You know, I realized that I posted a blog yesterday and did not say what I am thankful for.
So I decidedly will make a whole new blog devoted to my thankfulness.
I am thankful for the following:
My wonderful husband and the family I married into - for being the best of the best. Never making me think twice. Always being supportive. And for supplying the genes that will someday make me a cute little bambino.
My fantastic friends - who all continue to be awesome into their adult lives.
My family (including Keegan's) and relatives - for making our honeymoon possible through their generous donations.
Emmjay - because she makes me happy everyday.
My job - what I have learned there, and the people I've met (and the money, of course).
People like - Tim Howard, Greg, and my parents (sometimes) for helping us all when we are in need.
CONES.
Weight Watchers - for getting me to a better weight so I wouldn't look disgusting on my wedding day.
Barnes and Noble - for bringing back my love for books.
Starbucks - for being there when Dunkin Donuts fails.
Dunkin Donuts - for STILL having pumpkin ice (I won't hold my breath once the month is over).
Sponges with brillo pads on the opposite side - otherwise washing dishes would be three times as frustrating as it already is.
Wendy's - for coming out with a chocolate chip cookie dough frosty.
DJ's - for constantly taking me off my diet with the deliciousness that is their chicken cutlet sandwich.
Keegan's dental connections - got to love white(er) teeth!
Hair straighteners - because.... what would I do with this mane without you?!
Myspace - because you have become a necessity in my life. Just stop changing because it's fucking annoying.
Sarku Japan - for teaching me that I like fried cabbage, more than I ever though I would or could.
Dust busters - for making it much more enjoyable to clean up after Em.
Breathe Right strips - for the many nights I was able to sleep, either when Keegan was using them so he wasn't keeping me awake - or when I was sick and needed them to breathe. They really work!
Turkeys - for being consistently delicious throughout the years.
Ann Taylor Loft - for supplying me with a wardrobe for work (and our honeymoon) that I didn't think was possible. I suppose I should just thank Alena for telling me to go in there and browse.
Internet games - such as Chuzzle and Luxor. They keep me awake and entertained for hours when need be.
Lastly, I'd like to thank 2008 for being my bitch.
It was very cooperative.
It allowed me to diet and exercise, totalling 60 pounds of weight loss (which I have since gained some back).
It also allowed me, Keegan, Erin, Chelsea, and Ryan to quit smoking cigarattes (just passed my 9 month mark)!
I was also able to secure a good job, and get tan in time for my wedding.
Oh, and yeah - I got married too!
So, 2008... although I am sure it was rather embarassing for you, you have empowered me to go forth and do even better things next year.
For that I am the most thankful.
Happy Thanksgiving everybody!
What are YOU thankful for?
Thursday, August 20, 2009
November 27, 2008 - "how dare you."
fucking thanksgiving 2008 is tomorrow.
and... did i just get married and turn 24?
what. the. fuck.
we're about to experience 2009, and we haven't fully secured a slogan yet.
i think maybe it should be "what the fuck. 2009?"
just a thought.
so - *insert really high pitched pysched tone here* hi guys!
i feel like maybe i should recap some from where i left off in my last blog.
but anyone that reads this, knows what's going on in my life already... so why waste precious time?
well let me just say this....
married though.
for real.
after ALL THAT.
it's done.
i'm just amanda keegan, and that is who i will remain.
so much stress, for something that went by in a flash.
i got to say though... it was pretty freakin awesome.
you know what was even awesomer because it lasted 11 days longer than my wedding?
that's right!
OUR HONEYMOON!
you guys don't even know.
or maybe you do.
i hope you do.
but traveling around like that and having so much time and money is unbelievably liberating in a way i wish i could explain.
it was worth it.... spending all that money that is.
we went to amsterdam 2 years ago from now.
that is another thing that i hope those of you haven't experienced, get to eventually experience (if you like weed especially).
it's just freaking amazing what has happened in the past 2 years.
think of madi.
and boy do i love to think about that adorable child.
2 years ago... she wasn't even in the womb yet.
sorry to use the word "womb" on you like that.
but fo' REAL.
i read one of my blogs from a couple years ago and i teared up with laughter.
i asked erin if she thought it was conceited of me to be so amused by my own writing.
she says no.
keegan thinks i should write a book.
i used to want to do that.
now i can't even write a good blog anymore.
am i losing it?
i certainly hope not, since it was one of the only things i ever had.
emmjay is great, she thanks you for asking.
she's having this situation where she is kind of unclear about where she should be shitting.
she seems to have taken it upon herself to just go wherever she deems fit.
it's quite unacceptable, and i am not positive what her malfunction might be.
we've discussed it, and she is just rebelling.
i personally believe that she has abandonment issues from when we went on our honeymoon.
i mean, she had a great time with erin - but how could she be sure that we were going to come back?
aside from the fact that i told her a bunch of times.
she doesn't listen.
so anyway - she probably gave us an ultimatum like "you leave me behind for any length of time in a place that is not my home, and if and when you return, i will shit on your floor for my remaining days".
we probably didn't understand - since she's a fucking rabbit.
my 24th birthday was fun.
much lower key this year.
thank you everyone.
what are we doing for new years?
i have to work on friday because i fucking work for simon.
damn the man.
simon is SO "the man" in my life.
damn him.
at least i only have to work 6 hours, and then after that - it's the weekend.
i suppose i'll suck it up.
christmas is coming.
craaazy.
what's going to happen?
it's a secret.
will keegan get his remote starter?
will i decide on getting a vaporizer?
are tara or chelsea my secret santa?
what did i end up getting my secret santa person?
good things to unfold.
stay tuned.
i got to go.
i don't have to work tomorrow.
it's not even 10:30pm.
i'm just terribly, terribly lame.
good night.
and... did i just get married and turn 24?
what. the. fuck.
we're about to experience 2009, and we haven't fully secured a slogan yet.
i think maybe it should be "what the fuck. 2009?"
just a thought.
so - *insert really high pitched pysched tone here* hi guys!
i feel like maybe i should recap some from where i left off in my last blog.
but anyone that reads this, knows what's going on in my life already... so why waste precious time?
well let me just say this....
married though.
for real.
after ALL THAT.
it's done.
i'm just amanda keegan, and that is who i will remain.
so much stress, for something that went by in a flash.
i got to say though... it was pretty freakin awesome.
you know what was even awesomer because it lasted 11 days longer than my wedding?
that's right!
OUR HONEYMOON!
you guys don't even know.
or maybe you do.
i hope you do.
but traveling around like that and having so much time and money is unbelievably liberating in a way i wish i could explain.
it was worth it.... spending all that money that is.
we went to amsterdam 2 years ago from now.
that is another thing that i hope those of you haven't experienced, get to eventually experience (if you like weed especially).
it's just freaking amazing what has happened in the past 2 years.
think of madi.
and boy do i love to think about that adorable child.
2 years ago... she wasn't even in the womb yet.
sorry to use the word "womb" on you like that.
but fo' REAL.
i read one of my blogs from a couple years ago and i teared up with laughter.
i asked erin if she thought it was conceited of me to be so amused by my own writing.
she says no.
keegan thinks i should write a book.
i used to want to do that.
now i can't even write a good blog anymore.
am i losing it?
i certainly hope not, since it was one of the only things i ever had.
emmjay is great, she thanks you for asking.
she's having this situation where she is kind of unclear about where she should be shitting.
she seems to have taken it upon herself to just go wherever she deems fit.
it's quite unacceptable, and i am not positive what her malfunction might be.
we've discussed it, and she is just rebelling.
i personally believe that she has abandonment issues from when we went on our honeymoon.
i mean, she had a great time with erin - but how could she be sure that we were going to come back?
aside from the fact that i told her a bunch of times.
she doesn't listen.
so anyway - she probably gave us an ultimatum like "you leave me behind for any length of time in a place that is not my home, and if and when you return, i will shit on your floor for my remaining days".
we probably didn't understand - since she's a fucking rabbit.
my 24th birthday was fun.
much lower key this year.
thank you everyone.
what are we doing for new years?
i have to work on friday because i fucking work for simon.
damn the man.
simon is SO "the man" in my life.
damn him.
at least i only have to work 6 hours, and then after that - it's the weekend.
i suppose i'll suck it up.
christmas is coming.
craaazy.
what's going to happen?
it's a secret.
will keegan get his remote starter?
will i decide on getting a vaporizer?
are tara or chelsea my secret santa?
what did i end up getting my secret santa person?
good things to unfold.
stay tuned.
i got to go.
i don't have to work tomorrow.
it's not even 10:30pm.
i'm just terribly, terribly lame.
good night.
