomp, not even Tomorrow (which is essentially the song that made them who they are today). I had so many mixed emotions when I left there. For one, I was absolutely overwhelmed and ecstatic at what I had just seen. I was also very sad that it was over, and kept thinking that I may never get the chance to experience that again. Lastly, I was super disappointed that they didn't play any real old songs. Come to find out that Daniel doesn't "relate" to those songs anymore. Bummer. I mean, I don't really relate anymore either, but I did at one point, and will always love them because of it. I honestly would not be who I am today without that cd. But oh well, about 10 years too late for the concert where they play all Freak Show and Frogstomp songs. I can say though, after the seeing them live, I have a new found love for Diorama, and will be anticipating their new cd. I have to accept that we all grow up at some point, and with musicians, it reflects majorly through their music. I need to learn to grow with them, and not be close-minded to their maturation. I seriously just love them so much. And no matter how poppy they get, they know how to fucking rock, and that is something I needed to experience to continue loving at the level that I do.
On the way home the limo driver kept having to pull over to rest his eyes. Erin was WASTED on the way home and kept telling the limo driver she loved him. We're pretty sure he loved her too though, so it was okay. We made it home at about 5:40am. Erin passed out on my couch, Kelcey went home to get a couple hours of sleep before work (but she never actually made it), me and Keegan went to bed, but he had to get up early for work in the morning (which he was late to), and I got to stroll into work about 3pm, then work from home.
All in all, the best concert ever. Nothing could top the feeling of seeing your favorite band live after a good 12 years of claiming that they are your number one. I have renewed my obsession and have been listening to Diorama for a straight week. I'm talking constantly. I wish more of you had the love I had for them. If anyone does, I would LOVE to make a "through the years" cd that has songs from all 4 cd's so you can hear the unbelievable transition.
You can find all my pictures from the concert (there are about 100) in my Yahoo Photos, the album called Silverchair, obviously. Thanks for reliving this with me.
Originally I had been sitting by the computer on the day that the tickets went on sale, and could only afford 2. I got 2 tickets to the February 12 show, which sold out almost immediately. I got Keegan and I tickets for only $20 each, plus those lame conveniency charges and shipping costs. In discussion with Kelcey and Erin, I mentioned that they should go. I knew I could scoop tickets from craigslist or ebay, so that's what I did. Kelcey ended up getting hers for $55, and Erin got hers for $82.50. Inflation's a bitch. Erin was going to be the driver since she is the most experienced in city driving. The day before we were going to go, I get a text message from her that says "limo picks us up at noon". She had rented a 2007 stretch limo to take us so there would be little to no complication, and we could all drink. Amazing. We actually had the limo pick us up at 1, went to a liquor store, stopped for gas and batteries, and headed to NYC. On the way we stopped at a McDonalds in RI that was totally all done like it was a 50s diner, which I thought was wicked cool. We also had to stop in the Bronx to go use a bathroom at a McDonalds. Yikes. Doors opened at 7:30, but I wasn't totally freaking out about being late because Army of Me was opening, and I could have missed them and been okay with it. After getting lost pretty badly, we ended up where we needed to be. Unfortunately we had to get out of a limo in front of the line of kids waiting to get into the concert... embarassing. We were at the Bowery Ballroom, one of the smallest concert venues I have been to. We got some drinks and proceeded upstairs to check out Army of Me. They played very well, but I think their stuff might be a little too soft for me. After they went off stage they band members were practically standing right next to us in a doorway. Some people went over and hugged them and got pictures. I just left them alone. When they went off stage, I got as close as I could weasle in, and got VERY impatient.
On the way there I am hell bent on trying to bet on which song they will open with. I felt very strongly about them opening with Slave (from Freak Show, their second cd). We got right up to the front right of the stage, and a dude we were standing near (whom Kelcey and Erin befriended) was almost sure they would open with Slave too. We were excited. Much to our suprise, they opened with Without You (off Diorama, their fourth cd). No big deal. Next, they come out with Emotion Sickness which sends me into an absolute frenzy. As we all know, that is one of my most favorite songs. I took a 30-second or so clip of it with my camera, which you will find in My Videos section. At this point I am so fucking pumped, expecting more Neon Ballroom, or some Freak Show, or, most importantly, Frogstomp songs. But following Emotion Sickness we got The Greatest View, World Upon Your Shoulders, and Across The Night (all off Diorama), then Young Modern Station (off their newest cd that won't be released for about a month from now). I was starting to get concerned that they weren't going to play many older songs. So as much fun as I was having... I was starting to get slightly disappointed. Ana's Song (off Neon Ballroom) came afterwards, and that reassured me that good things were to come... I think.
Now let me stop here and just say a couple things regarding the way I feel about Silverchair's new music. When I heard Straight Lines (their newest single, and also the next song on their playlist that night), I had a fucking heart attack. A literal tear dropped from my eye when I saw the video. Let me remind you that I fell deeply in love with that band at a most influential point in my life - and have never felt differently. That band was the GRUNGE band Silverchair, from 1995. My love continued through Freak Show, went with the flow into Neon Ballroom until I learned to really love it... and got really concerned at Diorama. Honestly, when Diorama came out I felt like maybe my love was diminishing, but I still maintained that they were my favorite band. I never really got into Diorama. I knew pretty much all the songs - but just couldn't relate to them or enjoy them like I had done in previous years. So let me just say that when they were done playing Straight Lines, and then played 2 more songs from Diorama (Tuna in the Brine & Luv You Life) my heart was sinking. I didn't realize that they were going to play that concert as if Diorama had just been released and they were promoting it (it was released in 2002). Finally I hear Daniel say they were going to play "an old song" and I nearly lost my shit. In the seconds before he started playing I had high hopes of what it could possibly be. It was The Door, off Freak Show (their second cd) and also happened to be the first song they played all night that was pre-1999. I had hoped for something off Frogstomp, but I decided to just keep my fingers crossed that they would bust out with it a little later, or at least for the encore. 2 new songs followed, Don't Wanna Be The One (a Midnight Oil cover) & Mind Reader. I knew the concert was coming to an end and I was getting really upset. Then FINALLY they played Freak (everyone knows this song, hopefully) and I couldn't have been more pleased. If they had not at least played that I would have freaked. And that was it, they went off stage. We all knew an encore was in order. They seemed to take forever to come back out, and when they did they played If You Keep Losing Sleep (another new song), and The Lever (off Diorama). That was it. Not one song off Frogstomp, not even Tomorrow (which is essentially the song that made them who they are today). I had so many mixed emotions when I left there. For one, I was absolutely overwhelmed and ecstatic at what I had just seen. I was also very sad that it was over, and kept thinking that I may never get the chance to experience that again. Lastly, I was super disappointed that they didn't play any real old songs. Come to find out that Daniel doesn't "relate" to those songs anymore. Bummer. I mean, I don't really relate anymore either, but I did at one point, and will always love them because of it. I honestly would not be who I am today without that cd. But oh well, about 10 years too late for the concert where they play all Freak Show and Frogstomp songs. I can say though, after the seeing them live, I have a new found love for Diorama, and will be anticipating their new cd. I have to accept that we all grow up at some point, and with musicians, it reflects majorly through their music. I need to learn to grow with them, and not be close-minded to their maturation. I seriously just love them so much. And no matter how poppy they get, they know how to fucking rock, and that is something I needed to experience to continue loving at the level that I do.
On the way home the limo driver kept having to pull over to rest his eyes. Erin was WASTED on the way home and kept telling the limo driver she loved him. We're pretty sure he loved her too though, so it was okay. We made it home at about 5:40am. Erin passed out on my couch, Kelcey went home to get a couple hours of sleep before work (but she never actually made it), me and Keegan went to bed, but he had to get up early for work in the morning (which he was late to), and I got to stroll into work about 3pm, then work from home.
All in all, the best concert ever. Nothing could top the feeling of seeing your favorite band live after a good 12 years of claiming that they are your number one. I have renewed my obsession and have been listening to Diorama for a straight week. I'm talking constantly. I wish more of you had the love I had for them. If anyone does, I would LOVE to make a "through the years" cd that has songs from all 4 cd's so you can hear the unbelievable transition.
You can find all my pictures from the concert (there are about 100) in my Yahoo Photos, the album called Silverchair, obviously. Thanks for reliving this with me.
December 31st, 2006 - "happy 2007"
man i need to blog. it's been over a week now i think.
it's been busy around here, what with the holidays and all.
christmas eve was tolerable. we spent some time at nan's with my mom's side of the family. the whole family - minus one uncle and one cousin. that totals 12 grandchildren alone, counting me. keegan and i drank 2 bottles of wine in like... 2 hours. i cashed in on a nice new Nine West wallet (i know what you're thinking, so not me - and you're right), $60 total to Uno's, $25 to Dunkin Donuts, and a total of $140 cash.
from nan's we went on to aunt chrissy's in mansfield. we took lauren and her boyfriend tom up with us. at that family gathering i cashed in on a total of $160... love that my birthday was only a month ago, so i get double the dollars. our christmas eve was splendid. we opened our stockings as we always do... and i had already given him 2 presents... one the day before, and one that day. the one i gave him the day before was just the inside deep throat dvd, and i thought we'd watch it - which we still haven't done.
the present i gave him on christmas eve was, i believe, the clerks 2 dvd - because he had gotten fired from the movie theater that morning, and he was upset. long story, ask HIM about it.
we opened stockings that night after midnight... so it technically was christmas. he had also let me open one present the day before, and it was an awesome new slide with a frog on it. you can find a picture of it in the Good Times <3 folder in my Yahoo! photos. i also got a much needed bottle of 420 cleaner. if you do see the slide picture, it was already cleaned once before we took the picture. we have to clean things a lot around here.so for the first time in years... i could not sleep on christmas morning. i was up at like, 7am. i forced myself back to sleep because there was no way keegan was getting up. i managed to get back to sleep till about 9:20am, then i woke him up - dying to unwrap. i got a sick ass Canon A540 PowerShot camera with a 2GB chip, a camera bag, and a SanDisk USB thing to load the pics on the computer. would you believe i already lost the manual and everything else that i needed for the camera? i'm a winner. i also got the newest satellite radio... and another year subscription of Sirius. the satellite radio is also an mp3 player that detaches from the car and you can plug headphones in it and shit. or get a home docking station. you can also record mp3's off Sirius, and save them. it holds 50 hours of mp3's... so i may consider selling my ipod if times get tough. i ALSO got a Senseo gourmet coffee machine, blue. it is so fucking amazing. i drink more coffee now than i should - and you all know how much coffee i normally drink. it's got so much flavor and taste that you barely need sweetner... and it comes out light, rather than a dark brew (depending on what kind you get i guess) so it doesn't require too much cream either. the best part is that the coffee is done within seconds. come over and have some. seriously. he also got me a beautiful skirt, a canvas and some paints, burnable cd's that look like records... etc. so thoughtful. his christmas was kinda lame. he didn't want anything major so i ended up buying him clerks 2, inside deep throat, little miss sunshine, thank you for smoking, a cordless drill, a hand mixer, the game of life, a plain red hoodie (that he LOVES), a new Norelco shaver, the Sims 2, a back massager.. .and that sort of shit. i still managed to go way over budget. ah, well.the day after christmas we went up to sara and dan's house for an after christmas get together. she got me this awesome "coffee table book" since she knows how much i love looking at those books at her mom's house. it's the billboard music book... from like the 1940s, to now. she also got me a marble coaster set where you like paint your photos on to get them to stick. also, a skirt, believe it or not lol. brenda, keegan and sara's kind-of-aunt gave me a wallet too. her wallet was better, and so much more my style, so i ditched the velcro sublime wallet and upgraded to a more mature look. however, i AM keeping the faithful sublime.
keegan and i have been bumming around the house for days now. i worked 2 half days from home this week - he had a week off from the lab - and obviously, the movie theater. we've done a lot of nothing. he's played the sims a lot. and i have drank a lot of coffee. i cleaned some of my pieces yesterday. i play with my camera. he just went out and scored some sony reel to reel thing that some guy had up on craigslist for free. he is hoping to get $150-250 outta that thing on ebay. he shouldn't have too much of a problem. we're thinking maybe he'll just work at the lab and sell shit on ebay. jim had him come into the store and work for 4.5 hours organizing the back room on friday. he might need him to do more shit like that here and there. it'll all work out.
law and order: svu marathon is on today. exactly how i wanna spend my new year's eve. haha. just kidding. i have already seen all of these i am pretty sure. decidedly, at least me, tara, keegan, and erin o are going to the Black Sheep Bah & Grille tonight. papa wetherbee got a permit to stay open till 2am. the only thing i worry about is the driving thing. keegan says he'll drive but maybe we'll look into taking a cab, who knows.