April 07, 2008 - "Playing the Waiting Game..."
Ugh. I’m sick to my stomach.
I had my second job interview for a state job last week. They told me I’d hear "something" by either friday afternoon or monday morning. It is now 10:30 on monday morning, and I have a dozen people waiting to hear if I got this job. The worst part about it, is that they’re all convinced it was totally in the bag for me. What they don’t understand is that there were 48 people that applied for this job. 14 were interviewed the first time. I don’t know how many were interviewed the second time. My dad works in that office, so I have connections. But then I find out that someone’s wife that works in that office also wants to the job. I felt that the interviews went really well, but there’s no way of knowing. My dad talked to the dude that works in the department, and I guess he hasn’t heard anything yet either. So, that’s a good thing... It’s just that if I don’t get this job we’re totally fucked. I haven’t had a REAL job since September. My cell phone bill is over $600, and it’ll be shut off any day now. When they shut if off, they need a minimum of $326 to turn it back on. Not to mention our car insurances will both be cancelled by the end of the month if they aren’t paid. Oh, and did I mention rent was due, among other things? Yeah.... FUCKED. I have spent lots of time, including this morning, looking on capecodonline and craisglist for job postings. All of which don’t pay enough, or require some serious degree. I refuse to work in the retail, food, or cleaning business. It’s not my scene. I’m an office girl. This whole thing is just devestating, especially as I watch time pass....
The wedding plans are coming along quite well though. We’ve pretty much secured all the major aspects like the DJ, Florist, Photographer, Dresses, etc. I’ve picked out my bridesmaids gifts and the overall gifts, we’ve just got to buy them. I’ve lost 30lbs since I started dieting (weight watchers) and exercising in January. It’s a nice feeling. I can wear jeans again! My main concern is to look good in my wedding pictures, and I will not like the way I look if I have fat pouring out of my dress. heh.
To keep busy lately (since we rarely leave the house), I have taken my bunny obsession to the next level. Most of you know I got Emmjay a BunSpace (same thing as myspace, but for bunnies). I have also learned that my Flickr account allows me to join groups.... so I have joined 3. Bunny Lovers Unite, Pot Smokers Unite, and I (Heart) Amsterdam. I get to post questions, answers, and pictures in my Bunny Lovers Unite group, and it’s really fantastic. I’ve made new "contacts", and they all comment on my Emmjay pictures. She’s a big hit! Like I’m surprised...
I have been talking about how I’ve wanted to get back into blogging for so long, yet when I get here, I draw a blank. There are so many irrelevant things to talk about that are flooding my mind. However, I should be listing things and/or doing the dishes. I also have to go to Yarmouth and Hyannis at some point today. I guess I am just waiting here with my stomach in knots waiting to hear about this job before I can go on with my day. I feel like I can’t even start working until I have the news. It’s really fucking everything up.
I think I’m gonna go for now. My concentration sucks and I’m in a "mood" until I have reason not to be. Hopefully I’ll be back soon with some great news!
I had my second job interview for a state job last week. They told me I’d hear "something" by either friday afternoon or monday morning. It is now 10:30 on monday morning, and I have a dozen people waiting to hear if I got this job. The worst part about it, is that they’re all convinced it was totally in the bag for me. What they don’t understand is that there were 48 people that applied for this job. 14 were interviewed the first time. I don’t know how many were interviewed the second time. My dad works in that office, so I have connections. But then I find out that someone’s wife that works in that office also wants to the job. I felt that the interviews went really well, but there’s no way of knowing. My dad talked to the dude that works in the department, and I guess he hasn’t heard anything yet either. So, that’s a good thing... It’s just that if I don’t get this job we’re totally fucked. I haven’t had a REAL job since September. My cell phone bill is over $600, and it’ll be shut off any day now. When they shut if off, they need a minimum of $326 to turn it back on. Not to mention our car insurances will both be cancelled by the end of the month if they aren’t paid. Oh, and did I mention rent was due, among other things? Yeah.... FUCKED. I have spent lots of time, including this morning, looking on capecodonline and craisglist for job postings. All of which don’t pay enough, or require some serious degree. I refuse to work in the retail, food, or cleaning business. It’s not my scene. I’m an office girl. This whole thing is just devestating, especially as I watch time pass....
The wedding plans are coming along quite well though. We’ve pretty much secured all the major aspects like the DJ, Florist, Photographer, Dresses, etc. I’ve picked out my bridesmaids gifts and the overall gifts, we’ve just got to buy them. I’ve lost 30lbs since I started dieting (weight watchers) and exercising in January. It’s a nice feeling. I can wear jeans again! My main concern is to look good in my wedding pictures, and I will not like the way I look if I have fat pouring out of my dress. heh.
To keep busy lately (since we rarely leave the house), I have taken my bunny obsession to the next level. Most of you know I got Emmjay a BunSpace (same thing as myspace, but for bunnies). I have also learned that my Flickr account allows me to join groups.... so I have joined 3. Bunny Lovers Unite, Pot Smokers Unite, and I (Heart) Amsterdam. I get to post questions, answers, and pictures in my Bunny Lovers Unite group, and it’s really fantastic. I’ve made new "contacts", and they all comment on my Emmjay pictures. She’s a big hit! Like I’m surprised...
I have been talking about how I’ve wanted to get back into blogging for so long, yet when I get here, I draw a blank. There are so many irrelevant things to talk about that are flooding my mind. However, I should be listing things and/or doing the dishes. I also have to go to Yarmouth and Hyannis at some point today. I guess I am just waiting here with my stomach in knots waiting to hear about this job before I can go on with my day. I feel like I can’t even start working until I have the news. It’s really fucking everything up.
I think I’m gonna go for now. My concentration sucks and I’m in a "mood" until I have reason not to be. Hopefully I’ll be back soon with some great news!
September 14th, 2007 - "it needs to happen."
well, here i am. it's been some time now hasn't it livejournal? i decided that i should show myself, and not just copy a myspace blog and post it in here. that's so sad. especially since livejournal was my original blog spot. big ups to you livejournal - i still know what's up.
so... i am getting married in less than a year from now. crazy, huh? september 12, 2008. who woulda thought that the overweight, sexually frigid, perpetually stuck in the "friend zone" girl would fine her soulmate and marry by 24? not me, that's for SURE. and i know there are tons of people out there that think we are too young... and years ago, i would have agreed. you just never know the feeling until you have it i suppose. and there is no denying this feeling. i know many of you can identify. so trust me, i don't feel like i am doing myself, or keegan for that matter, an injustice by marrying next year. ya heard? so let me run down what the exact situation is for the wedding (now i am going to have to post this in myspace)...
my parents are not wealthy people. you might actually classify them as struggling at this point. so they gave me a choice - a huge cheap wedding with all my friends and a cookout or something... OR... have a elegant beautiful cape cod wedding with just family, the wedding party, and several other choice individuals. it may come as a surprise that i chose the latter since i am obsessed with my friends - but this is a wedding, not a party, and i had to come to terms with that. so, we put a deposit down at the captain linnell house in orleans for an evening wedding on a friday. the actual ceremony is going to be on skaket beach in orleans (right next to the linnell house), and all will be welcome (it will probably be a standing situation for most). however, the reception afterwards will be just fam and wedding party and whatever. BUT... the next day, my bridal party and my extended family have agreed to chip in and throw a huge casual wedding reception for all of the 100 plus people i had to cut off the list. it's gonna be a tent, dj, caterer situation that will start sometime in the late afternoon, and go into the night. it will be at the big house in west dennis, and will not require you to dress up. i figure this will be a much better arrangement for most of my friends anyway. my main concern was that none of you felt left out or unimportant. i want everyone there, obviously.
ok, so that's that.
secondly... i quit the ebay store. shocking, i know. turns out that my bosses were pulling the whole "i don't have the money to pay you today" thing, on the day i was supposed to be getting paid. it happened quite a few times. on labor day weekend it was a real issue. they expected me to go a 3 day weekend, while paying my bills, with $325. i need to deposit at least $400 a week to cover my bills alone. so i made numerous efforts to contact them so i could get the other $250 they owed me, but to no avail. finally, monday night, the day before i was supposed to go to work, my bosses send me this e-mail:
"Amanda--thanks for your email. Jim and I have had numerous discussions regarding the ebay store and your management of it.We are both alarmed with the reduction in sales since the creation of the ebay store which subsequently has impacted us all with a reduced cash flow.