i am gonna start saving up for a volcano vaporizer. i don't need the huge one, i just need one in general. if i get one, i will quit smoking butts. that way, it'll be like no smoke enters my lungs. amazing. i literally just paused to look at them. the absolute cheapest you can get one on ebay for is $400 as a buy it now. i gotta do it, at some point. however tomorrow does mark day 1 of teaching myself how to manage and save my money. hah. however, i think that getting healthier should not count as an expense, you know? muah.
i can't believe 2007 is tonight. this is fucking wild. we are getting so old. i have to start planning my wedding this year. for real. holy shit.
i have gotten into reisling wine so hard lately it's kind of unbelievable. so many different kids, they all taste so different. i got an amazing kind on the way to zoe's the other night... but it turned out to be way sugary. almost made me sick after drinking the whole bottle. so i went for the other bottle... and that was much too tart. so eh, whatta ya gonna do? i don't know what i'm gonna drink tonight. i think i wanna get started kinda late, drink hard alcohol, get drunk without puking, and call it a night between 1 and 2. it's like a real adult New Year's Eve this year, woah.
alright, i am gonna get back to my SVU marathon right now. happy new year friends.
it's been busy around here, what with the holidays and all.
christmas eve was tolerable. we spent some time at nan's with my mom's side of the family. the whole family - minus one uncle and one cousin. that totals 12 grandchildren alone, counting me. keegan and i drank 2 bottles of wine in like... 2 hours. i cashed in on a nice new Nine West wallet (i know what you're thinking, so not me - and you're right), $60 total to Uno's, $25 to Dunkin Donuts, and a total of $140 cash.
from nan's we went on to aunt chrissy's in mansfield. we took lauren and her boyfriend tom up with us. at that family gathering i cashed in on a total of $160... love that my birthday was only a month ago, so i get double the dollars. our christmas eve was splendid. we opened our stockings as we always do... and i had already given him 2 presents... one the day before, and one that day. the one i gave him the day before was just the inside deep throat dvd, and i thought we'd watch it - which we still haven't done.
the present i gave him on christmas eve was, i believe, the clerks 2 dvd - because he had gotten fired from the movie theater that morning, and he was upset. long story, ask HIM about it.
we opened stockings that night after midnight... so it technically was christmas. he had also let me open one present the day before, and it was an awesome new slide with a frog on it. you can find a picture of it in the Good Times <3 folder in my Yahoo! photos. i also got a much needed bottle of 420 cleaner. if you do see the slide picture, it was already cleaned once before we took the picture. we have to clean things a lot around here.so for the first time in years... i could not sleep on christmas morning. i was up at like, 7am. i forced myself back to sleep because there was no way keegan was getting up. i managed to get back to sleep till about 9:20am, then i woke him up - dying to unwrap. i got a sick ass Canon A540 PowerShot camera with a 2GB chip, a camera bag, and a SanDisk USB thing to load the pics on the computer. would you believe i already lost the manual and everything else that i needed for the camera? i'm a winner. i also got the newest satellite radio... and another year subscription of Sirius. the satellite radio is also an mp3 player that detaches from the car and you can plug headphones in it and shit. or get a home docking station. you can also record mp3's off Sirius, and save them. it holds 50 hours of mp3's... so i may consider selling my ipod if times get tough. i ALSO got a Senseo gourmet coffee machine, blue. it is so fucking amazing. i drink more coffee now than i should - and you all know how much coffee i normally drink. it's got so much flavor and taste that you barely need sweetner... and it comes out light, rather than a dark brew (depending on what kind you get i guess) so it doesn't require too much cream either. the best part is that the coffee is done within seconds. come over and have some. seriously. he also got me a beautiful skirt, a canvas and some paints, burnable cd's that look like records... etc. so thoughtful. his christmas was kinda lame. he didn't want anything major so i ended up buying him clerks 2, inside deep throat, little miss sunshine, thank you for smoking, a cordless drill, a hand mixer, the game of life, a plain red hoodie (that he LOVES), a new Norelco shaver, the Sims 2, a back massager.. .and that sort of shit. i still managed to go way over budget. ah, well.the day after christmas we went up to sara and dan's house for an after christmas get together. she got me this awesome "coffee table book" since she knows how much i love looking at those books at her mom's house. it's the billboard music book... from like the 1940s, to now. she also got me a marble coaster set where you like paint your photos on to get them to stick. also, a skirt, believe it or not lol. brenda, keegan and sara's kind-of-aunt gave me a wallet too. her wallet was better, and so much more my style, so i ditched the velcro sublime wallet and upgraded to a more mature look. however, i AM keeping the faithful sublime.
keegan and i have been bumming around the house for days now. i worked 2 half days from home this week - he had a week off from the lab - and obviously, the movie theater. we've done a lot of nothing. he's played the sims a lot. and i have drank a lot of coffee. i cleaned some of my pieces yesterday. i play with my camera. he just went out and scored some sony reel to reel thing that some guy had up on craigslist for free. he is hoping to get $150-250 outta that thing on ebay. he shouldn't have too much of a problem. we're thinking maybe he'll just work at the lab and sell shit on ebay. jim had him come into the store and work for 4.5 hours organizing the back room on friday. he might need him to do more shit like that here and there. it'll all work out.
law and order: svu marathon is on today. exactly how i wanna spend my new year's eve. haha. just kidding. i have already seen all of these i am pretty sure. decidedly, at least me, tara, keegan, and erin o are going to the Black Sheep Bah & Grille tonight. papa wetherbee got a permit to stay open till 2am. the only thing i worry about is the driving thing. keegan says he'll drive but maybe we'll look into taking a cab, who knows.
i am gonna start saving up for a volcano vaporizer. i don't need the huge one, i just need one in general. if i get one, i will quit smoking butts. that way, it'll be like no smoke enters my lungs. amazing. i literally just paused to look at them. the absolute cheapest you can get one on ebay for is $400 as a buy it now. i gotta do it, at some point. however tomorrow does mark day 1 of teaching myself how to manage and save my money. hah. however, i think that getting healthier should not count as an expense, you know? muah.
i can't believe 2007 is tonight. this is fucking wild. we are getting so old. i have to start planning my wedding this year. for real. holy shit.
i have gotten into reisling wine so hard lately it's kind of unbelievable. so many different kids, they all taste so different. i got an amazing kind on the way to zoe's the other night... but it turned out to be way sugary. almost made me sick after drinking the whole bottle. so i went for the other bottle... and that was much too tart. so eh, whatta ya gonna do? i don't know what i'm gonna drink tonight. i think i wanna get started kinda late, drink hard alcohol, get drunk without puking, and call it a night between 1 and 2. it's like a real adult New Year's Eve this year, woah.
alright, i am gonna get back to my SVU marathon right now. happy new year friends.
December 23, 2006 - "These Are My Friends, This Is Who They Have Been... For Always"
Ok, so don't get me wrong. I love ALL of my friends an unbelievable amount, and you should all know that. If you did not make this list it does not mean I don't consider you a good friend. This list is compiled of the friends that I have had for the longest, and I still talk to on a fairly regular basis. I have a lot more friends that I have had for lots of years, but who I don't talk to other than on myspace, or if I am sending invitations to a big party. So please, do not be offended. <3
***This list goes from who I have known the shortest amount of time, to who I have known the longest amount of time. ***
Keegan - he is my best friend. my fiance. my soul mate. my everything. if it wasn't for him i would not be where i am today. i haven't known him as long as the rest, but no one has impacted my life as deeply as he has, and no one ever will. he showed me what it was like to be truly happy and to be truly comfortable - something i didn't think was possible. most importantly, he showed and continues to show me true love. something i can only hope will fall into place for the rest of the people on this list. we have only known each other for about 2.5 years - but they have been the most amazing years of my life.
Zoe Smith - crazy zoe party girl. cig zoe. live it. love it. love her. she's the most care-free and free-spirited girl i have ever met. she can make anything fun. i have learned a lot from zoe. she makes me smile. she makes people feel important and loved. i miss zoe being around as much as she was at one time... but i know how happy she is in boston with coree. she can hang harder than most. she blows minds regularly. i hated her once before i even really knew her, but i think it adds character to our friendship story. we have been friends for over 5 years.
Erin O'Connor - my other best friend. we try to hang out every single day. we usually succeed. no one can make me laugh like she can. no one can surprise me like she can. and i'm pretty sure no one could do me more favors than she has. we've never had a legitimate fight in which we really thought we would never speak to each other again, and that's pretty major. she is responsible for most of my good times. and i owe her a lot for my sense of humor, since hers is the best around. she's more interesting than even i truly know - and that mystery is one of her most intriguing qualities. we have been friends for over 6 years.
Tara Wetherbee - twethy. how i love thee. this girl has got a personality you don't wanna mess with... but she is also as sweet as pie. don't ask me how she pulls it off, but she has been doing it forever. she'll do anything for anyone, within reason. she's so much fun, and she loves to get wild. she also makes for a really good story. not to mention we're going on our second year of working together. we put up with each others shit almost more than anyone else has to. we've been friends for over 6 years.
Jeni Mayo - most of you know her as (formerly) jeni russell. ah my jeni jeni. the bearer of my gorgeous godson. the wife of my good friend. my former bed buddy. i never thought jeni and i would be at the level of friendship that we are at. almost like sisters. we don't ever see each other, for obvious reasons, but 3000+ miles would never phase our friendship. jeni is a strong bitch, but would just about do anything for any one of her friends if they needed her. we have been friends for over 6 years.
Jordan Rutherford - jordan and i became friends because i used to harass him, and he eventually gave in to the friendship i was trying to push on him. i think our friendship has pretty much been that way since, haha. he is possibly one of the best, if not THE best listener around. he's sympathetic when i need him to be. he listens to me and takes my advice. he visits me when he has the time and money, and i always love spending time with him. he has so much talent, and is awesome to converse with. we have been friends for over 7 years.
Matty Adams - this motherfucker is the man. he always helps me out when i need him. which is often. he's got a sense of humor like no other. he's fun, but also nice and laid back. he goes to the wall for his friends and that is an admirable thing. one time he held me (in a totally platonic way of course) while i sobbed for a stupid drunk reason on the kitchen floor in the big house saying that "he didn't wanna see his little sister cry," it meant the world to me. we have been friends for over 7 years.
Brandon Mayo - bam. we almost dated in high school. thank god we didn't, because we would never have had the friendship we have otherwise. i don't talk to him much since he is in the military now... but i recently journeyed up to boston with ryan gale and tara to see him during his layover at Logan before he headed home to Arizona for the holidays.!! he is so smart and strong-willed. he loves his friends, and although he seems super serious, he is so super nice. i have more respect for him than most people for the decisions he has made for his life, and the life of his new family in the past year and a half. plus, if it wasn't for him, i probably would never have been friends with jeni. we have been friends for over 9 years.
Charley Jonas - the strangest boy in all the world. he never makes sense, and i love that about him. i can't breathe when he is around because i'm always laughing so hard. i don't see him or talk to him that much, but we'll always have mad love. he was always there for me if i needed cheering up. high school wouldn't have been the same without him. our relationship was possibly one of the weirdest, but it was awesome. we have been friends for over 9 years.
Kelcey Fanara - kelc is my bitch. ain't nobody in the world like this girl. she is one of the funniest people around, even if she isn't meaning to be. she can light up a room wherever she goes. she's got a strong head on her shoulders and had the willpower to stick out 4 years of college, something i could never do. we were friends in pre-school, then reunited years later in middle school. we have been going strong ever since. we've been friends for over 10 years.
Ryan Doyle - i could safely say ryan is one of the most important men in my life. he has taught me so much since the age of 12. he is the smartest person i know. i don't know how one person can be so much fun, hang SO hard, and work as hard as he does. he is absolutely amazing. i am so happy him and heather found each other, because he deserves nothing short of the best. i wouldn't trade my friendship with ryan for anything in the world. he is truly like a brother to me, and i can't say that about many guys. we have been the best of friends for over 10 years.
Jen Provost - my hetero-life mate. we don't hang out that often, but we don't have to. we have an unconditional love for one another that exceeds regular kinds of love. if it weren't for her friendship and support, i would not be where i am today. she's one of the most beautiful girls in the world, inside and out. she likes to have fun and rock out and she does it damn well. we have been friends for over 11years.
Jen Andrews - hey - she's a crazy bitch. who doesn't love jen a? she has the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off. she's always prepared for anything. she's so adult, but still laughs at stupid shit. she's wicked supportive, but will tell you straight up. she's been in mom-mode for years now and it makes it all the more comforting to be around her. jen isn't quick to give up on people, and had the strong hand in maintaining our friendship from thousands of miles away for several years. we have been friends for over 11 years.