Your need for weekly payment is not working out at this time. Our biggest monthly debt is your contract of $2,400. We have paid this without fail for many months and during this transition we feel we can no longer afford this expense. You seem to be very concerned over the $215. remaining from last week. This money needs to be paid to you before we will incur anymore debts to you.
We are very, very encouraged by the termination/closure of the drop off store on Friday, September 14. As of this moment in time, it is still unclear how this remote transition will occur, and when we are in a better position to explain it, we will. Jim feels that many successful formats have been ignored and he is concerned that this same frivolous approach will be transferred to the remote listing procedure. The Brazilian product of gems and minerals is very detail oriented and we are very concerned that these details will be treated carelessly as so many others have been. We all depend on these profit margins for our livelihood, and the remote process and procedure must be followed explicitly. When you are selling diamonds and gems, there is no margin for error.
We will have a meeting regarding all of our concerns in the next few days. I have been uncomfortable asking you to help me learn the do's and don'ts of listing because I feel as if I'm keeping you from completing your contract work. Like all of us are doing, you will need to make adjustments to your finances as well. Despite this transition, we see a very positive future for estate_ auctions_ online as we focus on the care and maintenance of our foreign clients. We sincerely hope you will remain a part of it, but if you choose to move on we understand. I hope this clarifies some of your concerns. Ardell and Jim"
first off, note all the spelling and punctuation errors. how sad is that for a 60 year old?! secondly, here was my response to that e-mail:
"Jim and Ardell,
You'll be pleased to know that I went and cleaned out all my personal belongings from work this evening, as to not cause a distruption in your work day tomorrow. I took nothing that did not belong to me. All files and documents are on the computer at my desk. Keegan and I will be in sometime tomorrow to collect my $215 owed to me, plus the $40 taken from my check for the bureaus (as I see no way of getting them at this point since there is no vehicle to deliver them anymore).
I'm very interested to hear that "Jim feels that many successful formats have been ignored and he is concerned that this same frivolous approach will be transferred to the remote listing procedure", since Jim has never once made any sort of mention of that to me. All I have ever heard from him was how "we" were going to thrive remotely and he would keep me on to do all this work and blah blah blah.... only to find out that he is worried about my "errors".
Good luck."
so, with that, i showed up the next day, collected my $255, and was done with it. fuck them, ya know? don't sit there and praise me day in and day out for what i do, then when i wanna get paid, turn around and tell me i suck at my job? good luck to them since i am the only one that even knew how to use a computer correctly there. haha.
so summer is pretty much over, huh? i got to say, i love fall weather, a lot. but, fall is just another excuse for me to hibernate and put on weight. unfortunately for me, i have already put on my winter weight in less than a month by going off atkins and going wild for bread. the real reason i went off atkins is because i lost my job and cannot afford to eat steak and the like everyday. truly. otherwise, i would stay on, cus it was working. something has to be done though because now i have less than a year to fit this fat ass in a wedding dress. good god! this summer has been pretty good for concerts though. dispatch, silverchair, state radio, linkin park/my chemical romance/taking back sunday/him/placebo... fucking great times. concerts are my livelihood. i'm seeing say anything again on november 1! luckily that concert is 2 weeks before my birthday and erin is getting me a ticket. jobless girls are not allowed to spend their money on concert tickets.
keegan and i started our own online ebay store. if you wanna search for it, it's called The Eclectic Xperience (Experience was taken). we have about 85 things listed. about 76 of them are ours, and the other things are designer purses and stuff from a personal consigner. stop by and buy some shit! haha. we have sold a couple pairs of pants, a humping chihuaha toy, an fm transmitter, a couple purses, a laser level, and a cross pen set. not bad for a start. every little bit of money helps at this point.
this just in: my mom admitted that she was psycho and needed help. she is "medication sensitive" so she is just gonna go to counseling. she says at this point she is afraid she is seriously gonna hurt someone. she also says that the lines of right and wrong are blurring... scary. she also says that she can't even work because she is afraid of losing her cool if a situation arose. the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem. honestly, i am afraid she is gonna kill the therapist or something, hah.
oh! i just found out that i am far-sighted. the fucked up thing is, i have always had amazing vision. but when i hold something close to my face, it blurs and i can't see it at all. so scary! i can read fine, and my eyes don't bother me when i drive or anything like that. i think i should get a professional opinion soon. it's so fucking weird to all of a sudden have a part of your body that doesn't work the same way it always has, ya know?
well i think i'm done now. this should be enough to keep you all satisfied for another few months, right?
so... i am getting married in less than a year from now. crazy, huh? september 12, 2008. who woulda thought that the overweight, sexually frigid, perpetually stuck in the "friend zone" girl would fine her soulmate and marry by 24? not me, that's for SURE. and i know there are tons of people out there that think we are too young... and years ago, i would have agreed. you just never know the feeling until you have it i suppose. and there is no denying this feeling. i know many of you can identify. so trust me, i don't feel like i am doing myself, or keegan for that matter, an injustice by marrying next year. ya heard? so let me run down what the exact situation is for the wedding (now i am going to have to post this in myspace)...
my parents are not wealthy people. you might actually classify them as struggling at this point. so they gave me a choice - a huge cheap wedding with all my friends and a cookout or something... OR... have a elegant beautiful cape cod wedding with just family, the wedding party, and several other choice individuals. it may come as a surprise that i chose the latter since i am obsessed with my friends - but this is a wedding, not a party, and i had to come to terms with that. so, we put a deposit down at the captain linnell house in orleans for an evening wedding on a friday. the actual ceremony is going to be on skaket beach in orleans (right next to the linnell house), and all will be welcome (it will probably be a standing situation for most). however, the reception afterwards will be just fam and wedding party and whatever. BUT... the next day, my bridal party and my extended family have agreed to chip in and throw a huge casual wedding reception for all of the 100 plus people i had to cut off the list. it's gonna be a tent, dj, caterer situation that will start sometime in the late afternoon, and go into the night. it will be at the big house in west dennis, and will not require you to dress up. i figure this will be a much better arrangement for most of my friends anyway. my main concern was that none of you felt left out or unimportant. i want everyone there, obviously.
ok, so that's that.
secondly... i quit the ebay store. shocking, i know. turns out that my bosses were pulling the whole "i don't have the money to pay you today" thing, on the day i was supposed to be getting paid. it happened quite a few times. on labor day weekend it was a real issue. they expected me to go a 3 day weekend, while paying my bills, with $325. i need to deposit at least $400 a week to cover my bills alone. so i made numerous efforts to contact them so i could get the other $250 they owed me, but to no avail. finally, monday night, the day before i was supposed to go to work, my bosses send me this e-mail:
"Amanda--thanks for your email. Jim and I have had numerous discussions regarding the ebay store and your management of it.We are both alarmed with the reduction in sales since the creation of the ebay store which subsequently has impacted us all with a reduced cash flow.
Your need for weekly payment is not working out at this time. Our biggest monthly debt is your contract of $2,400. We have paid this without fail for many months and during this transition we feel we can no longer afford this expense. You seem to be very concerned over the $215. remaining from last week. This money needs to be paid to you before we will incur anymore debts to you.
We are very, very encouraged by the termination/closure of the drop off store on Friday, September 14. As of this moment in time, it is still unclear how this remote transition will occur, and when we are in a better position to explain it, we will. Jim feels that many successful formats have been ignored and he is concerned that this same frivolous approach will be transferred to the remote listing procedure. The Brazilian product of gems and minerals is very detail oriented and we are very concerned that these details will be treated carelessly as so many others have been. We all depend on these profit margins for our livelihood, and the remote process and procedure must be followed explicitly. When you are selling diamonds and gems, there is no margin for error.
We will have a meeting regarding all of our concerns in the next few days. I have been uncomfortable asking you to help me learn the do's and don'ts of listing because I feel as if I'm keeping you from completing your contract work. Like all of us are doing, you will need to make adjustments to your finances as well. Despite this transition, we see a very positive future for estate_ auctions_ online as we focus on the care and maintenance of our foreign clients. We sincerely hope you will remain a part of it, but if you choose to move on we understand. I hope this clarifies some of your concerns. Ardell and Jim"
first off, note all the spelling and punctuation errors. how sad is that for a 60 year old?! secondly, here was my response to that e-mail:
"Jim and Ardell,
You'll be pleased to know that I went and cleaned out all my personal belongings from work this evening, as to not cause a distruption in your work day tomorrow. I took nothing that did not belong to me. All files and documents are on the computer at my desk. Keegan and I will be in sometime tomorrow to collect my $215 owed to me, plus the $40 taken from my check for the bureaus (as I see no way of getting them at this point since there is no vehicle to deliver them anymore).
I'm very interested to hear that "Jim feels that many successful formats have been ignored and he is concerned that this same frivolous approach will be transferred to the remote listing procedure", since Jim has never once made any sort of mention of that to me. All I have ever heard from him was how "we" were going to thrive remotely and he would keep me on to do all this work and blah blah blah.... only to find out that he is worried about my "errors".
Good luck."
so, with that, i showed up the next day, collected my $255, and was done with it. fuck them, ya know? don't sit there and praise me day in and day out for what i do, then when i wanna get paid, turn around and tell me i suck at my job? good luck to them since i am the only one that even knew how to use a computer correctly there. haha.
so summer is pretty much over, huh? i got to say, i love fall weather, a lot. but, fall is just another excuse for me to hibernate and put on weight. unfortunately for me, i have already put on my winter weight in less than a month by going off atkins and going wild for bread. the real reason i went off atkins is because i lost my job and cannot afford to eat steak and the like everyday. truly. otherwise, i would stay on, cus it was working. something has to be done though because now i have less than a year to fit this fat ass in a wedding dress. good god! this summer has been pretty good for concerts though. dispatch, silverchair, state radio, linkin park/my chemical romance/taking back sunday/him/placebo... fucking great times. concerts are my livelihood. i'm seeing say anything again on november 1! luckily that concert is 2 weeks before my birthday and erin is getting me a ticket. jobless girls are not allowed to spend their money on concert tickets.
keegan and i started our own online ebay store. if you wanna search for it, it's called The Eclectic Xperience (Experience was taken). we have about 85 things listed. about 76 of them are ours, and the other things are designer purses and stuff from a personal consigner. stop by and buy some shit! haha. we have sold a couple pairs of pants, a humping chihuaha toy, an fm transmitter, a couple purses, a laser level, and a cross pen set. not bad for a start. every little bit of money helps at this point.
this just in: my mom admitted that she was psycho and needed help. she is "medication sensitive" so she is just gonna go to counseling. she says at this point she is afraid she is seriously gonna hurt someone. she also says that the lines of right and wrong are blurring... scary. she also says that she can't even work because she is afraid of losing her cool if a situation arose. the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem. honestly, i am afraid she is gonna kill the therapist or something, hah.
oh! i just found out that i am far-sighted. the fucked up thing is, i have always had amazing vision. but when i hold something close to my face, it blurs and i can't see it at all. so scary! i can read fine, and my eyes don't bother me when i drive or anything like that. i think i should get a professional opinion soon. it's so fucking weird to all of a sudden have a part of your body that doesn't work the same way it always has, ya know?
well i think i'm done now. this should be enough to keep you all satisfied for another few months, right?
July 12, 2007 - "god it just feels so good."
man, it sure has been awhile. i'm sitting here alone with some time to reflect... so i thought, why not? we originally had plans to go to rhode island tonight... but those plans fell through. keegan and kelcey just went to play disc.
let me tell you something about disc. i've played before, years ago. i thought it would be a really fun activity for me to get into for weight loss purposes and whatnot. i had only ever done the burgess course. so, this year, we got ourselves some discs and headed to the college course. yeah. me in a skirt and flip flops and going up and down treacherous trails while trying to smack the bugs off - doesn't mix too well (as you can imagine, wah wah wah). not only that - i can't throw the fucking disc. i realized that it is not just the fact that i let my fingers hook around the disc flap, and hold on to it too long... but my arm does not want to throw anything in the direction it should go in. i discovered this sometime last year or the year before, when i went to play beer pong. what a sad night that was. now i will never claim to have been a undefeated beer pong champion... but i was pretty good in my heyday. now i can't even throw remotely close. it's horribly embarassing, and such a mystery to me. so anyway - that is the long winded version of the reason i didn't go with them to play. i mean, we all know i'm lazy, i'm not disagreeing with that... it's just those little things like lack of sneakers and bugs in my hair that keep me down THAT much more.
we missed the moe concert the other night. we had 4th row fucking tickets. we get to the parking lot - look at the sign - look at the tickets... and realize it was the night before. oops. we both looked at the tickets before the date of the show, and neither of us had noticed. der.
crazy shit is happening with my job. i can't really discuss it in depth because it is all too new - and not quite put together yet. i do promise that i will "blog" about that when i am in a position to elaborate further. think happy thoughts.
keegan bought me a bridal book. it's like a year countdown to the "big day" and tells you what you should be doing each month. it starts at 12 months, and that's in november - so i have some time to get into it. i def need to make more calls though. i seriously have bridal spurts where i get some shit figured out - and leave the rest for weeks (or months) later.
oh, and i also wanted to tell you guys that my boss *might* have the only photograph in the world of abraham lincoln, mary todd lincoln, and elizabeth todd edwards (wifey's sister). it's an ambrotype, and it's going to auction july 28th. you can check it out if you go to www.nesteggauctions.com/lincoln.php - it's pretty fucking wild. i got to spend some time with it. i really can't be sure if it's totally him or not. there are almost as many reasons to believe that it's him as there are to believe it is not him. if it sells for a mil, my boss will throw me 10 grand to pay off *most* of my tax debt. if it goes for less, i am gonna get a little something since i did the research on the damn thing.
i have wicked anxiety right now. i think it is because i don't know what to talk about - even though i haven't posted anything in months (nothing of substance anyway). and all these thoughts are flooding my head, but i am pushing them all away and only coming up with stupid things to say. it's either that, or i'm freaked out that the charcoal in the grill is burning and i am in charge of not forgetting to periodically check on it. scary. (i did just get up to check on it by the way).
so i guess i will talk about one of those stupid little thoughts that get through --- the band paramore is awesome. i really love their song misery business. i don't normally like a lot of chic lead singer music, haha. i get into it no matter how many times of day i listen to it. and trust me, i listen to it a lot everyday. however, it is not to the point where i would go spend a full day at warped tour waiting to see them (since that's the only place they're playing) because our warped tour line up is laaame. i've either seen all those bands, or never heard of them. plus, all ages shows suck more and more as you get older.
so some of you may have heard about nan. we keep hearing that she'll go any day now... then it's back to any week now... who knows at this point. this woman does not want to let go. i am right there with her though. i am not ready for that. i have had a shitload of time too... but you just can never be ready for it. meh.
ugh i hate being confined to the house. i really just wanna get up and get in the car and go somewhere... but the fucking grill won't die out. at least not by the time kelcey and keegan get back. i'm like a tornado of anger, swirling about! heh.
keegan, ryan, and i are leaving to go to new york city on saturday morning. we are going to get there early, enjoy the city - check into our hotel, go to the dispatch show, go to the roots down below after show, go to bed, and go back home. what a fun less than 48 hours! but you know what july 29 is?? well if you guessed jen provost's 24th birthday, jen andrews' (family) baby shower, or the silverchair show in boston... YOU ARE CORRECT! erin, kelcey, keegan, and i - the ones that went to the silverchair show in NYC in february - will be taking on the avalon in boston. fuck yes. even though silverchair's music is un-fucking-believable now. and when i say that - i mean it in a positive and negative way. positive for them, because they are all getting older and happier and all that horse shit. but negative for me, because i don't wanna fucking hear daniel johns sing like justin fucking timberlake. don't get me wrong - i love justin timberlake, but daniel johns should NOT BY ANY MEANS be trying to hit those notes. ugh. they are on the late, late show tonight. probably playing straight lines - one of the gayest songs possible. god i love them, why did they have to do this to me? hah. actually, i really like 3 songs on their new cd. sucks compared to liking the entirety of every other one of their cd's though.
dudes, i got to go. i can't manage my thoughts anymore. i'm gonna post this, then freak out about how i should've posted about something i completely blanked about. see yas.