Renee Levesque - ratt-a-tat-tat. i love that renee can hang with the best of them, and has done so for a really long time. we have maintained a friendship for well over a decade and it only gets stronger and stronger. she is good partner to obsess over things with. and she loves a good feast just as much as the next gal, and i admire that. we have been friends for over 13 years.
Serah Kelley - the first thing serah ever did was help me. my first day of 4th grade at a new school. "hey, the bus stop is over here." she always keeps me on my toes. she has been through so much and overcome so much, i don't even know how she does it. she truly is an inspiration to women everywhere. she is going to be so successful, she has already come so far. but while being awesome, she still gets crazy from time to time... and i LOVE talking to her about it. our conversations will make you blush or laugh hysterically - or both. we have been friends for over 13 years.
Erin & Casey Condon - aside from jamie goodwin (who i didn't list here cus we don't really talk ever), i have known these girls longest out of everyone. we were the best of friends when we were like 5. then we fell off for a couple years, and reunited in middle school. then again in high school. we had the same friends for a long time, and in a lot of ways we still do. they are both full of love and life and i love that. we've never really had too much drama, although it has been circling us for years. when other friends fall, we go on - and that's important in friends. we have been friends for a whopping 17 years.
***This list goes from who I have known the shortest amount of time, to who I have known the longest amount of time. ***
Keegan - he is my best friend. my fiance. my soul mate. my everything. if it wasn't for him i would not be where i am today. i haven't known him as long as the rest, but no one has impacted my life as deeply as he has, and no one ever will. he showed me what it was like to be truly happy and to be truly comfortable - something i didn't think was possible. most importantly, he showed and continues to show me true love. something i can only hope will fall into place for the rest of the people on this list. we have only known each other for about 2.5 years - but they have been the most amazing years of my life.
Zoe Smith - crazy zoe party girl. cig zoe. live it. love it. love her. she's the most care-free and free-spirited girl i have ever met. she can make anything fun. i have learned a lot from zoe. she makes me smile. she makes people feel important and loved. i miss zoe being around as much as she was at one time... but i know how happy she is in boston with coree. she can hang harder than most. she blows minds regularly. i hated her once before i even really knew her, but i think it adds character to our friendship story. we have been friends for over 5 years.
Erin O'Connor - my other best friend. we try to hang out every single day. we usually succeed. no one can make me laugh like she can. no one can surprise me like she can. and i'm pretty sure no one could do me more favors than she has. we've never had a legitimate fight in which we really thought we would never speak to each other again, and that's pretty major. she is responsible for most of my good times. and i owe her a lot for my sense of humor, since hers is the best around. she's more interesting than even i truly know - and that mystery is one of her most intriguing qualities. we have been friends for over 6 years.
Tara Wetherbee - twethy. how i love thee. this girl has got a personality you don't wanna mess with... but she is also as sweet as pie. don't ask me how she pulls it off, but she has been doing it forever. she'll do anything for anyone, within reason. she's so much fun, and she loves to get wild. she also makes for a really good story. not to mention we're going on our second year of working together. we put up with each others shit almost more than anyone else has to. we've been friends for over 6 years.
Jeni Mayo - most of you know her as (formerly) jeni russell. ah my jeni jeni. the bearer of my gorgeous godson. the wife of my good friend. my former bed buddy. i never thought jeni and i would be at the level of friendship that we are at. almost like sisters. we don't ever see each other, for obvious reasons, but 3000+ miles would never phase our friendship. jeni is a strong bitch, but would just about do anything for any one of her friends if they needed her. we have been friends for over 6 years.
Jordan Rutherford - jordan and i became friends because i used to harass him, and he eventually gave in to the friendship i was trying to push on him. i think our friendship has pretty much been that way since, haha. he is possibly one of the best, if not THE best listener around. he's sympathetic when i need him to be. he listens to me and takes my advice. he visits me when he has the time and money, and i always love spending time with him. he has so much talent, and is awesome to converse with. we have been friends for over 7 years.
Matty Adams - this motherfucker is the man. he always helps me out when i need him. which is often. he's got a sense of humor like no other. he's fun, but also nice and laid back. he goes to the wall for his friends and that is an admirable thing. one time he held me (in a totally platonic way of course) while i sobbed for a stupid drunk reason on the kitchen floor in the big house saying that "he didn't wanna see his little sister cry," it meant the world to me. we have been friends for over 7 years.
Brandon Mayo - bam. we almost dated in high school. thank god we didn't, because we would never have had the friendship we have otherwise. i don't talk to him much since he is in the military now... but i recently journeyed up to boston with ryan gale and tara to see him during his layover at Logan before he headed home to Arizona for the holidays.!! he is so smart and strong-willed. he loves his friends, and although he seems super serious, he is so super nice. i have more respect for him than most people for the decisions he has made for his life, and the life of his new family in the past year and a half. plus, if it wasn't for him, i probably would never have been friends with jeni. we have been friends for over 9 years.
Charley Jonas - the strangest boy in all the world. he never makes sense, and i love that about him. i can't breathe when he is around because i'm always laughing so hard. i don't see him or talk to him that much, but we'll always have mad love. he was always there for me if i needed cheering up. high school wouldn't have been the same without him. our relationship was possibly one of the weirdest, but it was awesome. we have been friends for over 9 years.
Kelcey Fanara - kelc is my bitch. ain't nobody in the world like this girl. she is one of the funniest people around, even if she isn't meaning to be. she can light up a room wherever she goes. she's got a strong head on her shoulders and had the willpower to stick out 4 years of college, something i could never do. we were friends in pre-school, then reunited years later in middle school. we have been going strong ever since. we've been friends for over 10 years.
Ryan Doyle - i could safely say ryan is one of the most important men in my life. he has taught me so much since the age of 12. he is the smartest person i know. i don't know how one person can be so much fun, hang SO hard, and work as hard as he does. he is absolutely amazing. i am so happy him and heather found each other, because he deserves nothing short of the best. i wouldn't trade my friendship with ryan for anything in the world. he is truly like a brother to me, and i can't say that about many guys. we have been the best of friends for over 10 years.
Jen Provost - my hetero-life mate. we don't hang out that often, but we don't have to. we have an unconditional love for one another that exceeds regular kinds of love. if it weren't for her friendship and support, i would not be where i am today. she's one of the most beautiful girls in the world, inside and out. she likes to have fun and rock out and she does it damn well. we have been friends for over 11years.
Jen Andrews - hey - she's a crazy bitch. who doesn't love jen a? she has the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off. she's always prepared for anything. she's so adult, but still laughs at stupid shit. she's wicked supportive, but will tell you straight up. she's been in mom-mode for years now and it makes it all the more comforting to be around her. jen isn't quick to give up on people, and had the strong hand in maintaining our friendship from thousands of miles away for several years. we have been friends for over 11 years.
Renee Levesque - ratt-a-tat-tat. i love that renee can hang with the best of them, and has done so for a really long time. we have maintained a friendship for well over a decade and it only gets stronger and stronger. she is good partner to obsess over things with. and she loves a good feast just as much as the next gal, and i admire that. we have been friends for over 13 years.
Serah Kelley - the first thing serah ever did was help me. my first day of 4th grade at a new school. "hey, the bus stop is over here." she always keeps me on my toes. she has been through so much and overcome so much, i don't even know how she does it. she truly is an inspiration to women everywhere. she is going to be so successful, she has already come so far. but while being awesome, she still gets crazy from time to time... and i LOVE talking to her about it. our conversations will make you blush or laugh hysterically - or both. we have been friends for over 13 years.
Erin & Casey Condon - aside from jamie goodwin (who i didn't list here cus we don't really talk ever), i have known these girls longest out of everyone. we were the best of friends when we were like 5. then we fell off for a couple years, and reunited in middle school. then again in high school. we had the same friends for a long time, and in a lot of ways we still do. they are both full of love and life and i love that. we've never really had too much drama, although it has been circling us for years. when other friends fall, we go on - and that's important in friends. we have been friends for a whopping 17 years.
December 04, 2006 - "My rabbit thinks she is a fascist dicator. Seriously."
I came to post a blog, obviously. But the sounds of "High All The Time" by 50 Cent is really quite distracting for some strange reason. I actually literally just paused for awhile after that last sentence. I'm doing it again. Haha, now I'm just doing it because I'm thinking about it. Anyway...
I'm pretty stoned, I'll admit. Matty, Eryn, Ashlee, and Dina just left my house. We smoked bongs, and plenty of them. Ashlee and I may have shared a Guilherme de Souza... we just don't know if we shared the name, or the person. Eminem's "Superman" just came on and I have to wonder why the fuck there is consecutive rap music playing on my computer. Please hold.
Alright... we got "L.A. Woman" by The Doors now. Much better. 7min 49sec of not having to worry about major distraction. I figure not only is my telling you what I am listening to mildly interesting... but also helps you time how long it took me to type this entry. Wicked pissa, hey?
I've been making my bunny growl a lot lately. Simply because it amuses me. Is that considered abuse? I never lay a hand on her. And I don't do it THAT much. I was exaggerating. She just hates the dust pan & broom so much that she makes small piggish grunts at it. Literally, she grunts like a pig... a real small one. How cute do you think it is to listen to a small little white girl bunny grunt like a pig? Very cute, trust me. Or maybe come by and I'll make her do it for you. I'm just kidding Emmjay. She's staring at me.
I feel anxious, like I'm waiting for my buzzer to go off. I expect Tara sometime within the half hour. I expect Erin sometime within the hour. I think that's all I should expect, other than a few phone calls from Keegan. After Amsterdam, I seemed to have lost my Reality TV memory. I don't know what's on tonight. Oh wait, Supernanny. Which I ALWAYS miss anyway. Miss Provost is scheduled to call me when she gets out of work at 10:30. I wonder if I'll still be awake by then. I didn't nap like I wanted to today. For some strange reason I was wicked tired when I woke up this morning... and it kinda followed me around all day. Now, it's only 7:35pm and it feels like we are at least pushing 10pm.
I'm really forcing this entry. I can feel it. It's not flowing like it should. I mean, once I get going, I can GO. But it's been taking me a long time, or at least longer than it should, to get going. And I've been rereading a lot. I think it's my paranoia. Sublime's on now. That makes me happy.
I need to go to a concert soon. I missed Panic! At The Disco and Say Anything when I was in Amsterdam. Or did they miss me? Hah. I've seen Panic!, and they were amazing, so I would LOVE to see them again. I have not seen Say Anything yet, and they are the Flavor of the Month for me in a big way.... so they are at the top of my list, needless to say. Alright now we got "The Current" by Blue Man Group featuring Gavin Rossdale. Yeah, I just used the word "featuring" like I was writing a report. You might actually have noticed that I have been paying particular attention to my spelling, punctuation, and grammar. Sometimes I like to do this to keep myself in check. Try not to get stupider. You know. Yeah, I do what I can.
Oh, so I've thrown myself into the abyss of dieting again. Oy vey. So my approach this time is much like other times. Avoid eating until absolutely necessary. When eating... TRY and eat something healthy... or at least healthier than what you would normally eat. When all else fails, phentermine, phentermine, phentermine. But only until you feel like you are having a heart attack or stroke.. or worst yet, lung failure - then stop taking them, and reward yourself with a nice sundae. Or maybe some fast food. Are we going OUT to dinner? Well I HAVE to have the fried fish. What babe, you want to meet for a drink at Friday's tonight? Well, since we're going there I have to have a long island with bacardi limon. And since I am so hungry at this point, and have blown it with the drink, I might as well get a chicken finger b.l.t. and/or some of your fries. Thanks. I know what you're thinking right now. And all of it is true. I know myself so well, don't I? I know I went from "you" to "i" back there... deal with it.
Tara, Erin, Renee, Kelcey and I have decided that we are going to pull names to decide who we are getting a good present for this year. We will still be allowed to give presents to the others, but it must be a $10 or less value, whereas whoevers name you pull has to be a $50 or less value. Good idea when you're all abuncha broke folk. Oh, and we're choosing names tonight. We're gonna choose for Kelcey since she is in her "warm cacoon" right now. I know, right?
"The Rock Show" by Blink 182 is on now. It reminds me of March 26, 2005... at the time, was the best concert I had ever been to (Roots Down Below, State Radio, Badfish) and is also famous for being the night that Keegan fell in love with me. I know, I know. Insert gag noise here. However, I happen to love the story. Muah. On the 22nd of this month we will have been engaged for one full year. One full year and no progress on wedding plans. Well, that's not true. I know that my mom & dad are not paying for it. And also that my biological father and his wife will not be there... because they will not be welcomed by all, and they know that.