let me tell you something about disc. i've played before, years ago. i thought it would be a really fun activity for me to get into for weight loss purposes and whatnot. i had only ever done the burgess course. so, this year, we got ourselves some discs and headed to the college course. yeah. me in a skirt and flip flops and going up and down treacherous trails while trying to smack the bugs off - doesn't mix too well (as you can imagine, wah wah wah). not only that - i can't throw the fucking disc. i realized that it is not just the fact that i let my fingers hook around the disc flap, and hold on to it too long... but my arm does not want to throw anything in the direction it should go in. i discovered this sometime last year or the year before, when i went to play beer pong. what a sad night that was. now i will never claim to have been a undefeated beer pong champion... but i was pretty good in my heyday. now i can't even throw remotely close. it's horribly embarassing, and such a mystery to me. so anyway - that is the long winded version of the reason i didn't go with them to play. i mean, we all know i'm lazy, i'm not disagreeing with that... it's just those little things like lack of sneakers and bugs in my hair that keep me down THAT much more.
we missed the moe concert the other night. we had 4th row fucking tickets. we get to the parking lot - look at the sign - look at the tickets... and realize it was the night before. oops. we both looked at the tickets before the date of the show, and neither of us had noticed. der.
crazy shit is happening with my job. i can't really discuss it in depth because it is all too new - and not quite put together yet. i do promise that i will "blog" about that when i am in a position to elaborate further. think happy thoughts.
keegan bought me a bridal book. it's like a year countdown to the "big day" and tells you what you should be doing each month. it starts at 12 months, and that's in november - so i have some time to get into it. i def need to make more calls though. i seriously have bridal spurts where i get some shit figured out - and leave the rest for weeks (or months) later.
oh, and i also wanted to tell you guys that my boss *might* have the only photograph in the world of abraham lincoln, mary todd lincoln, and elizabeth todd edwards (wifey's sister). it's an ambrotype, and it's going to auction july 28th. you can check it out if you go to www.nesteggauctions.com/lincoln.php - it's pretty fucking wild. i got to spend some time with it. i really can't be sure if it's totally him or not. there are almost as many reasons to believe that it's him as there are to believe it is not him. if it sells for a mil, my boss will throw me 10 grand to pay off *most* of my tax debt. if it goes for less, i am gonna get a little something since i did the research on the damn thing.
i have wicked anxiety right now. i think it is because i don't know what to talk about - even though i haven't posted anything in months (nothing of substance anyway). and all these thoughts are flooding my head, but i am pushing them all away and only coming up with stupid things to say. it's either that, or i'm freaked out that the charcoal in the grill is burning and i am in charge of not forgetting to periodically check on it. scary. (i did just get up to check on it by the way).
so i guess i will talk about one of those stupid little thoughts that get through --- the band paramore is awesome. i really love their song misery business. i don't normally like a lot of chic lead singer music, haha. i get into it no matter how many times of day i listen to it. and trust me, i listen to it a lot everyday. however, it is not to the point where i would go spend a full day at warped tour waiting to see them (since that's the only place they're playing) because our warped tour line up is laaame. i've either seen all those bands, or never heard of them. plus, all ages shows suck more and more as you get older.
so some of you may have heard about nan. we keep hearing that she'll go any day now... then it's back to any week now... who knows at this point. this woman does not want to let go. i am right there with her though. i am not ready for that. i have had a shitload of time too... but you just can never be ready for it. meh.
ugh i hate being confined to the house. i really just wanna get up and get in the car and go somewhere... but the fucking grill won't die out. at least not by the time kelcey and keegan get back. i'm like a tornado of anger, swirling about! heh.
keegan, ryan, and i are leaving to go to new york city on saturday morning. we are going to get there early, enjoy the city - check into our hotel, go to the dispatch show, go to the roots down below after show, go to bed, and go back home. what a fun less than 48 hours! but you know what july 29 is?? well if you guessed jen provost's 24th birthday, jen andrews' (family) baby shower, or the silverchair show in boston... YOU ARE CORRECT! erin, kelcey, keegan, and i - the ones that went to the silverchair show in NYC in february - will be taking on the avalon in boston. fuck yes. even though silverchair's music is un-fucking-believable now. and when i say that - i mean it in a positive and negative way. positive for them, because they are all getting older and happier and all that horse shit. but negative for me, because i don't wanna fucking hear daniel johns sing like justin fucking timberlake. don't get me wrong - i love justin timberlake, but daniel johns should NOT BY ANY MEANS be trying to hit those notes. ugh. they are on the late, late show tonight. probably playing straight lines - one of the gayest songs possible. god i love them, why did they have to do this to me? hah. actually, i really like 3 songs on their new cd. sucks compared to liking the entirety of every other one of their cd's though.
dudes, i got to go. i can't manage my thoughts anymore. i'm gonna post this, then freak out about how i should've posted about something i completely blanked about. see yas.
April 19th, 2007 - "420 is upon us."
i just wanted to take the time out to wish you all a happy and healthy 4/20.
erin, zoe, and i will be taking our annual trip off cape... just not to our usual spot. our objective is to get to vermont. we were planning on heading to burlington, but it might be too far... depends on what time we are in motion.
i am currently burning 6 420 related cd's for erin's new 6 CD changer... in her new mercedes benz wagon. we're very excited about our maiden voyage out of state. we got a half and we'll be having a lot of fun. i suggest you all do the same.
erin, zoe, and i will be taking our annual trip off cape... just not to our usual spot. our objective is to get to vermont. we were planning on heading to burlington, but it might be too far... depends on what time we are in motion.
i am currently burning 6 420 related cd's for erin's new 6 CD changer... in her new mercedes benz wagon. we're very excited about our maiden voyage out of state. we got a half and we'll be having a lot of fun. i suggest you all do the same.
February 26th, 2007 - "holy shit it's not a quiz!"
hey folks. i'm trying out the "rich text" mode that livejournal has to offer. i don't know if it will come out looking the same as it looks right now once i post it - but who cares, it looks good now.
so let's see... lots to update on. you know, i wanted to update weeks ago, but i keep putting it off. i know i did the silverchair blog, but - duh.
keegan is watching a 2 part episode of CSI directed by tarantino right now. i would have been into it had i been paying attention in part one. now it's too late, and there is another 45 min of this episode. ah well, guess i'll catch up here.
so a couple weeks ago, a bunch of us went to roots down below at pufferbellies. we all got there way too early. which pretty much meant there wasn't much to do but drink a shitload to pass the time. it ended up being me, keegan, erin, renee, katie feist, tara, jen a, kelcey, ryan, and dan. a lot of long islands and shots ensued on everyone's part. people were accosted, others were dodged. we rocked out since it was clearly late enough in the night for us all to be in that kinda mood. at the end of the night i got overly emotional drunk and made a bit of a scene regarding kelcey, and her driving herself and dan home. we figured it out. we should have planned ahead because we didn't have the most sober of drivers, but we had the sober-est of drivers. promise. it was a looong night. it was also a funnn night. belee dat.
on another note, we finally bit it and went to a bridal expo. it was me, keegan, jen p, jen's mom, my mom, and my sister. we were bombarded with information. we got the date, but still no idea where we are gonna have it. i pretty much found my dress, but i am not gonna try them on till next year. i have so many hopefulls for my bridesmaids dresses, but they keep changing. and the bridesmaid thing is KILLING ME. as if it isn't hard enough to keep the wedding totals below 200... all my friends want to be bridesmaids. almost all of them are equally entitled to the job. however, i cannot have 8 bridesmaids with like 4 or 5 ushers. i need to clean house - which will make people very upset but it's not a contest. if i have one person, then the other person wants to know what makes that person more qualified then them? it's basically a game of ranking my friends, which is the last thing i want to do. i promised bridesmaids status to almost everyone - before i really realized that it can't go down like that. oh well, we'll cross that bridge sooner or later. anyway - back to the expo. so we get a bunch of shit, enter a bunch of giveaways, collect a lot of phamplets... blah blah blah. so then these guys are gonna give away a night stay at any marriott hotel, anywhere. but the catch is that you have to be the first 11 callers. so we all had to get cell phones out and continuously call this dude. so a bunch of people get it, me not being one of them. apparently once you were one of the 11, you had to get on stage and dance for it. they had you do a couple different dances, and the audience picked the winner. the dj guy needed help with the cha cha slide, so he asked if anyone in the audience knew it. of course, lauren chester knew it. so she had to go on stage, and have all these people follow her lead. the dude kept calling her "fly girl". have to admit, it was mildly entertaining. or maybe it was the sea breezes i was drinking... idk. then there was a fashion show where i realized that palm beach coral and/or burnt orange vests look like shit on the guys. so that's another modification i have to look into making. so after the fashion show was over... the dude asks for all the couples to come on stage. i, of course, wanted no part of it. however, keegan raised his hand, and my mom was trying to hold my hand up. so, along with 11 other couples, we had to go up on stage to play a rendition of the "newlywed game". meh. the couples all had to stand back to back, and the boys got a clipboard and a pen. the dj dude (from mr. tux) asked questions, and our answers had to match. the first question was what was the guys' best feature. i said lips. keegan said smile. we were in. a bunch of people got eliminated. there was only 4 of us left. next question was who would your guy want to be for a day. i panicked and went with justin timberlake. i don't know, it was a shot in the dark. and kind of a joke. i mean, it's just for a day! ANYWAY keegan said himself.. but we lucked out cus everyone else got that one wrong too, so we got to stay. the next question was what was the last movie we saw together in the theater? the 2 girls to my right got it totally wrong. i could not remember for the life of me, but by the time it got to me it clicked - alpha dog. so i was safe. oh, did i mention this was a contest for $250 cash? so the girl next to me is all "omg i know all the actors and what happened in the movie but i cant remember the title!" and the guy was like... "ok, who was in it and what happened" and as she was explaining it, the audience yells out the name. and HE FUCKING GAVE IT TO HER! bullshit. mind you, her fucking fiance was the one that won the damn night at the marriot for being an entertaining person to watch do pelvic thrusts. so, okay - next question. what is your soon-to-be-mother-in-law's birthday? i knew it when it came around, but i had completely forgot. but of course, the connecticut-bred looking bitch knew it right down to the year. can you believe we lost when she totally cheated? so i was PISSED. keegan was okay with it. but i had to complain to mother. well wouldn't you believe she marched right on up to the tux guy and asked if there was a runner-up prize or something since it clearly wasn't fair. we ended up leaving with a free tux for the wedding. lame compared to $250 cash, but whatev.
work has been tough lately. our boss is nothing short of a douchebag. i mean, when he is nice - he is my fave adult to be around. but when he isn't being nice, he is a royal asshole. he makes shit up in his head. wicked mood disorders. and he knows it, which might be the worst part. sometimes i feel like working for him is like being in an abusive relationship with someone you love, because you feel like no one else will love you. yeah, totally.
i learned something tonight. i learned that positive reinforcement is the key to life. think about it. if you get constantly praised for the good things you do, you will look for that praise all the time, thus striving for excellence. this is why i can't do math. i had a hard time with it, but instead of helping me through it, my parents got angry and frustrated with why i just couldn't get it - and would scare me into getting the questions right. which i seldom did. i try my hardest to offer positive reinforcement, and now i realize that the reason i do, is because i am treating others as i would like to be treated, which is how i tend to roll. for instance, when i taught keegan to drive standard... instead of freaking out and huffing and puffing and freaking him out when he would stall or something - i would tell him how good he was doing, and offer suggestions on how he might alter what he was doing to make it more comfortable to him. he learned in no time. same thing with jen a. no sooner did i teach her, she was driving my car on hills for chrissakes.
we went to the all american pub for dinner the other night for my dad's 44th. my parents admitted that they are much nicer to their children now. i was the test kid. so much so, that my sister pushed all her dreams of boston college to the wind, because she is too comfortable with mommy at home. she won't even get a fucking license. it's gross! not only that, she has a "serious" boyfriend (who is already like a part of the family) that she doesn't want to leave. she has some serious plans to go to 4 C's and try to further her career as a cheerleader. my brother, thankfully, wants to go to florida state... then move to NH. i told him to go to FL and not come back. he has to get out. and NH is not all he thinks it is. or else i'd still be there.
on an entirely different note... my bunny is a celine dion fan. during the oscar's last night, when celine came on - she stopped eating, perked her ears so high, and raised her left paw off the ground and held it there. then ran under her box and hopped around it for a bit. man, she loooves it. then today keegan was saying things like "marky mark" and "panic at the disco" to look for a reaction. nothing. then he says "celine dion" and she starts doing this weird twitchy thing with her face. fucking celine loving fascist. love her.
um. lots of concerts coming up. don't know how i'm gonna do it, but i gotta.
say anything & saves the day.
state radio.
roots down below and the wailers.
my chemical romance.
fall out boy/the academy is.../+44/cobra starship.
30 seconds to mars (and a couple other bands i could care less about).
ROGER WATERS!
dispatch (already got tickets).
i feel like i am missing a couple but that's okay, doesn't really matter.
i have GOT to go. keegan has now thrown my keys, a cigarette pack, 2 lighters, and a sock at the bunny because she is "not responding" to him. there goes the other sock. this is what happens when you let him drink 2 bottles of champagne by himself. good god. luckily, he wouldn't throw it hard enough to hit her.. but i might just have to hit him.
laaate.
so let's see... lots to update on. you know, i wanted to update weeks ago, but i keep putting it off. i know i did the silverchair blog, but - duh.
keegan is watching a 2 part episode of CSI directed by tarantino right now. i would have been into it had i been paying attention in part one. now it's too late, and there is another 45 min of this episode. ah well, guess i'll catch up here.
so a couple weeks ago, a bunch of us went to roots down below at pufferbellies. we all got there way too early. which pretty much meant there wasn't much to do but drink a shitload to pass the time. it ended up being me, keegan, erin, renee, katie feist, tara, jen a, kelcey, ryan, and dan. a lot of long islands and shots ensued on everyone's part. people were accosted, others were dodged. we rocked out since it was clearly late enough in the night for us all to be in that kinda mood. at the end of the night i got overly emotional drunk and made a bit of a scene regarding kelcey, and her driving herself and dan home. we figured it out. we should have planned ahead because we didn't have the most sober of drivers, but we had the sober-est of drivers. promise. it was a looong night. it was also a funnn night. belee dat.
on another note, we finally bit it and went to a bridal expo. it was me, keegan, jen p, jen's mom, my mom, and my sister. we were bombarded with information. we got the date, but still no idea where we are gonna have it. i pretty much found my dress, but i am not gonna try them on till next year. i have so many hopefulls for my bridesmaids dresses, but they keep changing. and the bridesmaid thing is KILLING ME. as if it isn't hard enough to keep the wedding totals below 200... all my friends want to be bridesmaids. almost all of them are equally entitled to the job. however, i cannot have 8 bridesmaids with like 4 or 5 ushers. i need to clean house - which will make people very upset but it's not a contest. if i have one person, then the other person wants to know what makes that person more qualified then them? it's basically a game of ranking my friends, which is the last thing i want to do. i promised bridesmaids status to almost everyone - before i really realized that it can't go down like that. oh well, we'll cross that bridge sooner or later. anyway - back to the expo. so we get a bunch of shit, enter a bunch of giveaways, collect a lot of phamplets... blah blah blah. so then these guys are gonna give away a night stay at any marriott hotel, anywhere. but the catch is that you have to be the first 11 callers. so we all had to get cell phones out and continuously call this dude. so a bunch of people get it, me not being one of them. apparently once you were one of the 11, you had to get on stage and dance for it. they had you do a couple different dances, and the audience picked the winner. the dj guy needed help with the cha cha slide, so he asked if anyone in the audience knew it. of course, lauren chester knew it. so she had to go on stage, and have all these people follow her lead. the dude kept calling her "fly girl". have to admit, it was mildly entertaining. or maybe it was the sea breezes i was drinking... idk. then there was a fashion show where i realized that palm beach coral and/or burnt orange vests look like shit on the guys. so that's another modification i have to look into making. so after the fashion show was over... the dude asks for all the couples to come on stage. i, of course, wanted no part of it. however, keegan raised his hand, and my mom was trying to hold my hand up. so, along with 11 other couples, we had to go up on stage to play a rendition of the "newlywed game". meh. the couples all had to stand back to back, and the boys got a clipboard and a pen. the dj dude (from mr. tux) asked questions, and our answers had to match. the first question was what was the guys' best feature. i said lips. keegan said smile. we were in. a bunch of people got eliminated. there was only 4 of us left. next question was who would your guy want to be for a day. i panicked and went with justin timberlake. i don't know, it was a shot in the dark. and kind of a joke. i mean, it's just for a day! ANYWAY keegan said himself.. but we lucked out cus everyone else got that one wrong too, so we got to stay. the next question was what was the last movie we saw together in the theater? the 2 girls to my right got it totally wrong. i could not remember for the life of me, but by the time it got to me it clicked - alpha dog. so i was safe. oh, did i mention this was a contest for $250 cash? so the girl next to me is all "omg i know all the actors and what happened in the movie but i cant remember the title!" and the guy was like... "ok, who was in it and what happened" and as she was explaining it, the audience yells out the name. and HE FUCKING GAVE IT TO HER! bullshit. mind you, her fucking fiance was the one that won the damn night at the marriot for being an entertaining person to watch do pelvic thrusts. so, okay - next question. what is your soon-to-be-mother-in-law's birthday? i knew it when it came around, but i had completely forgot. but of course, the connecticut-bred looking bitch knew it right down to the year. can you believe we lost when she totally cheated? so i was PISSED. keegan was okay with it. but i had to complain to mother. well wouldn't you believe she marched right on up to the tux guy and asked if there was a runner-up prize or something since it clearly wasn't fair. we ended up leaving with a free tux for the wedding. lame compared to $250 cash, but whatev.