We're rocking "Beverly Hills" by Weezer now. Oh, playlist. Come to find out I have 3, 568 songs in Windows Media Player. I fucking HATE Windows Media Player, but iTunes REFUSES to download appropriately. Luckily I have iTunes at work. I'm starving. It's almost 8 and Keegan hasn't called yet. Well I should go now. I have to do SOMETHING with myself other than struggling with this. Temporary nape time, GO!
I'm pretty stoned, I'll admit. Matty, Eryn, Ashlee, and Dina just left my house. We smoked bongs, and plenty of them. Ashlee and I may have shared a Guilherme de Souza... we just don't know if we shared the name, or the person. Eminem's "Superman" just came on and I have to wonder why the fuck there is consecutive rap music playing on my computer. Please hold.
Alright... we got "L.A. Woman" by The Doors now. Much better. 7min 49sec of not having to worry about major distraction. I figure not only is my telling you what I am listening to mildly interesting... but also helps you time how long it took me to type this entry. Wicked pissa, hey?
I've been making my bunny growl a lot lately. Simply because it amuses me. Is that considered abuse? I never lay a hand on her. And I don't do it THAT much. I was exaggerating. She just hates the dust pan & broom so much that she makes small piggish grunts at it. Literally, she grunts like a pig... a real small one. How cute do you think it is to listen to a small little white girl bunny grunt like a pig? Very cute, trust me. Or maybe come by and I'll make her do it for you. I'm just kidding Emmjay. She's staring at me.
I feel anxious, like I'm waiting for my buzzer to go off. I expect Tara sometime within the half hour. I expect Erin sometime within the hour. I think that's all I should expect, other than a few phone calls from Keegan. After Amsterdam, I seemed to have lost my Reality TV memory. I don't know what's on tonight. Oh wait, Supernanny. Which I ALWAYS miss anyway. Miss Provost is scheduled to call me when she gets out of work at 10:30. I wonder if I'll still be awake by then. I didn't nap like I wanted to today. For some strange reason I was wicked tired when I woke up this morning... and it kinda followed me around all day. Now, it's only 7:35pm and it feels like we are at least pushing 10pm.
I'm really forcing this entry. I can feel it. It's not flowing like it should. I mean, once I get going, I can GO. But it's been taking me a long time, or at least longer than it should, to get going. And I've been rereading a lot. I think it's my paranoia. Sublime's on now. That makes me happy.
I need to go to a concert soon. I missed Panic! At The Disco and Say Anything when I was in Amsterdam. Or did they miss me? Hah. I've seen Panic!, and they were amazing, so I would LOVE to see them again. I have not seen Say Anything yet, and they are the Flavor of the Month for me in a big way.... so they are at the top of my list, needless to say. Alright now we got "The Current" by Blue Man Group featuring Gavin Rossdale. Yeah, I just used the word "featuring" like I was writing a report. You might actually have noticed that I have been paying particular attention to my spelling, punctuation, and grammar. Sometimes I like to do this to keep myself in check. Try not to get stupider. You know. Yeah, I do what I can.
Oh, so I've thrown myself into the abyss of dieting again. Oy vey. So my approach this time is much like other times. Avoid eating until absolutely necessary. When eating... TRY and eat something healthy... or at least healthier than what you would normally eat. When all else fails, phentermine, phentermine, phentermine. But only until you feel like you are having a heart attack or stroke.. or worst yet, lung failure - then stop taking them, and reward yourself with a nice sundae. Or maybe some fast food. Are we going OUT to dinner? Well I HAVE to have the fried fish. What babe, you want to meet for a drink at Friday's tonight? Well, since we're going there I have to have a long island with bacardi limon. And since I am so hungry at this point, and have blown it with the drink, I might as well get a chicken finger b.l.t. and/or some of your fries. Thanks. I know what you're thinking right now. And all of it is true. I know myself so well, don't I? I know I went from "you" to "i" back there... deal with it.
Tara, Erin, Renee, Kelcey and I have decided that we are going to pull names to decide who we are getting a good present for this year. We will still be allowed to give presents to the others, but it must be a $10 or less value, whereas whoevers name you pull has to be a $50 or less value. Good idea when you're all abuncha broke folk. Oh, and we're choosing names tonight. We're gonna choose for Kelcey since she is in her "warm cacoon" right now. I know, right?
"The Rock Show" by Blink 182 is on now. It reminds me of March 26, 2005... at the time, was the best concert I had ever been to (Roots Down Below, State Radio, Badfish) and is also famous for being the night that Keegan fell in love with me. I know, I know. Insert gag noise here. However, I happen to love the story. Muah. On the 22nd of this month we will have been engaged for one full year. One full year and no progress on wedding plans. Well, that's not true. I know that my mom & dad are not paying for it. And also that my biological father and his wife will not be there... because they will not be welcomed by all, and they know that.
We're rocking "Beverly Hills" by Weezer now. Oh, playlist. Come to find out I have 3, 568 songs in Windows Media Player. I fucking HATE Windows Media Player, but iTunes REFUSES to download appropriately. Luckily I have iTunes at work. I'm starving. It's almost 8 and Keegan hasn't called yet. Well I should go now. I have to do SOMETHING with myself other than struggling with this. Temporary nape time, GO!
November 29, 2006 - "Amsterdam: A Chronicling of Day to Day Events"
THE SWEET WEED WE SMOKED (at least a gram of each):
Arjan's Ultra Haze #1 (1st Place Cannibus Cup Winner!)
G13 Haze (2nd Place Cannibus Cup Winner!)
Mako Haze (1st Place Sativa Cup Winner!)
White Widow
Rookies
Jack Herrer
Super Dank Orange
AK-47
Cherry Pez
New York Diesel
Misty
Kusher
Super Silver Haze
Bubblegum
Juice Fruit
Apple Jack
Heaven Haze
Cali Mist
White Shark
Desert Storm
Mango
Mr. Nice Guy
Santa Maria
Blueberry
Funny Skunk
Top Tit
Crystal Skunk
Northern Lights
Orange Bud
Purple Haze
Early Pearl
Jack Flash
Blue Haze BC Bud
THE BEAUTIFUL HASH WE BLAZED:
Caramela Cream (1st Place Import Hash Cup Winner!)
Kings Caramelo Royale (2nd place Import Hash Cup Winner!)
Barney Rubble (1st Place Dutch Hash Cup Winner!)
Zero Zero
Duala Giri
Ice Cream
Special Abaraxus
Super Pollen
Katama
Afghan
Hasj No. 1
Spoetnik
Master Mello Hash
Honey
Royal Cream
DAY 1:
Got to airport. Rode the train. Found the apartment. Bought weed & hash. Bought a bong. Went to Dam Square and got Mcdonalds. Smoked a lot. Took a nap. Went grocery shopping. Ate food. Smoked weed. Met up with The Ryan 5. Smoked a shitload more. Went walking, got food, more weed & hash. Stopped at The Grasshopper. Smoked more with The Ryan 5. They went home via cabs. We slept.
DAY 2:
Slept till almost one. Left the house by 3 in search of Cannibus Cup registration. Waited in line for over an hour for our passes (in the rain). Realized we weren't gonna have time to go back and meet The Ryan 5, so we went to an internet cafe/coffeeshop/bar - had a beer, smoked a weed & hash joint, and e-mailed Ryan. Then we had dinner at The Hard Rock Cafe Amsterdam. I had the B.L.T. and bought a keychain. Went to opening ceremonies, it was lame. While there, we smoked a weed & hash joint, then left. Bought more hash & weed on the way home. Kelcey & Erin bought space cakes. Now we're smoking and playing card games.
Paul, Joe, and Robert just came over and smoked a lot with us. They were probably here for about an hour. It's late now although we just started smoking Top Tit & AK-47.
DAY 3:
Woke up at 12:30 again today. Started off with some hashish. First plan is to go to the market and get more provisions. Next might be Anne Frank or coffeehouse crawling. I'll let you know.
We went to the Anne Frank House. Depressing, but neat. We went to about 4 or 5 coffeeshops today. We used a vaporizer for the first time. Ran into The Ryan 5 randomly - they were headed to Amnesia. We ate at New York Pizza, then got some baked goods. There are lots of bags of weed in front of us. We're gonna get flagged and go into a beautiful room.
DAY 4:
Went to the Expo. Got on a frightening ferry to get there. Had to ride it twice because we got on the wrong one first. Smoked some excellent Blueberry Haze BC Bud at the Expo. Ran into The Ryan 5 - minus Ryan & Heather again. They led us onto a neat canal boat with a large vaporizer that some chic from Barney's Coffeeshop just kept packing. We were flagged.
Hit up some souvenir shops, got Mcdonalds at some point. Came home and got retarded again. I saw chicks dancing in windows for real tonight.
Quotes of the night:
ZOE: "Let's do something really fun!"
ERIN: No. Let's get flagged and nap."
We went to the Sex Museum and the Marihuana Sensi Seed Hash Museum.
DAY 5:
Smoked the last of the hash. We need to get more. We're also down to one kind of weed. Actually, we have a bowl of shake left. The female piece kinda broke on our bong last night so we have to only use the carb now.
Kelcey put some Holland tape around it, so we're cool to use it again.
We went to Heineken, Van Gogh, Vonderland Park, and the Torture Museum today. We had a delicious meal at some Irish Pub that took FOREVER. We got baked goods again.
We're about to roll our own joints. I've got 5 kinds of weed and honey hash in mine.
Quotes of the night:
ZOE: "Let's play Old Maid!"
ERIN: "No! Let's play eat till you can't move and go to bed!"
ERIN: "Let's find the guided meditation tapes and lay down!"
ZOE: "You're gonna fly home with the Old Maid and then you'll really be it!"
ZOE: "Let's play..."
ERIN: (in sing-song) "Let's play go to Rene's pastry shop before it closes!"
ERIN: "Let's find the place that they got the wheelchairs."
ERIN: "I want someone to take a picture of me singing Red Light Special in the street."
DAY 6:
Keegan and I woke up 5 min before everyone else. We were gonna go get coffee when I realized we weren't going the right way... so instead we ended up at Coffeshop Extase with 3.1 grams of Juice Fruit and 2 Hot Cocoas. I might be flagged already. We're going to the zoo today I think. I just checked and I have 400 Euros left. Sweet.
We did mad shopping at tourists shops. I spent a lot of money. I'll have to recap on what I bought later. We went to a flea market and also to several coffeeshops.
Quotes of the night:
ZOE: "Let's do something really fun!"
ERIN: (in german accent) "Let's go out in da ztreet!"
We just smoked the largest joint ever with The Ryan 5. You'll see pics. Then I rolled a nice apple something blunt.
DAY 7:
Woke up relatively early today and went to the Artis Zoo. I got good pictures for the most part. We hit up another coffeeshop and got Mcdonalds and came back home. We did some cleaning and now we're gonna go spend some money somewhere.
Successful. Got all my presents. The ladies took a walk to Coffeeshop Extase so Keegan and I could have "alone time". Wonderful. Keegan and I walked down to New York Pizza and whatnot as well. I'm so bummed that we leave tomorrow. We have so much weed and hash to smoke it's sort of silly. I lost the Xanax so I'll probably freak out tomorrow. Oy vey.
Quotes of the night:
ZOE: "Let's play a really cool game!"
KEEGAN: "Let's play Hide and Seek!"
ERIN: "Yeah! Hide and Seek Amsterdam!"
(other discussion)
ERIN: "Let's play find the green flag... and once you do, you go to bed."
ZOE: "Should I eat some Gouda?"
ERIN: "No, you should eat some Gouda bed."
PICTURES can be found in my Yahoo Photos.
*** Okay, here are my "after the fact" notes. When you read about us "getting flagged" or "being flagged," please note that the term "flagged" was coined by Cannibus Cup people to mean that if you are "flagged" you are incapable of smoking anymore weed... and supposedly, at the Expo Center, they had a "beautiful room" where the flagged people were sent. We were on this quest for most of the trip. When we did get to the Expo Center, we found no such room. Unfortunately, because we loved the term "flagged" so much... we used it to just mean "exceptionally stoned" and it pretty much lost its original meaning. The quotes you read by Erin are just showing you how many times she made reference to going to bed. The funniest thing was, that she didn't sleep that much. We were all constantly going... she just talked about it a lot. The Ryan 5, in case you didn't know - is Ryan Doyle, his girlfriend Heather, Heather's brother Robert, and Paul & Joe... they all live together. They booked their trip for the same time... it worked out very well! The bong did eventually meet it's untimely demise just moments before we left the apartment for good. We had a gram or so of weed & hash left that we hid on the top shelf in the kitchen for the people who stay there next. When we put the weed up there, we discovered that the person before us had done the same thing. Sweet! The day we left we missed our connecting flight... and our luggage ended up getting to us the day after we returned home. Me and Keegan's luggage happened to arrive at 3am. Douchebags. Anyway... it was the best time of my life, and if I could, I would move there in a heartbeat. Although I wouldn't be able to drive... and bikes overrun the city... I'd deal. Feel free to ask me questions... I'd love to answer them. Thanks for reading. ***
Arjan's Ultra Haze #1 (1st Place Cannibus Cup Winner!)