work has been tough lately. our boss is nothing short of a douchebag. i mean, when he is nice - he is my fave adult to be around. but when he isn't being nice, he is a royal asshole. he makes shit up in his head. wicked mood disorders. and he knows it, which might be the worst part. sometimes i feel like working for him is like being in an abusive relationship with someone you love, because you feel like no one else will love you. yeah, totally.
i learned something tonight. i learned that positive reinforcement is the key to life. think about it. if you get constantly praised for the good things you do, you will look for that praise all the time, thus striving for excellence. this is why i can't do math. i had a hard time with it, but instead of helping me through it, my parents got angry and frustrated with why i just couldn't get it - and would scare me into getting the questions right. which i seldom did. i try my hardest to offer positive reinforcement, and now i realize that the reason i do, is because i am treating others as i would like to be treated, which is how i tend to roll. for instance, when i taught keegan to drive standard... instead of freaking out and huffing and puffing and freaking him out when he would stall or something - i would tell him how good he was doing, and offer suggestions on how he might alter what he was doing to make it more comfortable to him. he learned in no time. same thing with jen a. no sooner did i teach her, she was driving my car on hills for chrissakes.
we went to the all american pub for dinner the other night for my dad's 44th. my parents admitted that they are much nicer to their children now. i was the test kid. so much so, that my sister pushed all her dreams of boston college to the wind, because she is too comfortable with mommy at home. she won't even get a fucking license. it's gross! not only that, she has a "serious" boyfriend (who is already like a part of the family) that she doesn't want to leave. she has some serious plans to go to 4 C's and try to further her career as a cheerleader. my brother, thankfully, wants to go to florida state... then move to NH. i told him to go to FL and not come back. he has to get out. and NH is not all he thinks it is. or else i'd still be there.
on an entirely different note... my bunny is a celine dion fan. during the oscar's last night, when celine came on - she stopped eating, perked her ears so high, and raised her left paw off the ground and held it there. then ran under her box and hopped around it for a bit. man, she loooves it. then today keegan was saying things like "marky mark" and "panic at the disco" to look for a reaction. nothing. then he says "celine dion" and she starts doing this weird twitchy thing with her face. fucking celine loving fascist. love her.
um. lots of concerts coming up. don't know how i'm gonna do it, but i gotta.
say anything & saves the day.
state radio.
roots down below and the wailers.
my chemical romance.
fall out boy/the academy is.../+44/cobra starship.
30 seconds to mars (and a couple other bands i could care less about).
ROGER WATERS!
dispatch (already got tickets).
i feel like i am missing a couple but that's okay, doesn't really matter.
i have GOT to go. keegan has now thrown my keys, a cigarette pack, 2 lighters, and a sock at the bunny because she is "not responding" to him. there goes the other sock. this is what happens when you let him drink 2 bottles of champagne by himself. good god. luckily, he wouldn't throw it hard enough to hit her.. but i might just have to hit him.
laaate.
February 17, 2007 - "The Greatest View: Silverchair Concert 2/12/07"
***So as most of you now know, IT has happened. And by it, I mean I finally, after 12 years of obsessing... I saw Silverchair in concert. The following explains the who, what, were, why, how. Please take the time to enjoy this.***
Originally I had been sitting by the computer on the day that the tickets went on sale, and could only afford 2. I got 2 tickets to the February 12 show, which sold out almost immediately. I got Keegan and I tickets for only $20 each, plus those lame conveniency charges and shipping costs. In discussion with Kelcey and Erin, I mentioned that they should go. I knew I could scoop tickets from craigslist or ebay, so that's what I did. Kelcey ended up getting hers for $55, and Erin got hers for $82.50. Inflation's a bitch. Erin was going to be the driver since she is the most experienced in city driving. The day before we were going to go, I get a text message from her that says "limo picks us up at noon". She had rented a 2007 stretch limo to take us so there would be little to no complication, and we could all drink. Amazing. We actually had the limo pick us up at 1, went to a liquor store, stopped for gas and batteries, and headed to NYC. On the way we stopped at a McDonalds in RI that was totally all done like it was a 50s diner, which I thought was wicked cool. We also had to stop in the Bronx to go use a bathroom at a McDonalds. Yikes. Doors opened at 7:30, but I wasn't totally freaking out about being late because Army of Me was opening, and I could have missed them and been okay with it. After getting lost pretty badly, we ended up where we needed to be. Unfortunately we had to get out of a limo in front of the line of kids waiting to get into the concert... embarassing. We were at the Bowery Ballroom, one of the smallest concert venues I have been to. We got some drinks and proceeded upstairs to check out Army of Me. They played very well, but I think their stuff might be a little too soft for me. After they went off stage they band members were practically standing right next to us in a doorway. Some people went over and hugged them and got pictures. I just left them alone. When they went off stage, I got as close as I could weasle in, and got VERY impatient.
On the way there I am hell bent on trying to bet on which song they will open with. I felt very strongly about them opening with Slave (from Freak Show, their second cd). We got right up to the front right of the stage, and a dude we were standing near (whom Kelcey and Erin befriended) was almost sure they would open with Slave too. We were excited. Much to our suprise, they opened with Without You (off Diorama, their fourth cd). No big deal. Next, they come out with Emotion Sickness which sends me into an absolute frenzy. As we all know, that is one of my most favorite songs. I took a 30-second or so clip of it with my camera, which you will find in My Videos section. At this point I am so fucking pumped, expecting more Neon Ballroom, or some Freak Show, or, most importantly, Frogstomp songs. But following Emotion Sickness we got The Greatest View, World Upon Your Shoulders, and Across The Night (all off Diorama), then Young Modern Station (off their newest cd that won't be released for about a month from now). I was starting to get concerned that they weren't going to play many older songs. So as much fun as I was having... I was starting to get slightly disappointed. Ana's Song (off Neon Ballroom) came afterwards, and that reassured me that good things were to come... I think.
Now let me stop here and just say a couple things regarding the way I feel about Silverchair's new music. When I heard Straight Lines (their newest single, and also the next song on their playlist that night), I had a fucking heart attack. A literal tear dropped from my eye when I saw the video. Let me remind you that I fell deeply in love with that band at a most influential point in my life - and have never felt differently. That band was the GRUNGE band Silverchair, from 1995. My love continued through Freak Show, went with the flow into Neon Ballroom until I learned to really love it... and got really concerned at Diorama. Honestly, when Diorama came out I felt like maybe my love was diminishing, but I still maintained that they were my favorite band. I never really got into Diorama. I knew pretty much all the songs - but just couldn't relate to them or enjoy them like I had done in previous years. So let me just say that when they were done playing Straight Lines, and then played 2 more songs from Diorama (Tuna in the Brine & Luv You Life) my heart was sinking. I didn't realize that they were going to play that concert as if Diorama had just been released and they were promoting it (it was released in 2002). Finally I hear Daniel say they were going to play "an old song" and I nearly lost my shit. In the seconds before he started playing I had high hopes of what it could possibly be. It was The Door, off Freak Show (their second cd) and also happened to be the first song they played all night that was pre-1999. I had hoped for something off Frogstomp, but I decided to just keep my fingers crossed that they would bust out with it a little later, or at least for the encore. 2 new songs followed, Don't Wanna Be The One (a Midnight Oil cover) & Mind Reader. I knew the concert was coming to an end and I was getting really upset. Then FINALLY they played Freak (everyone knows this song, hopefully) and I couldn't have been more pleased. If they had not at least played that I would have freaked. And that was it, they went off stage. We all knew an encore was in order. They seemed to take forever to come back out, and when they did they played If You Keep Losing Sleep (another new song), and The Lever (off Diorama). That was it. Not one song off Frogstomp, not even Tomorrow (which is essentially the song that made them who they are today). I had so many mixed emotions when I left there. For one, I was absolutely overwhelmed and ecstatic at what I had just seen. I was also very sad that it was over, and kept thinking that I may never get the chance to experience that again. Lastly, I was super disappointed that they didn't play any real old songs. Come to find out that Daniel doesn't "relate" to those songs anymore. Bummer. I mean, I don't really relate anymore either, but I did at one point, and will always love them because of it. I honestly would not be who I am today without that cd. But oh well, about 10 years too late for the concert where they play all Freak Show and Frogstomp songs. I can say though, after the seeing them live, I have a new found love for Diorama, and will be anticipating their new cd. I have to accept that we all grow up at some point, and with musicians, it reflects majorly through their music. I need to learn to grow with them, and not be close-minded to their maturation. I seriously just love them so much. And no matter how poppy they get, they know how to fucking rock, and that is something I needed to experience to continue loving at the level that I do.
On the way home the limo driver kept having to pull over to rest his eyes. Erin was WASTED on the way home and kept telling the limo driver she loved him. We're pretty sure he loved her too though, so it was okay. We made it home at about 5:40am. Erin passed out on my couch, Kelcey went home to get a couple hours of sleep before work (but she never actually made it), me and Keegan went to bed, but he had to get up early for work in the morning (which he was late to), and I got to stroll into work about 3pm, then work from home.
All in all, the best concert ever. Nothing could top the feeling of seeing your favorite band live after a good 12 years of claiming that they are your number one. I have renewed my obsession and have been listening to Diorama for a straight week. I'm talking constantly. I wish more of you had the love I had for them. If anyone does, I would LOVE to make a "through the years" cd that has songs from all 4 cd's so you can hear the unbelievable transition.
You can find all my pictures from the concert (there are about 100) in my Yahoo Photos, the album called Silverchair, obviously. Thanks for reliving this with me.
Originally I had been sitting by the computer on the day that the tickets went on sale, and could only afford 2. I got 2 tickets to the February 12 show, which sold out almost immediately. I got Keegan and I tickets for only $20 each, plus those lame conveniency charges and shipping costs. In discussion with Kelcey and Erin, I mentioned that they should go. I knew I could scoop tickets from craigslist or ebay, so that's what I did. Kelcey ended up getting hers for $55, and Erin got hers for $82.50. Inflation's a bitch. Erin was going to be the driver since she is the most experienced in city driving. The day before we were going to go, I get a text message from her that says "limo picks us up at noon". She had rented a 2007 stretch limo to take us so there would be little to no complication, and we could all drink. Amazing. We actually had the limo pick us up at 1, went to a liquor store, stopped for gas and batteries, and headed to NYC. On the way we stopped at a McDonalds in RI that was totally all done like it was a 50s diner, which I thought was wicked cool. We also had to stop in the Bronx to go use a bathroom at a McDonalds. Yikes. Doors opened at 7:30, but I wasn't totally freaking out about being late because Army of Me was opening, and I could have missed them and been okay with it. After getting lost pretty badly, we ended up where we needed to be. Unfortunately we had to get out of a limo in front of the line of kids waiting to get into the concert... embarassing. We were at the Bowery Ballroom, one of the smallest concert venues I have been to. We got some drinks and proceeded upstairs to check out Army of Me. They played very well, but I think their stuff might be a little too soft for me. After they went off stage they band members were practically standing right next to us in a doorway. Some people went over and hugged them and got pictures. I just left them alone. When they went off stage, I got as close as I could weasle in, and got VERY impatient.
On the way there I am hell bent on trying to bet on which song they will open with. I felt very strongly about them opening with Slave (from Freak Show, their second cd). We got right up to the front right of the stage, and a dude we were standing near (whom Kelcey and Erin befriended) was almost sure they would open with Slave too. We were excited. Much to our suprise, they opened with Without You (off Diorama, their fourth cd). No big deal. Next, they come out with Emotion Sickness which sends me into an absolute frenzy. As we all know, that is one of my most favorite songs. I took a 30-second or so clip of it with my camera, which you will find in My Videos section. At this point I am so fucking pumped, expecting more Neon Ballroom, or some Freak Show, or, most importantly, Frogstomp songs. But following Emotion Sickness we got The Greatest View, World Upon Your Shoulders, and Across The Night (all off Diorama), then Young Modern Station (off their newest cd that won't be released for about a month from now). I was starting to get concerned that they weren't going to play many older songs. So as much fun as I was having... I was starting to get slightly disappointed. Ana's Song (off Neon Ballroom) came afterwards, and that reassured me that good things were to come... I think.
Now let me stop here and just say a couple things regarding the way I feel about Silverchair's new music. When I heard Straight Lines (their newest single, and also the next song on their playlist that night), I had a fucking heart attack. A literal tear dropped from my eye when I saw the video. Let me remind you that I fell deeply in love with that band at a most influential point in my life - and have never felt differently. That band was the GRUNGE band Silverchair, from 1995. My love continued through Freak Show, went with the flow into Neon Ballroom until I learned to really love it... and got really concerned at Diorama. Honestly, when Diorama came out I felt like maybe my love was diminishing, but I still maintained that they were my favorite band. I never really got into Diorama. I knew pretty much all the songs - but just couldn't relate to them or enjoy them like I had done in previous years. So let me just say that when they were done playing Straight Lines, and then played 2 more songs from Diorama (Tuna in the Brine & Luv You Life) my heart was sinking. I didn't realize that they were going to play that concert as if Diorama had just been released and they were promoting it (it was released in 2002). Finally I hear Daniel say they were going to play "an old song" and I nearly lost my shit. In the seconds before he started playing I had high hopes of what it could possibly be. It was The Door, off Freak Show (their second cd) and also happened to be the first song they played all night that was pre-1999. I had hoped for something off Frogstomp, but I decided to just keep my fingers crossed that they would bust out with it a little later, or at least for the encore. 2 new songs followed, Don't Wanna Be The One (a Midnight Oil cover) & Mind Reader. I knew the concert was coming to an end and I was getting really upset. Then FINALLY they played Freak (everyone knows this song, hopefully) and I couldn't have been more pleased. If they had not at least played that I would have freaked. And that was it, they went off stage. We all knew an encore was in order. They seemed to take forever to come back out, and when they did they played If You Keep Losing Sleep (another new song), and The Lever (off Diorama). That was it. Not one song off Frogstomp, not even Tomorrow (which is essentially the song that made them who they are today). I had so many mixed emotions when I left there. For one, I was absolutely overwhelmed and ecstatic at what I had just seen. I was also very sad that it was over, and kept thinking that I may never get the chance to experience that again. Lastly, I was super disappointed that they didn't play any real old songs. Come to find out that Daniel doesn't "relate" to those songs anymore. Bummer. I mean, I don't really relate anymore either, but I did at one point, and will always love them because of it. I honestly would not be who I am today without that cd. But oh well, about 10 years too late for the concert where they play all Freak Show and Frogstomp songs. I can say though, after the seeing them live, I have a new found love for Diorama, and will be anticipating their new cd. I have to accept that we all grow up at some point, and with musicians, it reflects majorly through their music. I need to learn to grow with them, and not be close-minded to their maturation. I seriously just love them so much. And no matter how poppy they get, they know how to fucking rock, and that is something I needed to experience to continue loving at the level that I do.
On the way home the limo driver kept having to pull over to rest his eyes. Erin was WASTED on the way home and kept telling the limo driver she loved him. We're pretty sure he loved her too though, so it was okay. We made it home at about 5:40am. Erin passed out on my couch, Kelcey went home to get a couple hours of sleep before work (but she never actually made it), me and Keegan went to bed, but he had to get up early for work in the morning (which he was late to), and I got to stroll into work about 3pm, then work from home.
All in all, the best concert ever. Nothing could top the feeling of seeing your favorite band live after a good 12 years of claiming that they are your number one. I have renewed my obsession and have been listening to Diorama for a straight week. I'm talking constantly. I wish more of you had the love I had for them. If anyone does, I would LOVE to make a "through the years" cd that has songs from all 4 cd's so you can hear the unbelievable transition.
You can find all my pictures from the concert (there are about 100) in my Yahoo Photos, the album called Silverchair, obviously. Thanks for reliving this with me.
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