G13 Haze (2nd Place Cannibus Cup Winner!)
Mako Haze (1st Place Sativa Cup Winner!)
White Widow
Rookies
Jack Herrer
Super Dank Orange
AK-47
Cherry Pez
New York Diesel
Misty
Kusher
Super Silver Haze
Bubblegum
Juice Fruit
Apple Jack
Heaven Haze
Cali Mist
White Shark
Desert Storm
Mango
Mr. Nice Guy
Santa Maria
Blueberry
Funny Skunk
Top Tit
Crystal Skunk
Northern Lights
Orange Bud
Purple Haze
Early Pearl
Jack Flash
Blue Haze BC Bud
THE BEAUTIFUL HASH WE BLAZED:
Caramela Cream (1st Place Import Hash Cup Winner!)
Kings Caramelo Royale (2nd place Import Hash Cup Winner!)
Barney Rubble (1st Place Dutch Hash Cup Winner!)
Zero Zero
Duala Giri
Ice Cream
Special Abaraxus
Super Pollen
Katama
Afghan
Hasj No. 1
Spoetnik
Master Mello Hash
Honey
Royal Cream
DAY 1:
Got to airport. Rode the train. Found the apartment. Bought weed & hash. Bought a bong. Went to Dam Square and got Mcdonalds. Smoked a lot. Took a nap. Went grocery shopping. Ate food. Smoked weed. Met up with The Ryan 5. Smoked a shitload more. Went walking, got food, more weed & hash. Stopped at The Grasshopper. Smoked more with The Ryan 5. They went home via cabs. We slept.
DAY 2:
Slept till almost one. Left the house by 3 in search of Cannibus Cup registration. Waited in line for over an hour for our passes (in the rain). Realized we weren't gonna have time to go back and meet The Ryan 5, so we went to an internet cafe/coffeeshop/bar - had a beer, smoked a weed & hash joint, and e-mailed Ryan. Then we had dinner at The Hard Rock Cafe Amsterdam. I had the B.L.T. and bought a keychain. Went to opening ceremonies, it was lame. While there, we smoked a weed & hash joint, then left. Bought more hash & weed on the way home. Kelcey & Erin bought space cakes. Now we're smoking and playing card games.
Paul, Joe, and Robert just came over and smoked a lot with us. They were probably here for about an hour. It's late now although we just started smoking Top Tit & AK-47.
DAY 3:
Woke up at 12:30 again today. Started off with some hashish. First plan is to go to the market and get more provisions. Next might be Anne Frank or coffeehouse crawling. I'll let you know.
We went to the Anne Frank House. Depressing, but neat. We went to about 4 or 5 coffeeshops today. We used a vaporizer for the first time. Ran into The Ryan 5 randomly - they were headed to Amnesia. We ate at New York Pizza, then got some baked goods. There are lots of bags of weed in front of us. We're gonna get flagged and go into a beautiful room.
DAY 4:
Went to the Expo. Got on a frightening ferry to get there. Had to ride it twice because we got on the wrong one first. Smoked some excellent Blueberry Haze BC Bud at the Expo. Ran into The Ryan 5 - minus Ryan & Heather again. They led us onto a neat canal boat with a large vaporizer that some chic from Barney's Coffeeshop just kept packing. We were flagged.
Hit up some souvenir shops, got Mcdonalds at some point. Came home and got retarded again. I saw chicks dancing in windows for real tonight.
Quotes of the night:
ZOE: "Let's do something really fun!"
ERIN: No. Let's get flagged and nap."
We went to the Sex Museum and the Marihuana Sensi Seed Hash Museum.
DAY 5:
Smoked the last of the hash. We need to get more. We're also down to one kind of weed. Actually, we have a bowl of shake left. The female piece kinda broke on our bong last night so we have to only use the carb now.
Kelcey put some Holland tape around it, so we're cool to use it again.
We went to Heineken, Van Gogh, Vonderland Park, and the Torture Museum today. We had a delicious meal at some Irish Pub that took FOREVER. We got baked goods again.
We're about to roll our own joints. I've got 5 kinds of weed and honey hash in mine.
Quotes of the night:
ZOE: "Let's play Old Maid!"
ERIN: "No! Let's play eat till you can't move and go to bed!"
ERIN: "Let's find the guided meditation tapes and lay down!"
ZOE: "You're gonna fly home with the Old Maid and then you'll really be it!"
ZOE: "Let's play..."
ERIN: (in sing-song) "Let's play go to Rene's pastry shop before it closes!"
ERIN: "Let's find the place that they got the wheelchairs."
ERIN: "I want someone to take a picture of me singing Red Light Special in the street."
DAY 6:
Keegan and I woke up 5 min before everyone else. We were gonna go get coffee when I realized we weren't going the right way... so instead we ended up at Coffeshop Extase with 3.1 grams of Juice Fruit and 2 Hot Cocoas. I might be flagged already. We're going to the zoo today I think. I just checked and I have 400 Euros left. Sweet.
We did mad shopping at tourists shops. I spent a lot of money. I'll have to recap on what I bought later. We went to a flea market and also to several coffeeshops.
Quotes of the night:
ZOE: "Let's do something really fun!"
ERIN: (in german accent) "Let's go out in da ztreet!"
We just smoked the largest joint ever with The Ryan 5. You'll see pics. Then I rolled a nice apple something blunt.
DAY 7:
Woke up relatively early today and went to the Artis Zoo. I got good pictures for the most part. We hit up another coffeeshop and got Mcdonalds and came back home. We did some cleaning and now we're gonna go spend some money somewhere.
Successful. Got all my presents. The ladies took a walk to Coffeeshop Extase so Keegan and I could have "alone time". Wonderful. Keegan and I walked down to New York Pizza and whatnot as well. I'm so bummed that we leave tomorrow. We have so much weed and hash to smoke it's sort of silly. I lost the Xanax so I'll probably freak out tomorrow. Oy vey.
Quotes of the night:
ZOE: "Let's play a really cool game!"
KEEGAN: "Let's play Hide and Seek!"
ERIN: "Yeah! Hide and Seek Amsterdam!"
(other discussion)
ERIN: "Let's play find the green flag... and once you do, you go to bed."
ZOE: "Should I eat some Gouda?"
ERIN: "No, you should eat some Gouda bed."
PICTURES can be found in my Yahoo Photos.
*** Okay, here are my "after the fact" notes. When you read about us "getting flagged" or "being flagged," please note that the term "flagged" was coined by Cannibus Cup people to mean that if you are "flagged" you are incapable of smoking anymore weed... and supposedly, at the Expo Center, they had a "beautiful room" where the flagged people were sent. We were on this quest for most of the trip. When we did get to the Expo Center, we found no such room. Unfortunately, because we loved the term "flagged" so much... we used it to just mean "exceptionally stoned" and it pretty much lost its original meaning. The quotes you read by Erin are just showing you how many times she made reference to going to bed. The funniest thing was, that she didn't sleep that much. We were all constantly going... she just talked about it a lot. The Ryan 5, in case you didn't know - is Ryan Doyle, his girlfriend Heather, Heather's brother Robert, and Paul & Joe... they all live together. They booked their trip for the same time... it worked out very well! The bong did eventually meet it's untimely demise just moments before we left the apartment for good. We had a gram or so of weed & hash left that we hid on the top shelf in the kitchen for the people who stay there next. When we put the weed up there, we discovered that the person before us had done the same thing. Sweet! The day we left we missed our connecting flight... and our luggage ended up getting to us the day after we returned home. Me and Keegan's luggage happened to arrive at 3am. Douchebags. Anyway... it was the best time of my life, and if I could, I would move there in a heartbeat. Although I wouldn't be able to drive... and bikes overrun the city... I'd deal. Feel free to ask me questions... I'd love to answer them. Thanks for reading. ***
November 12th, 2006 - "my 22nd birthday at ryan doyle's house"
so the night before last, ryan doyle, heather, paul, and joe were nice enough to host my 22nd birthday party at their house in east greenwich, rhode island.
i drove down with keegan, kelcey, and briana. jen provost, ryan bassett, some kid named chris, and greg came shortly after us... followed by peter von, brian hackala, mike sirignano, colleen, colleen's sister, and some other chic. then a couple of heather's friends showed up.. this girl jessi, her boyfriend, and her boyfriend's 2 british friends (i think their names were duncan and brenden). ryan doyle didn't get home till about 12:20am because he had to work.
beer pong soon started, but i was involved in making a 50+ song setlist. heather made me and awesomly delicious carrot cake. i drank a large bottle and a half of wine (red and white). i had to stop drinking at several points... mainly so i would still be alive when ryan doyle came home... and also so i wouldn't puke, obviously.
we had a very entertaining conversation in the little greenhouse room with the british guys. they were pretty awesome. one kept telling me he had an irish accent, but i wasn't that dumb. come to find out, they were only 18. very mature. or maybe we were all just drunk and i didn't notice an age difference. anyway, they started doing american accents... which i couldn't get over. duncan (i think that's his name) kept blurting out "yeah that's wicked awesome dude. yeah man, wicked awesome!"... and brenden proceeded to TRY with "i'm all set" i guess that is an american term. haha. but his "i'm all set" simply sounded like a british guy trying to do an american accent. we picked on each other for awhile... all the while educating, i think. somehow i walked away with the nickname "yank" and he walked away with the nickname "brit" for the rest of the night. i guess their story is that the other dude (jessi's boyfriend), lived in britian for awhile, and moved back to warwick, so they came to visit him. must be an extended stay since brenden's myspace says he lives in rhode island now. oh and did you know that the british equivalent to the american "bucks" are "quid"? very interesting.
the door in the kitchen that leads to the downstairs had several holes it in. jokingly, i asked heather if i could punch through the door. she said i totally had my permission, cus it's my birthday, but not to use my hand (ouch), and not to tell anyone about it, so it would be a surprise. later on heather reminded me about it, and briana and i put heather's crutch through the door.. thus getting a lot of wide-eyed stares, then laughter. i took a picture later.
so of course, my camera died. but i did get some good quality pics in there that i will hopefully have online tomorrow. there are a couple new ones in phone pics. check them out if you care to.
after most of the excitement died down, and ryan had successfully caught up with the rest of us after playing beer pong on a team by himself... at about 2 or so... we journeyed up into the band room. you know what i like. ryan on the guitar. heather on the mic. paul on the drums. they played for about 2 hours. yeah, we went to bed at about 4am. they played some tenacious d, alice in chains, evanescence, oasis, an original by ryan, eve 6, and some other attempts at some other stuff. they were all wicked wasted. i had stopped drinking about 2 hours before.. so i was just coming down off my drunk. then we got high. then i HAD to go to sleep.
we were supposed to sleep in the sex cubby like last time.. but jessi and her boyfriend had apparently gone in there to fuck.. and i wasn't feeling that. so they let us sleep on robert's bed. briana got stuck sleeping in the sex cubby, and she was not thrilled. some a-holes took her futon after she had called it several times.
we woke up about 11, to find briana had been up since about 8, hanging out on the deck outside. it was a beautiful morning. kelcey stayed passed on out on the aerobed in the band room till 1pm. keegan, briana, and i left her and went to dunkin donuts while we waited for everyone to awake. we smoked mad butts that morning. dunkin donuts fucked up everyone's shit, except for my coolatta. muah. i cleaned up the kitchen a bit.. and realized i had to start making some serious noise so ryan would get up.
as soon as he was awake.. he was fixing my computer, poor guy. lol. but alas, my itunes still doesn't work. if it's not one thing it's the damn other. at least it still works at work.
well, i guess that about does it for me. wait for pics. damn good time. sorry to everyone i forgot to invite. <3>
i drove down with keegan, kelcey, and briana. jen provost, ryan bassett, some kid named chris, and greg came shortly after us... followed by peter von, brian hackala, mike sirignano, colleen, colleen's sister, and some other chic. then a couple of heather's friends showed up.. this girl jessi, her boyfriend, and her boyfriend's 2 british friends (i think their names were duncan and brenden). ryan doyle didn't get home till about 12:20am because he had to work.
beer pong soon started, but i was involved in making a 50+ song setlist. heather made me and awesomly delicious carrot cake. i drank a large bottle and a half of wine (red and white). i had to stop drinking at several points... mainly so i would still be alive when ryan doyle came home... and also so i wouldn't puke, obviously.
we had a very entertaining conversation in the little greenhouse room with the british guys. they were pretty awesome. one kept telling me he had an irish accent, but i wasn't that dumb. come to find out, they were only 18. very mature. or maybe we were all just drunk and i didn't notice an age difference. anyway, they started doing american accents... which i couldn't get over. duncan (i think that's his name) kept blurting out "yeah that's wicked awesome dude. yeah man, wicked awesome!"... and brenden proceeded to TRY with "i'm all set" i guess that is an american term. haha. but his "i'm all set" simply sounded like a british guy trying to do an american accent. we picked on each other for awhile... all the while educating, i think. somehow i walked away with the nickname "yank" and he walked away with the nickname "brit" for the rest of the night. i guess their story is that the other dude (jessi's boyfriend), lived in britian for awhile, and moved back to warwick, so they came to visit him. must be an extended stay since brenden's myspace says he lives in rhode island now. oh and did you know that the british equivalent to the american "bucks" are "quid"? very interesting.
the door in the kitchen that leads to the downstairs had several holes it in. jokingly, i asked heather if i could punch through the door. she said i totally had my permission, cus it's my birthday, but not to use my hand (ouch), and not to tell anyone about it, so it would be a surprise. later on heather reminded me about it, and briana and i put heather's crutch through the door.. thus getting a lot of wide-eyed stares, then laughter. i took a picture later.
so of course, my camera died. but i did get some good quality pics in there that i will hopefully have online tomorrow. there are a couple new ones in phone pics. check them out if you care to.
after most of the excitement died down, and ryan had successfully caught up with the rest of us after playing beer pong on a team by himself... at about 2 or so... we journeyed up into the band room. you know what i like. ryan on the guitar. heather on the mic. paul on the drums. they played for about 2 hours. yeah, we went to bed at about 4am. they played some tenacious d, alice in chains, evanescence, oasis, an original by ryan, eve 6, and some other attempts at some other stuff. they were all wicked wasted. i had stopped drinking about 2 hours before.. so i was just coming down off my drunk. then we got high. then i HAD to go to sleep.
we were supposed to sleep in the sex cubby like last time.. but jessi and her boyfriend had apparently gone in there to fuck.. and i wasn't feeling that. so they let us sleep on robert's bed. briana got stuck sleeping in the sex cubby, and she was not thrilled. some a-holes took her futon after she had called it several times.
we woke up about 11, to find briana had been up since about 8, hanging out on the deck outside. it was a beautiful morning. kelcey stayed passed on out on the aerobed in the band room till 1pm. keegan, briana, and i left her and went to dunkin donuts while we waited for everyone to awake. we smoked mad butts that morning. dunkin donuts fucked up everyone's shit, except for my coolatta. muah. i cleaned up the kitchen a bit.. and realized i had to start making some serious noise so ryan would get up.
as soon as he was awake.. he was fixing my computer, poor guy. lol. but alas, my itunes still doesn't work. if it's not one thing it's the damn other. at least it still works at work.
well, i guess that about does it for me. wait for pics. damn good time. sorry to everyone i forgot to invite. <3>
November 08, 2006 - "I'm cheating on my LiveJournal."
i'm using my motherfucking myspace blog again. i am getting crazy.
so i'm sitting here on my computer at HOME, at my NEW computer desk and staring into my NEW flatscreen monitor... having respiratory failure.
oh, and p.s. i was not trying to brag above. i just want you all to share the excitement that i have. and understand, that i am a hermit. i am pretty sure i have already driven several people out of here because i spend so much time online now. hey, it happens, right?
so i am not typing this in livejournal simply because i enjoy the font choices here more. seriously. i have a hard time typing and enjoying myself if the type does not appear attractive to me. man, i'm superficial in an unheard of way. but, anyway, it's the truth, and i wanted you to know.
we leave for amsterdam in about... 9 days. jesus christ. oh, and my birthday is totally wednesday. i'm just not psyched for it this year. but i have to admit, it comes at a very convenient time for me. party in rhode island friday to celebrate it nontheless. best of the best, just like my 20th that ryan had for me.
keegan gave me my birthday present last night. it's fucking awesome. something i would have never thought to have purchased, or even asked for - simply because i didn't even knew it existed. it's a digital picture frame. so you put an SD card in the bottom of it, with all the pictures you can fit on the disk... and it just plays a constant slideshow. the best part is, it has a remote. and you can add music files! who knew?
so i had to splurge and buy myself an ipod mini today. i mean, i am going to be on a plane for hours and hours... i am not gonna wanna carry around a hefty load of cd's and a bulky cd player in my carry on. keep it simple folks. see, i couldn't afford a factory brand new one with the engraving like all the cool kids have... haha.. so i got mine on ebay. the seller seemed reputable and it was only $150 for an ipod, an mp3 player, and a fuckload of accessories. reasonable ebayers are the best. he promised i'll have it by my birthday, so i have time to load all my songs for friday. but oh yeah, it's silver - and it's really mini. i get like 3 cases for it and the docking station and fm transmitter and the what have yous.
i love listening to music on my old computer from college because i run into some shit i completely forgot i ever listened to. it brings me back. and the best back to be brought to is a back involving music. like right now... i mean, i know i listened to story of the year, as i still do... but i haven't listened to this particular song in a long time. yeah, as an example.
still obsessing over meeting 30 seconds to mars by the way.
the respiratory failure is still going strong. my nose is clogged and my mouth does not really know how to react to it. i am trying to take deep breaths through my mouth but they don't seem deep enough. i think i keep holding my breath subconsciously as i type. or possibly in general.
dude, weird al just came on. amish paradise. no way. totally a better example.
briana, tara, and kelcey were here moments ago. well, longer than moments - right before i started typing this. tara was going to meet up with jen a, briana had to get her car, and kelcey was tired. i'm content though. me and my internet. muah. it's better this way.
my paycheck this week seriously needs to focus on winter clothes for the trip. i need that new hoodie i have been talking about. and def a pair of clogs, and regular socks. really comfy ones for walking purposes. my feet are gonna be so fucking freaked out. i hope i don't fall a lot. and it was also brought to my attention (thank god) that their plugs are different over there. i mean, i knew that, but completely forgot. kelcey's gonna look into it. i cannot and will not live without my hair straightener. and you know this.
i was totally zoning out to pink floyd right then and completely forgot i was even typing a journal entry. i'm back now.
i'm seriously getting sick and this is one of the worst things that could ever happen at a time like this. i cannot get on a plane with a stuffed nose because my sinuses make my face literally feel like it's gonna explode because of the air pressire. and i also can't be expected to drink and smoke hard on friday night if i am gonna get sick. blech. think happy thoughts.
well i better go. erin will be here momentarily. i just need to get out. get a coffee. get some toothpaste or something like that. yeah, we're just about out of toothpaste. i just took some meds. i took daytime stuff so it won't make me tired. i'm a thinker.
think of me.
so i'm sitting here on my computer at HOME, at my NEW computer desk and staring into my NEW flatscreen monitor... having respiratory failure.
oh, and p.s. i was not trying to brag above. i just want you all to share the excitement that i have. and understand, that i am a hermit. i am pretty sure i have already driven several people out of here because i spend so much time online now. hey, it happens, right?
so i am not typing this in livejournal simply because i enjoy the font choices here more. seriously. i have a hard time typing and enjoying myself if the type does not appear attractive to me. man, i'm superficial in an unheard of way. but, anyway, it's the truth, and i wanted you to know.
we leave for amsterdam in about... 9 days. jesus christ. oh, and my birthday is totally wednesday. i'm just not psyched for it this year. but i have to admit, it comes at a very convenient time for me. party in rhode island friday to celebrate it nontheless. best of the best, just like my 20th that ryan had for me.
keegan gave me my birthday present last night. it's fucking awesome. something i would have never thought to have purchased, or even asked for - simply because i didn't even knew it existed. it's a digital picture frame. so you put an SD card in the bottom of it, with all the pictures you can fit on the disk... and it just plays a constant slideshow. the best part is, it has a remote. and you can add music files! who knew?
so i had to splurge and buy myself an ipod mini today. i mean, i am going to be on a plane for hours and hours... i am not gonna wanna carry around a hefty load of cd's and a bulky cd player in my carry on. keep it simple folks. see, i couldn't afford a factory brand new one with the engraving like all the cool kids have... haha.. so i got mine on ebay. the seller seemed reputable and it was only $150 for an ipod, an mp3 player, and a fuckload of accessories. reasonable ebayers are the best. he promised i'll have it by my birthday, so i have time to load all my songs for friday. but oh yeah, it's silver - and it's really mini. i get like 3 cases for it and the docking station and fm transmitter and the what have yous.
i love listening to music on my old computer from college because i run into some shit i completely forgot i ever listened to. it brings me back. and the best back to be brought to is a back involving music. like right now... i mean, i know i listened to story of the year, as i still do... but i haven't listened to this particular song in a long time. yeah, as an example.
still obsessing over meeting 30 seconds to mars by the way.
the respiratory failure is still going strong. my nose is clogged and my mouth does not really know how to react to it. i am trying to take deep breaths through my mouth but they don't seem deep enough. i think i keep holding my breath subconsciously as i type. or possibly in general.
dude, weird al just came on. amish paradise. no way. totally a better example.
briana, tara, and kelcey were here moments ago. well, longer than moments - right before i started typing this. tara was going to meet up with jen a, briana had to get her car, and kelcey was tired. i'm content though. me and my internet. muah. it's better this way.
my paycheck this week seriously needs to focus on winter clothes for the trip. i need that new hoodie i have been talking about. and def a pair of clogs, and regular socks. really comfy ones for walking purposes. my feet are gonna be so fucking freaked out. i hope i don't fall a lot. and it was also brought to my attention (thank god) that their plugs are different over there. i mean, i knew that, but completely forgot. kelcey's gonna look into it. i cannot and will not live without my hair straightener. and you know this.
i was totally zoning out to pink floyd right then and completely forgot i was even typing a journal entry. i'm back now.
i'm seriously getting sick and this is one of the worst things that could ever happen at a time like this. i cannot get on a plane with a stuffed nose because my sinuses make my face literally feel like it's gonna explode because of the air pressire. and i also can't be expected to drink and smoke hard on friday night if i am gonna get sick. blech. think happy thoughts.
well i better go. erin will be here momentarily. i just need to get out. get a coffee. get some toothpaste or something like that. yeah, we're just about out of toothpaste. i just took some meds. i took daytime stuff so it won't make me tired. i'm a thinker.
think of me.
November 3rd, 2006 - "wow."
we leave for amsterdam in 14 days.
wow.
my 22nd birthday is in 12 days. who wants to come to rhode island for a party?
cool.
that's all.
wow.
my 22nd birthday is in 12 days. who wants to come to rhode island for a party?
cool.
that's all.
October 30, 2006 - "the night we met 30 seconds to mars"
Erin O'Connor, Renee Levesque, and I had tickets to the MTV $2 tour (Sunday, October 29, 2006), headlined by 30 Seconds To Mars. We left cape around noon on sunday to get down there early so we could have lunch at Dave & Buster's in the Providence Place Mall first.
Wait, let me preface this story by saying that for the sake of Halloween, and just to be a little crazy, I dressed up like an anti-hippie. I realized, as I was trying to dress up as a hippie for Halloween, and was having little trouble - that I really do dress like a hippie on a daily basis, and therefore am stereo-typed as one. Everyone that knows me knows that I am a poser-hippie if anything. I just dig the clothes and the hemp style, and have for quite some time. But last night, I took off all the hemp. Yeah, I said it. And you know what else? I wore black pants, with a black skirt over it (it was windy, and I don't JUST wear pants under any circumstance), an Old Navy shirt, a black zip up hoodie, make-up, hair up, and chunky Steve Madden shoes, with SOCKS. Yeah, I know. So, I may not have looked that weird, but you definetely would never have guessed that I dress as a hippie on a normal day.
Futhermore...
Dave & Buster's was a cluster fuck to get into. The restaurant itself was not too bad of a clusterfuck, but the fucking mall was. I made it through though. haha. I had never been there, but Erin and Renee had. We started off with some exotic drinks. Well, at least I did. I got this little beverage they call a Snow Cone. Holy shit. Potent, colorful, and delightful all at the same time. Anywhoo... that went down rather quickly. Then I decided to go for 2 TnTeas with Bacardi Limon instead of Superior, cus that's just how I do.
Fast forward...
We ate, we drank, we were merry. The check, for just the 3 of us turned out to be $177, which blew my motherfucking mind. I don't see myself ever journeying back there without a bunch of cash to burn. We did each get a $10 game card that none of us used because we all felt it was more important to smoke a cigarette. Which was definetely true after 3 strong beverages.
We left there and headed down in search of Lupo's. We always have a bit of trouble getting right from one destination to another - but we always pull through in a relatively timely fashion. We parked across the street from Lupo's as we always do, and went for a round of Long Island Iced Teas with Bacardi Limon at that Irish bar across from the parking lot. Once we sucked those down, we headed into Lupo's.
We walked in, gave the dude our tickets, and went for our 21+ bracelets, which I still love to receive, especially at an all ages show. haha. I get my bracelet, and I hear this dude standing at a table behind me yelling "meet the band! meet 30 second to mars!" I don't acknowledge him at first, because I simply can't believe my ears. So instead of turning to him, I turn to Renee and say, "I'm sorry, did you hear that?" then I turn back around to the guy and say, "what does that entail exactly?" He then proceeds to tell us that all we have to do is buy a copy of A Beautiful Lie (by 30STM, obviously) for $10, and in turn, we get a wristband that allows us to stay after the show, and get something signed by the band. No sooner had we heard that, $10 bills came flying out of all our pockets and into that dude's hand. Some chic put the wristband on us, and I started losing my damn mind. I was literally shaking while trying to text everyone I knew that would care even a little bit. The only issue at this point was that the concert wasn't over for another good... 4.5 hours. Ugh.
We hung around and drank some beers, smoked some butts, chatted up some awesome gay kid. We walked around listening to Men, Women & Children... then got up closer to hear Cobra Starship sing Snakes on a Plane (which I luckily got an audio clip from). After Cobra Starship, we started to lose interest again since a band none of us had heard of before came on. Pink Spiders. They weren't bad, we just weren't excited since we knew bigger things were to come.
As we walked back into the main room from the bathroom, I swear to god I recognized the guy all the way across the room. But no, it couldn't be. He's in a popular band - a band that is playing here tonight, he wouldn't be just hanging around by the bar. I tried to convince myself I was being crazy, so it took me a minute, and a few steps, to ask Renee if she thought it was him. Him, being the guitarist from 30 Seconds to Mars. We both went back and forth, "it is him," "no, it's not, is it?" "it might be," "no, it can't be," "dude i really think it is..." Which soon after turned into "go over there and just ask him..." "no way dude, you do it. "why not? just go over and be casual." "no, you go, come on, you do it." "fine, but you've got to come with me..." Or at least something to that affect. Renee gets the balls to saunter over (surprise surprise, since you know I am a wuss). She asked him if he was in the band, and at first he was all like "me, no..." clearly joking around. Then Renee proceeds to tell him that he "looks like the guy that gave himself a beej in the video." He asks what a beej is, she tells him, he laughs, then admits to who he is, while giving her a little shoulder grab. Lucky bitch was touched by him. Anyway, I explained that I knew it wasn't HIM who gives himself a beej in the video, and that it was a dude in a bear costume. Few other words were exchanged before some others started noticing him as well. We bowed out gracefully.
Creepily after that I kept my eye out so I could just go back over and ask him if it would be okay that I exploited him with photography just this once. Alas, I did spot him again much to our surprise... but his girlfriend was all up in his shit. Oh well, better luck next time. We're gonna meet him later, again, anyway.
Head Automatica was about to come on. We got up pretty close to the right of the stage so we could get our rock on. Which we did, undoubtedly. We heard Graduation Day and Beating Heart Baby, but then we all had to go to the bathroom. After that, we decided to smoke a cig while we waited for them to finish up, and 30 Seconds to gear up.
When Head Automatica was off, we got closer than we were to the right side of the stage. All of a sudden, after waiting like - 15 minutes, someone came out to rile us up... but at the same time to introduce Street Drum Core. I watched a little bit of them before I realized that I somehow had to get to the bathroom and back to that exact spot quickly, or else I was literally going to have to go in the middle of 30STM's set. And that couldn't happen, duh. So Erin accompanied me to the bathroom, and luckily got us right back to the close up spot we were in, just as the band came on.
Insert hysteria here.
Renee was pleading with me to try and push up farther with her, but I was content. When the crowd started getting rowdy we got much closer to the center. They opened with A Beautiful Lie (the title track from their cd) just as I had imagined. I do believe Mr. Jared Leto had a hard-on for our side of the stage since he seemed to spend a lot of time with us (look how fucking close we were!)
Insert "thanks Renee, I know we would not have gotten that close if it wasn't for you" here.
So a fucking shitload of rocking out occured on both Jared and our behalf. Then it happened. Jared, Matt, and Tomo all threw their guitar picks in our direction. It fell on the floor, and it was wicked dark, but since I am so resourceful, I used the flash on my LG to find it. Fuck yeah I did! So technically, I don't know who's pick it was, but I believe in my heart that it was Jared's, and that's good enough for me.
The end of the show had arrived, much to our dismay. But lucky for us, we had those magical bracelets that entitled us to stay behind.
We decided to let the crowd do it's thing, while we smoked a cigarette. On the way back in, the guy let us keep our smoking passes for scrapbook purposes.
We finally ended up back in the main room with a bunch of people patiently waiting to meet these beautiful creatures. While in line, Renee and I get handed posters and cd's for the Pink Spiders. Turns out, we were standing next to 2 of the dudes from the band, who were nice enough to autograph our posters. Erin asked one of the guys to please write on her hand "S my D you nasty B," but instead he wrote "suk dik mom," in sharpie pen on her hand, which she was later unhappy about. haha.
One of the Lupo's people stood on a table and made some order out of the chaotic scene. Somehow we managed to move right along, very quickly. It was a good thing, because we weren't standing around forever, but a bad thing, because it just happened much too fast.
So I got my cd out. Shannon is now in view. Holy shit. His eyes are so penetrating, much like his brother's. I walk over, all timid and weird and shit, behind Renee, but in front of Erin. I have so much anxiety I could literally die. They barely look up because they are signing so fast. I thanked Shannon, then Matt, then said a few words about the bear suit again to Tomo... then there was Jared. My world slowed down. I knew I had to say something to him. I couldn't just thank him and walk away like I had with the others. So I just had to say, "you are amazing." He looked up at me with those fucking beautifully alluring eyes and simply said, "thank you, have a good night guys." I walked out of there stunned and speechless, with a cd that was signed from one of the most amazing bands ever. Wow.
Oh, sidenote. Erin asked Jared if HE would sign her cd "S my D you nasty B," as well. He declined, saying he'd get in trouble. But not only did he sign the inside of her cd jacket as he had done for us, he also separately signed her cd, and wrote "Hi." at the bottom of it. Oddly enough, his "hi" looked just like "Hj," which Erin is pretty psyched about. I got to say, I am definetely jealous - 2 signatures?! come on.
We smoked 2 bowls immediately when we got on the highway. I definetely needed to be sedated. I thought I was gonna explode. I still can't stop thinking about it or talking about it or daydreaming about it. The single most amazing music-related experience I have ever had in all my life. I would honestly have to meet Offspring, Blink 182, or silverchair to top that one.
I had a dream last night, despite Keegan's best efforts to get me to NOT dream about Jared, that we were hanging out regularly. He was so amazing. I got him to smoke weed out of a metal pipe. Don't ask me why I had a metal pipe, maybe it was his? I also talked him into flying over to Amsterdam for a couple days when we will be there, claiming that I knew he could afford the trip. haha. I HATE waking up from dreams like those.
So that's it. I apologize for the length of this entry, but you see, if I don't document the entire experience, I really and truly feel that I will forget it all. Well, not ALL of it, but parts I don't wanna forget. Special thanks to Renee and Erin for making my night one of the best ever. Lots of love my friends.
Please now take the time to go back and click on the links you have missed, or forget the whole thing and click on this link to bring you to the whole photo album from last night. Once Renee gets her film developed we will have some more mindblowing pictures to show you all. Thank you, and good night.
Wait, let me preface this story by saying that for the sake of Halloween, and just to be a little crazy, I dressed up like an anti-hippie. I realized, as I was trying to dress up as a hippie for Halloween, and was having little trouble - that I really do dress like a hippie on a daily basis, and therefore am stereo-typed as one. Everyone that knows me knows that I am a poser-hippie if anything. I just dig the clothes and the hemp style, and have for quite some time. But last night, I took off all the hemp. Yeah, I said it. And you know what else? I wore black pants, with a black skirt over it (it was windy, and I don't JUST wear pants under any circumstance), an Old Navy shirt, a black zip up hoodie, make-up, hair up, and chunky Steve Madden shoes, with SOCKS. Yeah, I know. So, I may not have looked that weird, but you definetely would never have guessed that I dress as a hippie on a normal day.
Futhermore...
Dave & Buster's was a cluster fuck to get into. The restaurant itself was not too bad of a clusterfuck, but the fucking mall was. I made it through though. haha. I had never been there, but Erin and Renee had. We started off with some exotic drinks. Well, at least I did. I got this little beverage they call a Snow Cone. Holy shit. Potent, colorful, and delightful all at the same time. Anywhoo... that went down rather quickly. Then I decided to go for 2 TnTeas with Bacardi Limon instead of Superior, cus that's just how I do.
Fast forward...
We ate, we drank, we were merry. The check, for just the 3 of us turned out to be $177, which blew my motherfucking mind. I don't see myself ever journeying back there without a bunch of cash to burn. We did each get a $10 game card that none of us used because we all felt it was more important to smoke a cigarette. Which was definetely true after 3 strong beverages.
We left there and headed down in search of Lupo's. We always have a bit of trouble getting right from one destination to another - but we always pull through in a relatively timely fashion. We parked across the street from Lupo's as we always do, and went for a round of Long Island Iced Teas with Bacardi Limon at that Irish bar across from the parking lot. Once we sucked those down, we headed into Lupo's.
We walked in, gave the dude our tickets, and went for our 21+ bracelets, which I still love to receive, especially at an all ages show. haha. I get my bracelet, and I hear this dude standing at a table behind me yelling "meet the band! meet 30 second to mars!" I don't acknowledge him at first, because I simply can't believe my ears. So instead of turning to him, I turn to Renee and say, "I'm sorry, did you hear that?" then I turn back around to the guy and say, "what does that entail exactly?" He then proceeds to tell us that all we have to do is buy a copy of A Beautiful Lie (by 30STM, obviously) for $10, and in turn, we get a wristband that allows us to stay after the show, and get something signed by the band. No sooner had we heard that, $10 bills came flying out of all our pockets and into that dude's hand. Some chic put the wristband on us, and I started losing my damn mind. I was literally shaking while trying to text everyone I knew that would care even a little bit. The only issue at this point was that the concert wasn't over for another good... 4.5 hours. Ugh.
We hung around and drank some beers, smoked some butts, chatted up some awesome gay kid. We walked around listening to Men, Women & Children... then got up closer to hear Cobra Starship sing Snakes on a Plane (which I luckily got an audio clip from). After Cobra Starship, we started to lose interest again since a band none of us had heard of before came on. Pink Spiders. They weren't bad, we just weren't excited since we knew bigger things were to come.
As we walked back into the main room from the bathroom, I swear to god I recognized the guy all the way across the room. But no, it couldn't be. He's in a popular band - a band that is playing here tonight, he wouldn't be just hanging around by the bar. I tried to convince myself I was being crazy, so it took me a minute, and a few steps, to ask Renee if she thought it was him. Him, being the guitarist from 30 Seconds to Mars. We both went back and forth, "it is him," "no, it's not, is it?" "it might be," "no, it can't be," "dude i really think it is..." Which soon after turned into "go over there and just ask him..." "no way dude, you do it. "why not? just go over and be casual." "no, you go, come on, you do it." "fine, but you've got to come with me..." Or at least something to that affect. Renee gets the balls to saunter over (surprise surprise, since you know I am a wuss). She asked him if he was in the band, and at first he was all like "me, no..." clearly joking around. Then Renee proceeds to tell him that he "looks like the guy that gave himself a beej in the video." He asks what a beej is, she tells him, he laughs, then admits to who he is, while giving her a little shoulder grab. Lucky bitch was touched by him. Anyway, I explained that I knew it wasn't HIM who gives himself a beej in the video, and that it was a dude in a bear costume. Few other words were exchanged before some others started noticing him as well. We bowed out gracefully.
Creepily after that I kept my eye out so I could just go back over and ask him if it would be okay that I exploited him with photography just this once. Alas, I did spot him again much to our surprise... but his girlfriend was all up in his shit. Oh well, better luck next time. We're gonna meet him later, again, anyway.
Head Automatica was about to come on. We got up pretty close to the right of the stage so we could get our rock on. Which we did, undoubtedly. We heard Graduation Day and Beating Heart Baby, but then we all had to go to the bathroom. After that, we decided to smoke a cig while we waited for them to finish up, and 30 Seconds to gear up.
When Head Automatica was off, we got closer than we were to the right side of the stage. All of a sudden, after waiting like - 15 minutes, someone came out to rile us up... but at the same time to introduce Street Drum Core. I watched a little bit of them before I realized that I somehow had to get to the bathroom and back to that exact spot quickly, or else I was literally going to have to go in the middle of 30STM's set. And that couldn't happen, duh. So Erin accompanied me to the bathroom, and luckily got us right back to the close up spot we were in, just as the band came on.
Insert hysteria here.
Renee was pleading with me to try and push up farther with her, but I was content. When the crowd started getting rowdy we got much closer to the center. They opened with A Beautiful Lie (the title track from their cd) just as I had imagined. I do believe Mr. Jared Leto had a hard-on for our side of the stage since he seemed to spend a lot of time with us (look how fucking close we were!)
Insert "thanks Renee, I know we would not have gotten that close if it wasn't for you" here.
So a fucking shitload of rocking out occured on both Jared and our behalf. Then it happened. Jared, Matt, and Tomo all threw their guitar picks in our direction. It fell on the floor, and it was wicked dark, but since I am so resourceful, I used the flash on my LG to find it. Fuck yeah I did! So technically, I don't know who's pick it was, but I believe in my heart that it was Jared's, and that's good enough for me.
The end of the show had arrived, much to our dismay. But lucky for us, we had those magical bracelets that entitled us to stay behind.
We decided to let the crowd do it's thing, while we smoked a cigarette. On the way back in, the guy let us keep our smoking passes for scrapbook purposes.
We finally ended up back in the main room with a bunch of people patiently waiting to meet these beautiful creatures. While in line, Renee and I get handed posters and cd's for the Pink Spiders. Turns out, we were standing next to 2 of the dudes from the band, who were nice enough to autograph our posters. Erin asked one of the guys to please write on her hand "S my D you nasty B," but instead he wrote "suk dik mom," in sharpie pen on her hand, which she was later unhappy about. haha.
One of the Lupo's people stood on a table and made some order out of the chaotic scene. Somehow we managed to move right along, very quickly. It was a good thing, because we weren't standing around forever, but a bad thing, because it just happened much too fast.
So I got my cd out. Shannon is now in view. Holy shit. His eyes are so penetrating, much like his brother's. I walk over, all timid and weird and shit, behind Renee, but in front of Erin. I have so much anxiety I could literally die. They barely look up because they are signing so fast. I thanked Shannon, then Matt, then said a few words about the bear suit again to Tomo... then there was Jared. My world slowed down. I knew I had to say something to him. I couldn't just thank him and walk away like I had with the others. So I just had to say, "you are amazing." He looked up at me with those fucking beautifully alluring eyes and simply said, "thank you, have a good night guys." I walked out of there stunned and speechless, with a cd that was signed from one of the most amazing bands ever. Wow.
Oh, sidenote. Erin asked Jared if HE would sign her cd "S my D you nasty B," as well. He declined, saying he'd get in trouble. But not only did he sign the inside of her cd jacket as he had done for us, he also separately signed her cd, and wrote "Hi." at the bottom of it. Oddly enough, his "hi" looked just like "Hj," which Erin is pretty psyched about. I got to say, I am definetely jealous - 2 signatures?! come on.
We smoked 2 bowls immediately when we got on the highway. I definetely needed to be sedated. I thought I was gonna explode. I still can't stop thinking about it or talking about it or daydreaming about it. The single most amazing music-related experience I have ever had in all my life. I would honestly have to meet Offspring, Blink 182, or silverchair to top that one.
I had a dream last night, despite Keegan's best efforts to get me to NOT dream about Jared, that we were hanging out regularly. He was so amazing. I got him to smoke weed out of a metal pipe. Don't ask me why I had a metal pipe, maybe it was his? I also talked him into flying over to Amsterdam for a couple days when we will be there, claiming that I knew he could afford the trip. haha. I HATE waking up from dreams like those.
So that's it. I apologize for the length of this entry, but you see, if I don't document the entire experience, I really and truly feel that I will forget it all. Well, not ALL of it, but parts I don't wanna forget. Special thanks to Renee and Erin for making my night one of the best ever. Lots of love my friends.
Please now take the time to go back and click on the links you have missed, or forget the whole thing and click on this link to bring you to the whole photo album from last night. Once Renee gets her film developed we will have some more mindblowing pictures to show you all. Thank you, and good night.
October 26th, 2006 - "meh"
live journal tends to make me homicidal.
other times, suicidal?
eh, i don't know.
lame.
other times, suicidal?
eh, i don't know.
lame.
October 6th, 2006
well it's officially fucking freezing.
my mom mentioned something about it getting down to almost 30 degrees today.
weather.com says it will only get down to 48 tonight though.
but it IS cold.
i can't feel my nose or my feet... and i am starting to lose feeling in my fingertips.
how do you expect me to work under these conditions?
hah... brenda actually told me i could close if it was that cold...
nice. i think i will close a little early today. NICE.
tonight is jen's kegger.
come one, come all.
it's been a long time since we've had a party.
i say "we" since jen put me in charge of invites... therefore i invited pretty much everyone i would invite to a party if it was mine.
hopefully it won't be unbearably freezing.
and even so... the booze shall warm us.
keegan had a dream that i was wearing a full body light blue leather suit with a zipper up the front last night.
he woke up to tell me that with a big shit-eating grin on his face.
fucking creepy.
he's lucky he's cute sometimes. muah.
all i really want in life is to have a hot coffee or tea.. and a cigarette.
my problem now is that i will be so fucking cold if i smoke a cig..
and i would have to physically leave to go get a hot something-or-other.
i had dinner with my mom at the all american pub last night.
it was just me and her.
that makes for an awkward situation.
which is sad.
to call dinner with your mom "awkward."
anyway..
the majority of our conversation was about how we can't believe i'm her daughter...
"you know, if i didn't give birth to you i would swear to god you weren't my kid..."
ha. ha. ha.
not like i even wanted to be the child of a psycho 40 something cheerleader that is best friends with her 16 year old daughter.
it's unhealthy in my opinion.
and i told her that.
"i personally don't believe teenagers should spend as much time with their parents as lauren and joey spend with you and dad. they should be out making friends and dating and stuff."
she disagrees.
"a this age kids need their parents now more than they ever have before."
oh, please.
she is literally gonna turn down a job that could make her $75,000 a year because she wants to spend every moment of her free time with her best friend lauren.
GROSS. SERIOUSLY.
"i really love to be involved with what lauren is doing, i wish i coulda started doing it 10 years ago - but you were never into that sort of thing"
well, come to find out, here's why:
i tried every sport known to mankind. i played on MAD teams.
i was never really good at anything.
except!
being a girl scout.
why?
because all you had to do was fucking hang out.
it's so true.
hang out with your friends...
make crafts.
sell cookies.
camp out.
sing songs.
it was the shit.
if it wasn't for girl scouts, i wouldn't be who i am today.
anyway, back to my revelation..
i don't like feeling inadequate.
nor do i like making others feel inadequate.
that's all sports are... because no matter what...
SOMEONE's got to lose.
fuck that.
i was in girl scouts and chorus.
the 2 things that made me happy.
cus no matter what, you were all equals.
you could decide to go above and beyond your call of duty to get extra badges...
or you could go out for the solo...
but it was never a competition.
there was never a way that you could truly feel bad for yourself, or about yourself.
unless you were really a loser.
Hah.
anyhoo...
my mom is here.
she came to pick up a bunch of weights we had left over from an unsold auction.
she is going to start working as a manager or something at dunkin donuts.
apparently they are gonna pay a lot and work around her schedule.
she just really wants to be able to spend time with her "family"
what the fuck is that shit.
the woman missed several of my birthdays as a child but she needs to be around for her other kids every damn day.
it's SO ridiculous.
she also tells me that she might be able to afford a wedding now that she has a job.
in conversation a minute ago she was like "well you're getting married next year and...."
and i was like "hah, i don't know WHEN i'm getting married, at this point it looks like i'm gonna have to wait a longtime to be able to afford it, or alope, but i can't get married on the budget you gave me, i can't cut my list down, and it's big."
so now she says she would cut the family down to nothing, but she is not paying for a wedding for all my friends to come.
agreed.
what to do, what to do.
it's so stressful.
i really need to do something but i am too cold to move.
decidely, i AM going to smoke a cig.
i mean come on, my mom was just here, it's totally in order.
alright i'm gonna go.
this mindless babble has got to stop.
and in no way was this a "feel bad for me my mom is crazy" post...
it's just what was on my mind.
all your moms are pretty crazy i'll bet.
haha.
love you. bye.
my mom mentioned something about it getting down to almost 30 degrees today.
weather.com says it will only get down to 48 tonight though.
but it IS cold.
i can't feel my nose or my feet... and i am starting to lose feeling in my fingertips.
how do you expect me to work under these conditions?
hah... brenda actually told me i could close if it was that cold...
nice. i think i will close a little early today. NICE.
tonight is jen's kegger.
come one, come all.
it's been a long time since we've had a party.
i say "we" since jen put me in charge of invites... therefore i invited pretty much everyone i would invite to a party if it was mine.
hopefully it won't be unbearably freezing.
and even so... the booze shall warm us.
keegan had a dream that i was wearing a full body light blue leather suit with a zipper up the front last night.
he woke up to tell me that with a big shit-eating grin on his face.
fucking creepy.
he's lucky he's cute sometimes. muah.
all i really want in life is to have a hot coffee or tea.. and a cigarette.
my problem now is that i will be so fucking cold if i smoke a cig..
and i would have to physically leave to go get a hot something-or-other.
i had dinner with my mom at the all american pub last night.
it was just me and her.
that makes for an awkward situation.
which is sad.
to call dinner with your mom "awkward."
anyway..
the majority of our conversation was about how we can't believe i'm her daughter...
"you know, if i didn't give birth to you i would swear to god you weren't my kid..."
ha. ha. ha.
not like i even wanted to be the child of a psycho 40 something cheerleader that is best friends with her 16 year old daughter.
it's unhealthy in my opinion.
and i told her that.
"i personally don't believe teenagers should spend as much time with their parents as lauren and joey spend with you and dad. they should be out making friends and dating and stuff."
she disagrees.
"a this age kids need their parents now more than they ever have before."
oh, please.
she is literally gonna turn down a job that could make her $75,000 a year because she wants to spend every moment of her free time with her best friend lauren.
GROSS. SERIOUSLY.
"i really love to be involved with what lauren is doing, i wish i coulda started doing it 10 years ago - but you were never into that sort of thing"
well, come to find out, here's why:
i tried every sport known to mankind. i played on MAD teams.
i was never really good at anything.
except!
being a girl scout.
why?
because all you had to do was fucking hang out.
it's so true.
hang out with your friends...
make crafts.
sell cookies.
camp out.
sing songs.
it was the shit.
if it wasn't for girl scouts, i wouldn't be who i am today.
anyway, back to my revelation..
i don't like feeling inadequate.
nor do i like making others feel inadequate.
that's all sports are... because no matter what...
SOMEONE's got to lose.
fuck that.
i was in girl scouts and chorus.
the 2 things that made me happy.
cus no matter what, you were all equals.
you could decide to go above and beyond your call of duty to get extra badges...
or you could go out for the solo...
but it was never a competition.
there was never a way that you could truly feel bad for yourself, or about yourself.
unless you were really a loser.
Hah.
anyhoo...
my mom is here.
she came to pick up a bunch of weights we had left over from an unsold auction.
she is going to start working as a manager or something at dunkin donuts.
apparently they are gonna pay a lot and work around her schedule.
she just really wants to be able to spend time with her "family"
what the fuck is that shit.
the woman missed several of my birthdays as a child but she needs to be around for her other kids every damn day.
it's SO ridiculous.
she also tells me that she might be able to afford a wedding now that she has a job.
in conversation a minute ago she was like "well you're getting married next year and...."
and i was like "hah, i don't know WHEN i'm getting married, at this point it looks like i'm gonna have to wait a longtime to be able to afford it, or alope, but i can't get married on the budget you gave me, i can't cut my list down, and it's big."
so now she says she would cut the family down to nothing, but she is not paying for a wedding for all my friends to come.
agreed.
what to do, what to do.
it's so stressful.
i really need to do something but i am too cold to move.
decidely, i AM going to smoke a cig.
i mean come on, my mom was just here, it's totally in order.
alright i'm gonna go.
this mindless babble has got to stop.
and in no way was this a "feel bad for me my mom is crazy" post...
it's just what was on my mind.
all your moms are pretty crazy i'll bet.
haha.
love you. bye.
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